WHEN IS THIS SUFFERING

part 22's

A few months have passed, I still live in Yel's house. Today as usual Arsen mas go to the garden, let alone the opinion of cinnamon harvest is increasing and the result we divide two by mbak Yel, Alhamdulillah I can also save even a little. Today it happens that Yel is not a gardener, usually always a garden with Arsen. For a month gone by I did not feel strange in the least, instead I thanked Yel. Because I could feel a decent life, even though people talking about the ugliness of Yel made me even more doubtful, but I thought it was impossible. If he wants Arsen mas for what he's good to me.

Lately, I have been fighting with my own mind a lot, but I have been clamping down on that bad feeling towards Yel. I always thought it was impossible and impossible. I finally got the answer I was thinking about all along. In the living room I was sitting watching television, Adam I slept in the room and Anindira was in the cool room playing the noodles I bought.

As I watched, Yel sat beside me.

"Sadly yes the film" mbak Yel who suddenly made me shocked, then he sat right next to me.

"Yes nih mbak pelakornya make a deh emotion" said I

"We're matiin again yes tvnya, mbak want to talk to you with four eyes" without waiting for an answer from me he just grabbed the remote tv that I hold and turn off the tv. Though the responsibility of the film, but how I'm hitchhiking.

"Speak what mbak?"

"Hmm this way, you and your husband have been living in a mother's house for a month" I saw his gaze hesitant to say something. But I tried to hide it.

"Tell me, there's another mistake, if you can just talk about it"

"Bak hope Anita doesn't mind and understand how she feels"

"Absolutely don't mind mbak" I smiled warmly at him.

"Izin may be your honey Ta" when Yel looked seriously at me.

Duarr,, my chest is tight, my heart is beating so fast, my smile is slowly fading. What kind of words were said by this woman, I was silent for a moment, and I asked again to convince her that I misunderstood, I misheard.

"What do you mean? " i brought out a forced smile from my lips.

"Bak wants to be Arsen's second wife"

Duarrrr,,, srr, my blood went straight up into the crown, it was so hot that my ears heard his words, my heart felt pierced by a thousand needles. Ah all this time what the righteous say, why the man who I think is good turns out to be a thorn in the chest. It is true that the words of our disappointed people or our pain are only because the people closest to us. To this woman I give all the trust, it turns out she has no heart at all.

"How's Anita?" yel asked again because he did not hear a reply from me

I tried to calm down even though in the heart of the fire that burned "What mass Arsen want mbak? "tanyaku turned away from her.

"Ask your husband" huh! The words that came out of his mouth, is it true that mas Arsen has shared a heart for other women? has Mas Arsen forgotten his promise? did Arsen not love me anymore?, not aware of my tears dripping but I was stunned as soon as possible. I don't want to cry in front of this girl

"Why should my husband mbak? WHY!!" my tone began to rise, wanting to cry but I could bear it, I could not cry in front of this gat*l woman.

"You think, one month home with another man who is so handsome, and the treatment was sweet to me, how I did not keep my heart for him" he said, drowning what I felt.

I fell silent, I no longer knew what to answer, it felt like this hand was eager to expose this selfless woman, oh God, strong servant.

"From being a constant sin it's better that I marry Arsen to be lawful" he said

What does it mean to talk about this woman is it true that they have ever slept together? My heart is heating up.

Plaakk,,, one slap I unconsciously landed on Yel's face. "Well, "yel screams in pain while holding her cheek.

"Oh!! It turns out that you are a gat*l woman who likes to take people's husbands, like people talk about, but, stupidly I still trust you! You're behaving well in front of me, but behind you teasing my husband!! " i said with a stingy breath while pointing a finger at Mbak Yel.

"There is no one who can be captured by Ta, unless he himself wants to be captured! "

I paused for a moment, then sat back down, which he said was true, there was nothing to take away unless he himself wanted to. I'm disappointed in you, I'm disappointed, I didn't think you were playing heart behind my back .

"It's not all my fault entirely, but it's your husband's fault too"

"No! Is this your fault? Because you kegat*lan with my husband, if you want to take the line, take it my ex, people like you deserve secondhand! " i said, and then the barbeque stepped out to leave Yel.

"You are, yes, helped but you don't know how to thank"

I stopped hearing her say "help what hah! Help me get my husband?" my word

"Eh,, did you forget, who brought you to feel this luxurious life, so you don't be rude to me"

"I know it's mbak, mbak who brought me in this pleasure, that's why I always ignored people talking strangely about mbak, finally what people talk about mbak is real"

"Well what mbak! from the beginning I didn't want to live in a house with mbak, because I want to get my husband"

"What's wrong, I'm not bad for you either, if your husband so married me your life is also more happy"

"Sweet what do you mean? Stop talking stupid mbak, it's a huge drop in self-esteem mbak a" I ran upstairs to the room, many answers came out of the mouth mbak Yel, but I no longer ignore. I chose to go into the room and leave it alone, I was afraid my emotions were getting more and more into listening to that useless chatter.

I opened the door to the room and saw Anindira sleeping under the bed, but I did not lift up to the bed, I just cried drifting in so deep sobs. I remember the word that came out of Yel's mouth. Do Arsenes really have the same feeling as Yel, or have they ever slept? Ah this filthy thought incited the heart, tears kept flowing nonstop, it felt like I had been crying for a long time I saw my face in the mirror, my eyes were a little swollen.

Tok, ,tok,, tok,, "Ta, why is the door on the lock? " i heard a familiar voice behind the door, I hurried to wash my face and walk towards the door.

Kreek,,,, the door is now opened slowly. However, no longer knowing why the sudden anguish instigated in the heart, after seeing this face of my husband. Mas Arsen walked straight into the bathroom to clean himself up. After bathing and mas Arsen was wearing clothes, I wanted to ask the thing earlier, but then Yel suddenly called my husband's name, it turned out that dinner time had entered.

"Arsen,,, Arsenic, "said mbak Yel from the outside, the door I deliberately lock, so that this gat*l woman can not arbitrarily enter. I just kept quiet not saying, why should my husband's name be called why not my name. Arsen was silent did not say he was just cool to arouse Adam.

"Arsen, eat again" she said from behind the door.

I called Arsen, "and your lover answered" I said with a jealous look.

"What! What did you say? Try again" said mas Arsen with reddened eyes.

"Santas did not hear people calling his name from outside, I just talk you do not hear" said I lazy and opened the door

"What's wrong" I said, in front of the door there was already mbak Yel. I looked at her face with an unhappy face.

"Eat" he said

Then I opened the room door wide and let Mbak Yel look directly at Arsen. I left her in front of the open door without a word, and then I lay on the bed Adam was sleeping in, I kept myself beside Adam.

"Arsen" Yel's voice was heard calling out to Arsen.

"What's wrong, mbak?" jawan mas Arsen's.

"Eat again"

"Yes, I'll be down soon"

After Yel's departure, Mas Arsen invited me to eat.

"Anita ate" he said, but I shook my head.

"Why?" abugn.

"I don't have dinner tonight, no taste"

Then Mas Arsen left me in the room with the kids. I don't need to peek, the fear I saw was very painful. Again these tears that I do not want her coming back to the cheek, this time I no longer terka.

If there is no relationship, there is no way that Arsen would be invited to eat with another woman without his wife, I don't want to know what they are doing below, enough of Yel's hurtful words earlier that I heard.

Kreek,,, I heard the sound of my bedroom door opening, I wiped the tears quickly, I looked at the origin of the sound was Arsenic mas.

"Have her date? " i said, I don't know if I want a storm, because my heart can no longer be quiet.

"Dating? " asked mas Arsen confusedly. I shut up and turned my back to Arsen. Mas Arsen walked up to me and sat behind me on the edge of the bed.

"Ta" he said smbil held my shoulder gently, but I brushed her with his sturdy hand.

"What is it you are?" ask Arsen in a soft voice.

"Not too sweet, if it ends up hurting me" I said, my eyes glazed over.

"Where is sweet? Actually you why, talk to me do not be silent like this" asked mas Arsen

"Not pretend to be"