
Bimasena's fixed eyes stared at the woman's paled and shivering face with her arrival which almost coincided with the arrival of Tristan her husband.
Actually he was very sorry to see Nadia who was restless and frightened. But there was no other option to meet Nadia other than to visit her home.
Mobile phone numbers and social media are blocked. In the salon, Nadia chose to hide rather than meet him. While he has to solve all his problems with Nadia before leaving for Australia tomorrow.
He heard the footsteps of Tristan's shoes walking closer behind him. But he kept looking at Nadia without even looking at Tristan.
"Bim, it's been a while? Why don't you come?" greet Tristan who was now standing next to him.
Now he turned his face towards Tristan. "Just arrived, did you have to talk first if you have to come to your house? You don't accept guests who come suddenly?"
Tristan laughs. "It's not so Bim. What if you've come, and I'm not home?"
Bimasena laughed back, "There's Nadia, I can talk to Nadia." He pointed at Nadia using her face.
"What do you want to talk to Nadia about beauty treatments? Come on in!"
Nadia had already disappeared inside once Tristan invited her in.
As soon as he arrived at the living room, Tristan called Nadia. "Nadia, aren't you cooking suki? Prepare food! I'm going to have dinner with Bima."
"You ate with Nadia. I'll just wait here, still full" he refused to Tristan.
"Come on, we eat together." Tristan half forced him so that he entered the dining room that fused with the kitchen.
He again found Nadia who was lighting a small stove on the table nervously. The woman's face was very tense. Obviously, Nadia is not good at theatrics or lying. There is no talent to be an actress. It deserves to be so quickly degraded from the modeling world. Because he has no other talent than on the catwalk and taking pictures in front of the camera.
Nadia is unable to control herself. Moreover, when he and Tristan were already sitting on the dining table chair. His hands trembled putting the suki ingredients into the pot when the sauce was already boiling. So that his hand was hit by a hot broth and he screamed stifled.
"Can you be more careful working?" Tristan was hitting on him. Making Nadia flinch in shock, then her face turned grim.
Instead of punching Nadia's husband in the mouth, she stood up and opened the freezer, took an ice cube and gave it to Nadia.
"Compress with his ice cubes" he told Nadia.
Nadia received the ice cubes hesitantly, then compressed her hands with the ice.
"The taste is cooked, please eat," said Nadia. Nadia took two glasses of water, placed on the table and then she was about to enter the room.
"Where are you going Nadia? Why not eat? I'm your friend too, not just Tristan. Sit here." He shouted to Nadia who was returning to run away from him.
Nadia stopped walking, then without turning around Nadia said, "You eat, I'm full, you eat before you come."
"That's what you're craving. Learn to appreciate the guests. Let's eat together" Tristan ordered Nadia.
Nadia finally returned to the table. Sit right in front of him. It was obvious that the woman's face was very depressed. He ate with his head down. I dare not look at him at all. Never even chimed in on his conversation with Tristan.
"It was so good, Nadia. You are also good at cooking. Lucky you Tristan has Nadia."
"Ah is new too. I don't know why, since the night of your reunion, Nadia suddenly became kind and caring to me," said Tristan.
Made Nadia choke on the food and coughed. He was shocked to hear Tristan's words.
Bimasena immediately pushed the glass filled with water towards Nadia. "Drink Nadia."
Actually, he was also surprised to hear Tristan's statement. But it is a person who is accustomed to mastering the situation quickly, so that no striking reaction appears. Unlike Nadia who is getting nervous.
******
I don't know what torture's been inflicting on him tonight. How could he have dinner with Tristan and Bimasena at once.
Tristan grumbled at him in front of Bimasena and Bimasena did not stop stabbing his heart with an eye.
He has never felt this tight in his entire life. Seeing Bimasena who was getting bolder approached him and paid attention in front of Tristan.
Do you realize that he almost killed him?
Bimasena and Tristan were still chatting at the dining table as he cleaned up the entire tableware.
"Cigarette?" bimasena asked Tristan.
Did that guy smoke? Why does he not take care of his health?
Why would he be so worried if Bimasena smoked?
"You smoking?" Tristan asked back.
"Sometimes. When the head is dizzy," replied Bimasena while holding a glass filled with water in front of him.
"I don't smoke Bim. Wait for me to the minimarket first buy you a cigarette. What brand?"
"No need. Just let me. Ngerepotin again."
"Let me. You are a guest. What brand?" Tristan was standing before Bimasena. "Work pressure?" tristan.
"Heart problem" but Bimasena made his blood rustle.
Finally Bimasena mentioned his brand and Tristan went to the minimarket.
The situation became more tense as he lived together in the dining room with Bimasena.
"Why Nadia? Why did it suddenly change?" Bimasena repeated his question as soon as Tristan left the house.
Nadia who was standing near the sink turned to face Bimasena.
"Bim you want to see me die huh? Why did you come here? Why is your attitude like that in front of Tristan? Or do you want to tell Tristan about what we've done?" sosor Nadia with a hoarse voice almost cried.
"Nadia, you're wrong to think I'm going to harm you. I just want to know why you suddenly changed? You didn't open the communication room with me until I came here."
"Well, because you asked Bim." Nadia told herself to say, "I'm sorry for the betrayal I've committed to Tristan, so I don't want to make any more mistakes."
"Bim, please don't bother me anymore. Don't disturb our household anymore. I don't want to ruin my household with Tristan. For me you're just a marriage test. Please, Bim again. Leave me! Honor my marriage to Tristan. Appreciate your friend Tristan!" He could not hold back his tears anymore.
"So my presence all this time just bothered you Nadia?" Bimasena asked such a difficult question for him to answer.
The mood was silent for a moment.
"Disturbing my marriage to Tristan Bim," she replied in a voice barely audible to sadness.
Bimasena smiled blandly, then nodded. "alright. Don't cry Nadia. You don't have to worry about me anymore."
"I just wish my presence could mean something to you. It can make you happy. But if it turns out that you don't need me or are disturbed, I promise I won't come near you anymore."
"Don't cry Nadia. Don't worry about me, I won't bother you anymore." Bimasena thrust a tissue box for him, then stood in front of him. "I'm sorry if my presence only makes you difficult. And sorry for everything I've ever done to you." Bimasena continued, then the man stepped into the living room leaving her.
Nadia hurriedly went into the bathroom, and shed her tears there. He turned the water tap to disguise his crying voice so as not to be heard out.
He felt broken to the brink.
Is this what it feels like to be heartbroken?
"I'm sorry if my presence only makes you so hard."
He could not remember all the words of Bimasena.
No Bima, you never troubled me. You never bothered me. Your presence makes me happy. But circumstances do not allow us both to be together. Time is not on our side. I'm sorry Bim.
Thank you for your attention Bim has been on all this time.
I'll remember it my whole life.
I will never be able to forget it.
He just muttered the whole speech in his heart.It will not be delivered.
He had never felt he had Bimasena. Why is he so lost now. It was as if a part of him was missing. It was as if his spirit had been taken away by Bimasena. His heart was so painful.
He washed his face with water. But the crying did not stop. I wanted to go out and hug Bimasena. But all his desires are impossible. Something is forbidden.
She still wants to cry in the bathroom. But Tristan was already banging on the bathroom door.
"Well, what's the matter inside? Sleeping in the bathroom?" sulcan Tristan is upset.
Nadia came out with a bowed face to hide her puffy face from Tristan. As he was about to enter the room, he turned to the living room. Meeting with Bimasena.
*******
Bimasena could only cluck in annoyance when she heard Tristan scolding Nadia again.
"Well, what's the matter inside? Sleeping in the bathroom?"
How many times a day does Nadia get bullying from Tristan? A too weak Nadia or a heartless Tristan?
When Tristan was in the bathroom, the woman appeared with her eyes closed.
No, she was crying in the bathroom. Didn't I say don't cry Nadia.
They looked at each other without saying a single word. Until finally Nadia spoke.
"Please don't smoke Bim, take care of your health, "Hur voice is hoarse. Her tears flowed down her cheeks. Make Bimasena look at him. Unable to say a word.
The woman eventually disappeared behind the door of her room.
Bimasena eventually switched off his cigarette and put a long cigarette butt in the ashtray. So did the pack of cigarettes and matches he put next to the ashtray. Not bring it home. As proof to Nadia, that she heeded her words.
On the way home, he contacted Danindra.
Bimasena: Ndra, Saturday so yes touring?
Danindra: So, why? You want to go out of the country again?
Bimasena: Tomorrow I go to Australia. Friday is back.
Bimasena: Can't we replace the touring more challenging? Bored of sports cars on flat terrain only.
Danindra: What do you want?
Bimasena: Let's try off road yuk? I mean trail bike. It seems more exciting, the terrain is heavier and challenging.
Danindra: Are you sure you can? In the forest, the road is not smooth oy?
Bimasena: Don't look at me lightly. Isn't my job more in the woods? You are ready to use the same vehicle track. Looking for extreme terrain, right? Saturday we act. I will transfer the fee later. Best dirt bike?
Yes, he needs strenuous activity to take his mind off Tristan's wife and overcome his rather chaotic mood again due to Tristan's wife.
Not to forget he invited Alfredo, his high school friend who told him his hobby trail so he was interested to try.
*******
Nadia closed her door as soon as Tristan left for the office. He can't do anything today. It seems like he lost energy. His body seemed lifeless. His legs were so weak as to step, unable to support the body. So he chose to stay at home, not go to the salon.
He went back to his room and played music. While lying down, he listened to the song sung by Bunga Citra Lestari.
Daydream brings him back to the figure who has sown a sense in the heart.
When you came
Why in my time
It can't reach you
Even though you're promoting love
Behind the beautiful smile
You make it real
Like you're a soul mate
Although it is no longer possible
Tuk became my partner
But I believe in love
You're a lover of hearts
Oh
Sometimes it's so hard
To understand
All this we're late
Even though you're promoting love
Behind the beautiful smile
You make it real
Like you're a soul mate
Although it is no longer possible
Tuk became my partner
But I believe your love is a lover of hearts
(Soulmate, C. Yovie W)