BLISSFULNESS

8. which must be disclosed 2

I held my head which was still painful, my tears were broken I could not stand, angry feelings were sad, and disappointed were gathered in my mind, but I was still confused about that feeling ,but who should I show it to?.. , to my mother, or to the man I do not know and with her anger is described as hating me, or me, very much,this shameless me wanted a father in my life, but why did the reality I received so hurt my heart, I felt sorry for the first time, I regretted my birth, I regretted it, isn't it because with his presence I my mother lived a life full of suffering and filled with misery is it not that I was only the source of his suffering, the more I thought about it the more my heart ached and broke .

I was also dissolved in my sadness I did not notice that my mother had hugged me and she was crying looking at me, seeing her cry this time , she was very different from the crying - the crying of the mother yesterday, she was crying,illustrated by the regret in him and the sadness that he could not endure, my heart was getting crushed to see him.

"Mom please say....Honestly, to me whether the man was telling the truth."I tried to hear what came out of my mother's mouth that had raised me and loved me.

With her mom answering her

"a, what, Reni, who you want to know, asked the mother, but I hope, please believe me with Reni's mother, I hope,that man is just a stupid man who never wants to see the truth, son, do not care about him I beg Reni, no matter what happens know that mother loves you very much Reni."said the woman whobia called the mother.

" just tell me the truth, I'm sure you know what I want to ask, I don't want to lie anymore, if he's lying why you didn't tell me that long ago,mother and sister even said father has left, when he is still alive is buk, actually who is lying here buk I am very confused here."I said with a bitter smile full of sadness.

"calm yourself son" said mother.

Mother still sobbing, and trying to calm me, but only this time my heart could not calm down to hear that voice, even my emotions seemed to explode in my chest

"why buk is he not my father, tell buk who is my father, I'm fed up with all this, mother even hide it from me, or the man's cheating mother that must be his father, my father, my mother,who is he buk.

A hard slap landed hard on my cheek, recently I saw my mother very angry in my life and did violence against me.

"forgive me Reni Bu's mother has no intention of hurting you

believe me son, mother is not like that, mother will never do such a low, although mother is lacking it is impossible for mother to do it son, son,moreover, mother is still an impossible wife and will never cheat mother, son, so low is mother in your eyes son, so you do not believe in this mother son".said mother crying.

my mother cried even harder while trying to hug me, with regret and apologizing to me, but I who was consumed with emotion could not think anymore.

I immediately cringed and stood up and without warning - I ran away and left the house without saying goodbye and said again, even I hit my brother at the door I could not care anymore,all I care about is my heart that is now so broken and sick that I want to get out of this house, without thinking I continued to go on my run by enduring my unbearable pain in my heart.I just want to calm myself down now, first,I immediately stopped the taxi I could not ignore my brother who ran to call me while crying incessantly - he called - call my name until my taxi ride away brother is not seen anymore .

I was still with crying eyes in the taxi, I could not ignore my eyes that had been swollen from crying over time, and my long hair was scattered randomly until there was a sound to greet me.

"neng go where nic neng we have been way from earlier, but why not tell the purpose of Eneng".pak said the taxi .

"oh yes sir, kemuning kejalan no 15pak".with a hoarse voice and still as much as I want to answer the driver's questions.

"ready neng immediately headed to the destination, this neng drink first, just calm the father did not give poison in his kok, pure water neng".sajar man offered a drink for Reni to calm down.

"thank you sir".Reni thanked him while smiling at him.

After half an hour had passed, her end was up to her destination as well.

"sorry sir, how much money do I have to pay, sir,?"

I asked ambiguously to understand that I had escaped so I was not prepared.

I immediately reached into my pocket thankfully I still brought 500 thousand money that I offered to the helmet guy but was rejected , he chose to ATM , , ' he chose ,but I thankfully still carried it in my pocket, I immediately picked up 2 pieces of 100san.

"now sir the money, thank you sir for giving me a ride." I gave the 200 thousand money to the taxi sir

"thank you, here's the change, neng". said the father.

"no sir, return to your son." - Reni

"La I don't have a son yet."his circus told me.

"yes for the father also did not expect to count the drinking water in the car sir." said the father.

"not neng mr. sincere, only white water is also neng, cook the price of 50 thousand anyway neng".sajar the man refused.

"yes, I've considered it for tips for the father, I love the satisfactory service so the customer is satisfied" Reni said.

"Oh that's thank you neng".the boy thanked me.

"yes equally sir I also thank you." said Reni.

We immediately separated, I immediately pushed the doorbell in front of me, no matter how long Leni was out to see me, we immediately entered, and she immediately took me to her room.

"ih what the hell is this smell, surely you haven't had a bath yeah REN."while holding the nose he told me that.

I also did not say immediately entered the bathroom, indeed I was from the morning I took a bath, and was home from school and then fainted, I was really cool, so the smell of oil mix perfume typical sultry people into one right.

after bathing and dressing Reni had prepared, I immediately threw myself down shortly, Reni came to bring food to the room and did not forget the minupan as well as snacks.

"In the first meal Ren, surely you have not eaten from earlier right" said Leni with full attention.

"i'm not a laper Len maybe later if I'm a laper.

But I haven't had a chance to take a breath, there's a kruyuk sound, kruyuk in my stomach I grimace and think why my stomach won't compromise with me.

"uh Ren had already given the code, cepet exhausted it later just slept." said Leni with her sweet smile.

I immediately nodded and ate voraciously, I myself did not think that even in my sad state I did not lose my appetite.

I'm so grateful that Reni became my friend she never forced me to tell my problems, but she always kept me calm in my life, I was so lucky to have a friend like her.

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