WHEN IS THIS SUFFERING

The Part 36

The day had passed and the night was approaching, and Adam and Anindira were fast asleep.

I also lie on the bed while Mas Arsen has been out since magrib.

I don't know where he went, I'm reluctant to ask because I don't want to make a fuss.

My eyes don't want to be closed because the mind never calms down, which I think tomorrow eat what to survive.

Keasan mingled with thoughts of lamenting the difficulties of life on my side. Suddenly there was a knock on the door, yes it was Arsen's mas coming home.

I walked to open the door, heart ached to see the behavior of the unaltered Arsenes more and more passionate. Tonight I might be able to hold it. God may have given me fortitude and patience until the last days I can be quiet, but I am not sure for today.

"Mas" scolded me as Arsen was about to lay down his body on the bed he looked very sleepy.

"Hmm, "hmm.

"I want to talk" I said.

"Just talk about it" he said casually.

"Let's go for a minute, and the kids will be dumbstruck" asked me, still standing at the door.

"Huh,," Mas Arsen complained, he changed his lying position to sit.

"What are you talking about these nights, I'm sleepy" Arsen said.

"Ck,," I whined, then out of the room.

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The clock has pointed at 2 am, my eyes still do not want to sleep. I'm still sitting pensive outside.

A leg was coming closer to me. I immediately looked back he was a mas Arsen who wanted to approach me.

"Why not sleep?" reprimand Arsen while sitting next to me.

"I really can't think mas" said I flat, I'm the face of the Arsen mas.

"Why?" ask the Arsenes back.

"There is a creation of a God who has no heart at all, who can lay his children and his wife, while he has fun out there" he wrote.

Mas Arsen was only silent for a moment, I don't know what he was thinking.if he realized what he did or not.

"Happy what else you mean Ta, I'm out looking for work, if it can be for you too" replied mas Arsen.

No. I can't talk anymore, I don't want to make a fuss. I better keep the pain of heartache that I have been longing for, it is not possible to make a noise this early morning. Kasian is also the same as children later if they wake up.

I stood walking towards the room through it, I laid my body on the bed slowly I closed my eyes to remove the burden of the mind.

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The morning approached, the glare of sunlight came into the cracks of the room that is riding the board now that we occupy.

I saw that Arsen was still sleeping soundly in bed, I quickly went to bed to wash myself. Now that I'm going to hurry, I'm going to follow where Mas Arsen went today.

Finished cleaning myself I put on clothes when I was a girl was still good and fit to wear. Then I woke up Anindira and Adam.

The rice that was loved by Idah buk yesterday I immediately planted on the stove that I had lit the fire.

Then I bathed Anindira and Adam, it's all done.

mas Arsen awoke from his bed, while the rice was cooking.

I prepared two dishes containing rice that I cooked a little salt and then I gave it to my two children.

I did not pay attention to the Arsenes that passed in front of us, Arsen did not care about my silence.

"Eh papa's son again mamam" he told Anindira and Adam.

"Yes pa, papa wants mama uga" said Anindira who is two years old.

"Do not be the same as mamam aja used to be full, papa want to go out first" said gently while peeping the cheeks of his children and then leave.

"I went out first Ta" said Arsen I did not answer.

Just a few steps away from Arsen Pegi, I hunted the kids for a quick meal.

"Fast eat, we want to go out" I said to the children.

Adam had spent his rice drinking the water I had prepared for him.

While Anindira there is still one more mouthful of rice, "we are going where mama is" Anindira said innocently with her funny voice.

"Main came out, a place where he often went" I told Aindiran, nodding.

Akhinya he finished.

I walked on the shortcut following the Arsenic mas, the path I took was full of bushes, very many mosquitoes biting Dira and Adam as well as me.

I don't care that I just want to know where Arsen's been going so often.

"Maa Atit a lot of mosquitoes, said mama want to pegi papa, kok even here" whined Anindira, who from his hands I pulled to be able to walk quickly, while Adam I carried.

"Dira shut up first, yes" my mash, I keep walking down the bushes that are so many mosquitoes that bite.

And until the moment his mas Arsen stopped in a nice house, which has a big stall, mas Arsen just sat back.

There was also not only one Arsen mas, but also other men who joined sitting together.

Not for a while I saw a beautiful woman, maybe her age is about 2 years under Arsen.

He came out with a cup of coffee and sat in front of the Arsen mas while presenting a glass of coffee to the Arsen mas.

Of his many men why should my husband that woman be seduced. The tightness I felt deepened my chest rumbled like an earthquake. This scaly pain really hurts.

The woman was sitting made-up sexsi, she was wearing sepaha shorts, clearly smooth skin on her thighs, her body was also nice like a Spanish guitar.

I don't know what they're talking about I can't listen to that, which obviously they're talking to each other laughing, really very happy right? every now and then I see the woman holding Arsen's hand and not the slightest rejection from Arsen's mass.

My heart breaks in pain, if indeed his love has been shared, I will no longer be able to endure.

Right now I'm not going to cry, but I really want to hit that woman. However, there's no way I'm doing that, either,

It's been an hour since I've stood in these bushes until Adam Anindira wanted to cry because the mosquitoes kept tickling them. So I decided to go home too.

As strong as the heart, if it hurts tears that we never want to slide down to the cheek will fall too.

Throughout the journey tears just flowed, my life was completely devoid of taste.

"Maa napa mama nangis" said Anindira.

"Let's see what you saw" I asked Anindira my eldest son.

"Sir" said my innocent girl while shaking her head.

Getting that answer I can only be silent, I don't want the children to blame the papa, but I don't want to cover everything.

The Adam I was gendongi was laughing at my tears with his tiny hands.

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