BLISSFULNESS

12 .release

That afternoon we dissolved in each other's minds, mother's story made us go in and feel the sadness and how disappointed he was, even I began to realize, I don't want anymore ,no longer want to think about the father who had wanted me to have in my life and before until I dreamed of it, dreaming of that figure holding me, worrying me ,and defend me when there's trouble like most of my other friends who have fathers.

And from the mother's story I've calmed down my mother has never cheated on me, I'm not a child of kharam, of an affair, and not a child who was rejected, or not wanted my presence ,even for that father, I was not wanted, but I have 2 people, and those two who are very grateful for my presence, and they are happy to welcome my presence ,that's enough for me I wouldn't be greedy asking for more than my right, I'm self-conscious about it.

From today, I promise I will live happily without a father, and I will be grateful for my condition even though there is no father figure there is still a very dear mother figure ,it's even a pity to me that I know the many sacrifices he's made for us are within me ,he always tried his best for me and my brother, the brother who always protected me who I just realized he was like a father figure for me ,not inferior to the attitude of the mother who is full of assertiveness and does not punish us .behind her attitude that I am very grateful, the color with which we live by knowing the meaning of hard work ,know appreciate time and money .

I never imagined that my mother spoiled me with her various facilities, surely I'm not the me who I am now because I know you can do all that 'em ,he can buy a big house but he does not do it he still firmly live in a house that is only one bathroom only he said let's be ordinary with the culture of queuing up, he said,and I never hired a maid under the pretext we had to live independently , mother has accustomed us from getting up early and their respective duties .

I used to think that my mother was stingy, didn't want to spend a lot of money on us, or indeed she didn't have any money, a lot of my thoughts used to go sightseeing to my mind , until I knew ,this is best for us, my mother educated us from the upbringing of ordinary people in order to feel the life of ordinary people and can feel the struggle of ordinary people, he said,and later when we are in the community we do not underestimate people near us, especially people who help us in our grief.

My mother honed our hobby by giving us a private tutor, and without us knowing my mother made it a field of money for us ,mom arranged everything I've molai like to draw since not yet school, as well as sister, our hobby is probably from a mother who likes paper and has meran Cang her boutique clothes since young.

mom honed our hobby until at a young age we were able to make money on our own through our image, busy promoting our image through her boutique to mine, many customers who like ,with that I got my share, and for my mother's sister promoting home design ,his building to the property of his acquaintance is not expected many clients who like the design of the brother money was flowing to his ATM easily ,my mother always said money is not everything, son, but with 80 percent money we can do everything, not a penny of money we can help people who are in trouble, as well as lack with money ,there are still many people outside who need our help, with goods can be but not goods are also bought with money ak.and for energy not everyone needs energy, but not everyone needs energy, but if needed is not we can buy energy with money, more than that with money makes it easier for us in everything, spelled out matre no need because we have to use logic, ' he said ,besides matre by itself we do not disturb others right.

I just realized finally, what I needed was in front of my eyes, why I could not see clearly yesterday, was looking for things that never mattered in my life , now that I'm shirking God's always giving me what I need I'm just grateful for everything

I had not yet realized from my daydream a firm hand had grabbed me ,

I embrace my sister with my dearly stroked hair with her soft hair, as if taking off my longing at this time ,she is adek that I love to label myself

,,,,,I don't miss big brother ,

But I miss brother's hug, brother's salty cooking, and brother's long speech .

I said it was like smiling a smile full of tears between us

I saw my brother also smiling, while looking at me with a joke he said

,,,,,,,Relax deck I will masakin you , special cooking, I've learned from mom yesterday , but it turns out you prefer my old cooking ,but take it easy later I make a super salty deh, I know for sure you run out a lot

,,,,,,Beres kak later I let out just calm down my soldiers many brother

soldier ant but brother, I smile in my heart and with gratitude.I'm glad my mother and sister are very considerate of me and sincerely give their love and affection to me , ' he said ,whereas they could have thrown me away when I was a kid 'the color in that story I was just a thorn in their flesh, that was my mind yesterday when I found out who I was yesterday ,but I did not think my sister's mother was very sincere to me, even so sincere they were willing to hold all her and their sincerity so great I could not describe with the word .