When Talak Has Spoken

Chapter 33 Missing Being Together

Bisma breathed in the fresh scent of the gentle perfume as Ajeng reached out his hand beside her. The desire to embrace Ajeng's slender body suddenly appeared in his mind.

The heart of the bisma is pounding fast. He tried to brush off the thoughts of nyleneh who began to penetrate his common sense.

“Ade breakfast with dad yes ... “ said Bisma flipped to keep away from Ajeng.

He didn't want his mind to go anywhere. Just now, the shadow of the two togetherness began to dance in his mind.

Ajeng sighed in disappointment at the rejection of his little daughter. With a heavy heart he followed Bisma's steps out of the side door to a corner chair overlooking the garden and a pond containing ornamental fish.

“Prepare my breakfast as usual.  Don't forget Lala too,” Bisma's words that are like orders make Ajeng with a heavy heart obey his wishes.

Bhishma tried to hold a smile at the flat attitude Ajeng showed. His eyes continued to follow the movements of Ajeng who disappeared behind the door. His fingers stroking the crywil hair of his little princess who was babbling showed his great curiosity.

Shortly thereafter Ajeng appeared with an employee to bring him everything that Bhishma had asked for.

“This is dear, breakfast first yes. After this we just took a bath ... “ back Ajeng trying to take over Lala from the sling of Bisma.

Suddenly I miss moments like this. He remembered how the tenderness of Ajeng and all his behavior developed him and prepared all his needs.

Then take care of Lala, wean her and all the Ajeng treatment in their household that was ever built.

“Lala let father yes, mother also need breakfast .... “ Bisma said casually as she stretched out the fried rice in front of Ajeng who was now sitting next to her.

“No need,” refuse Ajeng fast, “I have breakfast.”

“Come on, accompany me and Lala,” Bhishma tries to persuade Ajeng.

He did not want to go through the morning that made him feel different from the days that he had lived alone, with a small family that he had lost because of his selfishness.

Finally Ajeng asked Mimi one of his employees to get him some bread and warm tea.  A feeling of sadness perched in his heart seeing the treatment of Bhishma on their little daughter.

He tried to hold back the teardrops as Lala happily accepted the feed for the sake of the feed until the chicken porridge was clean from its place.

“Wah, ade smart once ... “ said Bisma with a feeling of pleasure.

Back kiss he presented to his daughter's forehead. From the end of his eyes he saw Ajeng looking away from all his treatment of Lala. He saw there was a look of sadness in Ajeng's eyes.

“Lala does not need to do all this ..” Ajeng said flatly trying to hold back emotions.

His heart ached remembering everything that had happened. He did not want the presence of Bhishma to make Lala feel the dependence with her father. Although Hilman tried to get closer to Lala, but Ajeng limited it. He does not want Lala to find a father figure in Hilman when his heart is not ready to feel hurt again.

Bhishma looked at Ajeng meaningfully. He felt the voice of Ajeng tremble. His heart felt pinched hearing Ajeng's words.

“Not mean I want to separate father and son. But I know you are busy. And I don't want Lala to be so dependent on you.”

Bhishma felt that Ajeng was trying to put boundaries with her. Even the conversation that occurred was like two strangers who had just met first.

“You don't need to be this stiff as Jeng. We are not strangers,” cut Bisma fast.

Frankly, he did not like the attitude Ajeng showed towards him. While in others Ajeng is so friendly and relaxed

The wry smile. He stared at Bhishma sharply, no warmth that Bhishma saw from the glare of the eyes that had been so soft and sparkling.

Bisma still listen to the words Ajeng. Though he wanted to feel the warmth shown during this time as long as they were still together. But Ajeng has changed. In just six months, there was no more hospitality and gentleness that Ajeng showed. All turned stiff, like the first beginning they were met until betrothed.

“Lala same mother now yes.we take a shower first.  Ntar the same way om Dimas .. “ Ajeng's soft tone again persuaded Lala who now descended slowly from the lap of the father.

Bisma looked back at Ajeng. While the one he looked at was flat without feeling. He did not understand his feelings at this moment that suddenly melow. His body wanted to stay and return to feel the warmth of Ajeng's attitude in serving him as before.

“Mbak... “ bass sounds stop the silence that occurs.

“Dimes .... “ Bhishma greets her ex-sister-in-law whom she has not seen for a long time.

“Eh, there is mas Bisma .. “ with an uncomfortable feeling Dimas reached out to the man who had made his brother hurt.

But trying to hold back his emotions, Ajeng had reminded him not to hold grudges over all the Bhishma's treatment. Because the heart problem cannot be forced. That's what makes Dimas try to be an adult to protect his brother and his father.

“Excuse me,” without turning to him Ajeng brought Lala past from before him.

A smile rose on the beautiful face of her little princess who waved in her sling.

“Da da yayah .. “ the voice of Lala's forehead makes a warm feeling of Bhishma return.

He hurriedly wiped away the drop of tears that had involuntarily slid down his cheek. He doesn't know what to do. Ajeng has created a high gap. Though he had just felt a momentary happiness that made his morning warm after a long time of solitude.

“How are you doing?” after neutralizing his feelings the gaze of Bhishma returned to Dimas who was still standing before him.

“Good mas,” saute Flat dimas.

“Sit first, we copy ... “ invite Bhishma.

“No need to mas. I still have a lot of work,” Dimas refused subtly.

He does not want to mince words with people who have released family ties with the only sister he has. Although Ajeng never told him, but Dimas knew the sadness experienced by his brother.

He can see, when they first moved and occupied the new house where Ajeng business now, leaving all the luxuries that Bhishma has, how terrible Ajeng condition.

Every morning her eyes puffy reddened while preparing breakfast for her. No more warm chat in the morning, just to exchange stories about each other's activities. The teaching that was once warm and attentive, is now quiet and rigid. Dimas was trying to understand the situation.

Now that Ajeng has made peace with everything that happened, his former brother-in-law without permission comes to disturb the atmosphere that began to be conducive.  But seeing Ajeng's treatment of Bhishma convinced Dimas, that his brother had taken the right attitude, and he was relieved for all.

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Bhishma had not yet moved from her seat. The pilgrims who follow the Jum’at prayer began to move one by one. Only in this house of God did he find peace other than in the house of the mother of course.

Ibn was told to go home. He still wants to reflect on his future that still hangs.

The burning feeling he once felt for Deby slowly began to disappear. Although the young woman did not falter, even bravely came to her office at night.

Perhaps he is limiting himself. It was because there were work affairs that made him have to be involved with Deby and his other team.

Her closeness to this monthly Lala se had grown a new energy in her heart. Even with all the rejection shown Ajeng did not make Bhishma budge.

Seeing Ajeng's cold unfriendly attitude, he was even more challenged to get closer. His mood will increase after meeting the ex who in his eyes is more alluring.