WHEN IS THIS SUFFERING

part 9's

Part 9's

A year passed, now Anindira was able to walk, although he was not so straight talk. But he is very clever.

"Huaaaa, huwaa, huwaa, huwaa, "the cry that had come out of Anindira's mouth.

Somehow these few weeks Anindira often cry, Anita was not feeling well. But he brushed it off for the sake of his son.

Patience, yes Anita is a patient woman, already have one child Arsen still never change. He works at will sometimes go after magrib out, go home at 11 pm and up.

POVS. Anita

Honestly, this heart is really sick. However, there is no way to constantly fuss over where else this is in my parents' house. I don't know what is in the mind of the mind of mas Arsen from the past until now always this never changes, even worse.

"Darling mom why nagis continues" I said while holding Anindria.

"Hwaa,, hwa, hwa" Anindira's cries began to fade away in her tongue.

"Oh my god, why is it so bitter that the trials I give, give awareness to the Arsenic mass of the Lord" I concluded

I sat on the edge of the bed in my room, Tears now flowing again, but I did not erase. Let this water flow without any obstruction.

Crying doesn't mean we're weak women, for me it's a strength I rely on. Cry even though it can not solve a little problem that there can at least make the pain subside even for a moment.

"Why don't you keep crying, mama loves you don't cry anymore. Mama doesn't want Dira to continue like this, mama is tired of Dira.

Mama is tired of all this, whether it comes to the mother's life. I don't know son" I whispered in Anindira's ear, my tears kept dripping. I pecked repeatedly on Anindira's cheeks and forehead, who was fast asleep.

"huekk,, huek, huekk" suddenly I feel like I want to take out what's in my stomach, indeed lately I feel strange to myself.

I look at my face in front of the glass, my eyes look so swollen looking like they just finished crying. My intention that I wanted to get out of the room I held.

I continued to lie next to Anindira unconsciously I fell asleep.

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"Ta,, Anita," the call sounded dimly in my ears. The sound became clearer, something shook my back.

I opened my eyes slowly, I saw beside me there was no more Anindira. "busy" I said while rubbing the eyes that were still blurred.

"Shower again Ta, let me accompany you to treatment" said mother, out of nowhere I know if I'm not feeling well.

"Brought to play with Arsen" said mother then out of my room.

I saw the clock on the wall had shown me 5 pails in the afternoon, I rushed to the bathroom to clean my body.

After the shower, I sat down in front of the glass to apply my makeup. I told myself nothing had changed, just that the body was a little full.

"Happy, Anita is ready" I said stepping my feet out to the mother.

"Jude, let's go again"

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"How's Anita buk" a worried-filled question came out of mom's mouth.

"Thank God Anita's pregnancy has entered one month, maintain health, regularly eat and sleep too" explained the midwife managed to make me and my mother rounded the mouth perfectly. Me and mom looked at each other, making the midwife buk confused by the atmosphere.

"What is buk really? My son was just a year old" I said in shock.

"Yes, maybe Anita is too fertile" he said as he opened and wrote a dose of vitamins and vitamins for me.

"You're not really KB anymore Ta" mother asked

"Hehe yes buk, forget Anita" I said shyly

"This is in the drink after eating" said the midwife while presenting a plastic crackle containing the drug.

On the way home, I felt bad for my mom. I asked him.

"Lad"

"Hmmm"

"Are you angry with my second pregnancy, Anita is not accidentally buk, Anita forgets that KB Anita is over" said I

"No Ta, mom never gets angry. I'm just afraid of your family's situation like this, you know, Arsen rarely provides you especially if your child has been a lot, how Arsen left you" said mother managed to make me drift in grief, Kaufman, my eyes are glazed. I turned my face away from my mother, so that she would not see my sorrow.

"I'm sorry I'm open" I said lowered my head.

"Don't do that Ta, don't have to ask for forgiveness. You're also not wrong, it's all God's destiny".