Want the Love OF MY HUSBAND

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POV NEVAN...

I set my foot on the hospital floor with a feeling that was unsettled between real or not.

To be honest, I wish the news I received was just a dream or a joke from Alish because he wanted me to come home soon.

But I'm sure Alish isn't the kind of person to joke around with, let alone joke like this.

A few hours ago I just got home from a meeting with a client in Malaysia and was intending to take a break but my phone rang.

Between believing and not when Mr. Rudi gave me news about Alish, news that made my heart break.

"Your master has come?" ask my Papa driver who is sitting in the waiting chair in the hospital lobby.

I couldn't open my voice in the slightest I just nodded my head in response to the driver's question.

"Non Alish is in your ICU room" said the papa driver.

I still didn't make a single sound, I walked past the papa driver just like that.

The longer my footsteps went to the room mentioned by the driver the heavier it felt like these legs were to step.

When I arrived at the end of the hallway leading to the ICU room I could only peek in the hallway with a straight look at the people who were bowing their heads.

I saw the sad look on Alish's friends, I closed my eyes before I stepped closer to them

I faintly heard sobs coming out of my mother's lips,

My father sitting next to her tried to calm her down, inwardly I kept asking if this was real?

I honestly don't want to believe any of this because I'm sure Alish is okay, but the people's reactions prove that something happened with Alish.

I sighed with a claustrophobic heart and ventured to approach those who looked sad and worried.

"Ma, Pa," called me to my parents to make them turn their faces to me.

"Nevans, Alish ... Alish," said my mother, speaking disconnectedly and not continuing.

"Is everything okay Ma?" ask me to Mama.

My mom didn't answer my question she just cried.

I turned my eyes to Alish's friends to ask for an explanation but they just kept quiet and turned their faces away from me.

Seeing everyone's reaction made me even more frightened, afraid that something bad was happening to Alish and my future son.

"Ma?" call me Mama again.

"Wait for the doctor to explain it, you have to be strong with whatever will happen later," not Mama who answered but papa who even made me more confused and afraid.

Finally I stood up with mixed feelings, a while later there were several doctors out of the ICU room.

I immediately approached Obstetrician Alish with Doctor Bara who came out in tandem.

"How's Alish and the baby Doc, everything's okay, isn't Doc?" ask the doctors.

"Unfortunately everything is not very good and we need your consent to immediately perform a cesarean section for the safety of the baby" replied one of the Doctors.

While the Bara Doctor and the Desi Doctor just kept quiet and only heard a sigh from them.

"Serus my wife how is she doing? if surgery is necessary then do Doc as long as my wife and child are okay" I told the Doctor.

Before answering my words, the doctor sighed heavily, making my heart and mind more filled with fear of Alish's true condition.

"That's the problem now because the condition of his mother who is worried or can be said to be critical then the only way is to do a cesarean section as soon as possible so that the child in his birth can survive," the doctor's words were like lightning striking my body in broad daylight.

I rewind this body a step back, at this moment I must have just misheard.There is no way Alish was critical how could suddenly Alish be critical like that, was not Alish okay before.

"It is better that now you sign a letter of approval to perform the operation as soon as possible, you can ask about the condition of Miss Alisha to the Bara Doctor, Master because the Bara Doctor is the Doctor who handles Miss Alisha," obviously the doctor signaled to the nurse behind him to give a letter of approval for the operation.

I just stared at the paper the sister gave me with a confused look.

"Do it son, it's for the good of your son" said Papa stroking my shoulder.

"But what about Alish Pa, is she going to be okay" I said looking at Papa with teary eyes.

"Alish will definitely be fine," Papa said with a nod of his head reassuring me.

Finally I put my signature on the paper and prayed in my heart that Alish and our son would be fine.

Sister took the file from my hand when I finished signing it.

"We'll have the surgery in a few hours" said the elderly doctor and left with the doctor following Dr. Desi.

"Follow me," said the Bara Doctor to me in his flat voice.

Still in confusion I followed in the footsteps of the personal doctor Alish who would somehow take me where.

"Sit down" he said briefly as we entered his room.

I just follow what he says by sitting myself in the chair opposite to him.

"Alish had a long time of problems with his kidneys and before Alish became pregnant he was doing treatment but because of his pregnancy we stopped the treatment and replaced it with drugs and it ended up like this," clearly Doctor Bara with his sigh.

While I was just silently digesting every single word the Bara Doctor said with a wandering mind.

"When I found out about her pregnancy, I advised her not to keep it because it was very dangerous either for her or for her baby. but she still wanted to keep her child and now that the damage to her kidneys was so severe there was little chance that she could survive so we decided to save her child first as Alish had asked me for so long this he wants his son alive and well" explained Dr Bara again.

I only listened to the words of the Bara Doctor without answering them with a blank mind.

It turned out that Alish always looked fine, it was all just outside of her how I could not be at all aware of everything.

I am not a good husband, I curse myself to be a useless man for my own wife.

After I finished listening to the words of Doctor Bara I decided to get out of his room and return to the ICU room with footsteps that felt floating.

My gaze was focused only on the door of the ICU room where Alish was there, on the verge of life and death.

Honestly, right now I want to feel like I'm crying and yelling really hard, but it won't do anything.

I could only sigh a few times to suppress the tightness that seemed to be squeezing me.

"Suster can I look inside?" ask the nurse who just came out of the ICU room.

"Alright but don't be long, sir," said the Sister nodding her head.

I entered without any concern around me anymore, the sister asked me to put on a special shirt first before entering the room where Alish was treated.

When I finish wearing that special shirt I step my feet will enter that special room that can not be carelessly entered there.

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