BEAUTIFUL REUNION IN TWO

33. The Song of Longing for the Distraught Soul

Nadia was fine last night. Even before she came home, Nadia still returned her kiss despite being nervous.

Why all of a sudden in just a matter of hours can all change? What happened after she came back from Nadia's house?

He had not stepped up, he had stumbled. It has not yet bloomed, it has withered. Just now Nadia catapulted him high up, a while later had already hit him.

Bimasena can't even contact Nadia anymore. Because her number and social media have been blocked Nadia. The woman was serious, wanting to get away from him.

The hope that is about to be achieved will probably be mere wishful thinking. Hope to get through tomorrow with Nadia. Similar to his shading, but only restrained in the soul.

Because against Nadia he became a man who lost power. It is not that he is incapable and lacks courage. But he must be careful, because the biggest impact if he was rash to take a step would fall on Nadia.

In an instant he was able to come to Nadia's house. If you need to land a helicopter on the road in front of Nadia's house. But if the gelagatnya smell Tristan, it is not impossible Tristan sliced Nadia's neck with a kitchen knife. And send Nadia's head for him. Of course he didn't want that to happen.

There is nothing wrong with Nadia who wants to maintain the integrity of her household. Commitment in marriage exceeds commitment in any agreement. Nadia has shown her responsibility, keeping the commitment that was said at the wedding. It even further adds to his admiration for Nadia. But unfortunately, on the other hand it strengthens the desire to have the woman.

What is wrong is himself, why intend to damage the household of his own friends under the pretext of wanting to knit despair and make his friend's wife happy. What kind of friend is he?

Hard to believe. He is a bastard (Hard to believe. He's a bastard).

So this is what's called galau? I'm fucked up.

He tries to find the weak side of Nadia, who can quell his urge to have the woman. Because he shouldn't have that taste. So it must kill the numbness that just grows.

Nadia's last education was only Bimasena High School graduation. While you're already strata two.

I don't care (I don't care).

Many traces of chickenpox on the skin of Nadia, Bimasena. So disgusting.

I've explored all the surfaces of Nadia's skin, no disgust at all. After all, the mark will also disappear by itself and the skin can return smooth like marble.

Nadia's chat isn't of quality. Nadia does not have enough insight and knowledge to align with you Bimasena.

I'm not looking for a debate buddy or a animate encyclopedia.

Nadia's too amateur for sex.

I love his face all the time.

Nadia's your best friend's wife. Forget that woman! (Forget that woman).

Oh No, Leave your husband! (No, leave your husband)

There was nothing powerful for her to break free from the twists and turns of Nadia's beauty. Shit!

Or am I a crazy? (or am I crazy?)

Yes, I'm crazy, because of you, Nadia.(Yeah, I'm crazy, because of you, Nadia.)

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Nadia had sent Bimasena a message to stop contacting him. To stop seeing him. But why now he even misses the man?

All day only Bimasena rested in his mind.

What is Bimasena doing?

Of course Bimasena will be angry and disappointed in him. Truly he did not reach the heart, disappointing the good man.

What tests are being passed? As the husband lay beside her, he instead expected another figure.

Why did Bimasena not come six years ago, when he had not been bound by marriage. But he remembered Bimasena's words last night.

So for me there is no late word and the time is not right. Or you are inappropriate. Because indeed we are destined to meet at a time like this and in this condition.

No, he must be able to free himself from the snares of Bimasena. So that he does not sink deeper. And Bimasena soon disappeared within the horizon of his heart.

I must not need Bimasena's hand. I cannot fly with the wings that Bimasena has. I must save my household and return to my life before I know Bimasena.

How to forget Bimasena?

How could he forget her while humbly speaking to her, the man said to her,

Give me a way to enter your life. So you can consider me.

It doesn't matter if I'm just an alternative. Until your heart is truly established who your life choices are.

And if in the end you will choose to stay with Tristan, I will accept and stop harassing you.

Does Bimasena feel the same longing? Like her miss at the moment?

The heart is again filled with a biting sense of loneliness.

After he decided to stay away from the man who had been sending rays of warmth and expel the freezing of his heart.

He will never forget the togetherness of last night. Very short but like the sun. Even if it goes down today, tomorrow will come back.

How hard it is to remove the traces of Bimasena steps in the heart. How hard it is to forget those firm brown eyes. Gorgeous face. A tight hand and a warm breath. All mellowing.

He will not be able to forget.

But he will still confine the longing that continues to instigate, so as not to say. Though in the end the miss it can kill. Let it not be revealed.

To you Bimasena who has imprisoned this heart, fly high up there. Go back to your royal throne. Because your place is in the sky.

He could only pray that Bimasena would soon find a woman worthy of him. A decent woman, not like her. So far below Bimasena.

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Nadia's been messing with him all day. Now Bimasena went through the night restlessly. The message Nadia sent almost crushed her belief.

Perhaps running on a treadmill while listening to the stomping music could momentarily take her mind off Nadia. No matter if it's too late at night.

He also moved from the room, to the room where he put his fitness equipment.

Bimasena is already running on the treadmill at an average speed while listening to music through earphones. To clear his conditioned head with liver problems.

It runs as long as possible, not to build endurance. To make his body tired. Tired. So that he could immediately fall asleep without thinking about Nadia again. Because tomorrow he has to get up as early as possible. There is urgent work to be done.

Tomorrow he'll hunt ghosts.

Hunting female ghosts.

What keeps on moving bothers him.

No one could break his steps, halfway.

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As soon as Tristan leaves for the office, Nadia immediately picks up the box she hid inside the wardrobe. The box containing the Bimasena handout watch. Things Tristan cannot see. Because Tristan is not a stupid man who can be lied to about the price.

He wanted to wear the watch, but he abandoned his intentions. Because looking at the watch makes him never be able to forget the face full of charm. It's the same as breeding longs in the chest. Who has tormented his days with longing stabs.

There was no zeal accompanying her trip to the salon this morning. He felt his heart weaken, unable to pump blood. His decision to stop the relationship with Bimasena, apparently hurt him more.

There's something burning in there. There is a sense of loss. It should feel like it's not letting it grow. Because from the beginning he already knew, when it would not end beautifully.

It turned out that his heart was not as strong as when he sent a message to Bimasena. Since the message was sent, since then his heart was devastated. He broke his own heart. He has hurt his own soul.

But he must stick to his resolve, to keep the sacred vow of marriage. Choosing to stay with Tristan. Although he had various reasons to leave.

Because Bimasena is just a test of her marriage to Tristan.

But that determination is not without obstacles.

Since he had just arrived at the salon and entered his study, he had found a white rose bucket lying on his desk.

Makes his chest shake and his blood flow ripples.

Who else sent it if not ... Bimasene.

He picked up the flower bucket and read the greeting card.

I just wanna say something. I Love U's. That's all (I just want to say something. I love you. That's all)

Mr. B.

Ah Bima, it turns out you haven't stopped.

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