WHEN IS THIS SUFFERING
Episode 37's
Once home, I let Adam and Anindira play freely outside, because I really wanted to be alone.
"Lord, what should I do? do I have to stay put on our marriage, but I'm really not sure I can be God" I said with tears streaming down my eyes, I can't deny this inner pain.
As hard as I'm going to hold back my tears, I really can't do this without crying.
My life has now been dominated by tears and suffering. There is regret in my heart for choosing him to be my husband. However, there is no way that I regret it, if there is no Arsenic in my life there may not be two little angels of my reinforcement at this time.
As often as I now shed my tears, the pipipun never dried, as if all were inundated with tears.
"Hiks,, torches, hikss, "I keep lamenting, my hands clutching my hair tightly.
My heart was so torn to shreds right, I really did not want to cry to see the incident, but now even my crying became more and more.
I don't know if this wound is getting deeper, the inner torment that I feel really hurts.
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At four o'clock in the afternoon Arsen came home, he sat in the outside room casually smoking a cigarette.
I came out with a flame-turning emotion, eyes still swollen.
"Have you gone home yet?" my many.
"Udah" replied Mas Arsen still casually smoking his cigarette.
"Why go home? why don't you just sleep in that lady's house" I said.
Mas Arka as if turning to look at me sharply is really scary like wanting to kill, really this is more sinister than anything. However, unfortunately that gaze did not make me stop to babble to take off the pain in the heart that I had long been silent.
"What do you mean" Arsenes ambushed in an enlarged voice.
"Hiks,,,hiks," I lamented, my tears coming back with a great deal of obstruction.
"Hiks,, evil are you mas" I cried, sobbing in my tears.
"Do you realize that you and I and your abandoned children don't live on, but what? you're having fun with your jal*ng he's out there" senga spoke bermaki-maki woman did not escape also with sobbing as I pointed hands outwards.
Mas Arsen approached me with reddened eyes, "jal*ng what are you saying Ta, try a little not to be stupid!" sergeant mas Arsen
I'm closing my face to Arsen, "I'm a fool, but I'm not a human being you can make just any animal you want to be, oh, I know, I know, you want to go every day at night to the gat*l woman's house, maybe you two sleep together, right?" I can't lose my emotions, my eyes didn't escape with tears.
Plaque,,, a loud slap that almost made my jaw slip.
"Aw,," I shouted, holding my left cheek that had just gotten a slap so hard from Arsen's mass.
"Get's talk you Anita if you talk to me, I'm your husband" Arsen presses his chest up and down, eyes reddening a hardened jaw. It's really like a tiger wanting to pounce on its max.
"Argggh,,," growled at Arsen.
Brak,, one hard fist landed on the wall of the house, the board was immediately damaged. A very good blow open?.
"You're Anita!" snapped at Arsen, now he was really like a tiger who wanted to pounce.
There is fear, but I can take it again. I fell silent, only tears explained that my heart was not doing well and was very hurt.
Maybe the man who holds the title of my husband has forgotten the promise of heaven that he once said until now hell also that he cursed for me.
"How many times have I said Ta, don't you ever provoke my emotions, you probably know Ta, to my own parents I don't hesitate to do this to you, anything else, but why do you dare to talk to me so presumptuously like this" said Mas Arka.
"Once we bonded, I don't want to be your wife anymore" said I sobbed.
One glass landed next to me and fell on the floor. Brakk, glass is scattered on the floor of my house now.
Then the Arsenic mass walked up to me through the scattered glass fragments, he grabbed my hair violently and pulled it back hard.
Sick he was really sick, my life complete mental and spiritual pain was more than enough I found. The fear of getting stronger haunts me.
"You remember this word well Anita, I'll never let you go, the death of death that separates us" press Mas Arsen then remove the grip of the hair from his hand and push my body firmly until I fall down.
"Huwaa,,,, hix,, hikss, O God,, hikss, "my tears are sobbing I don't understand the way of my life.
"You really want to separate," Arka walked up to take a knife and approached me in the face, "You kill me or I kill you Ta" said a flat Arsen mas he looked at me with a terrible look.
'Oh god I really don't want to die yet, what about my children if I'm not gone' I sat up, tears just kept on gracing my cheeks.
"Anita Jawab! " snaps Arsen, it surprises me. My heart was beating fast My chest felt so tight, I was scared.
"Istigfar mas,,, conscious,,, mas,, o God mas,,,, hyster,, torment," I still wept bitterly in lamentation.
'Lord tlong be my servant, my God, ' I am back.
"Arsen, "the strangulation of the Idah buk, came from the outside.
"Oh Allah, son, aware, can you make a child kayak gini" said the anxious Idah and ran over.
"I realized buk, I realized, ", replied Mas Arka.
"Are you making Anita like a gini, son, oh God" said the Idah buk holding me, I could only be quiet. My life is lucky this time because there is this woman, the woman who helped my life. I know Idah buk he can also be called parents of Arsen mas because they also have a blood flow relationship, because they also have blood flow, therefore, Idah's mother did not hesitate to forbid the bad deeds of Arsen.
"I do this just do not want to separate with Anita buk" said mas Arsem flat, his chest still tight withholding emotions.
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