Unknown Love's

Honesty Farhan

At ten o'clock in the evening, Daddy Dave's birthday party was getting crowded, but Kinara was already fretting at the watch in her hands many times.

"Do you want to go home?", asked Giovani, whose eyes were so watchful to Kinara.

Kinara smiled faintly, "Yes, if I may wish to leave first, it's getting late".

"Oh of course, it is not good if later you come home too late" replied Giovani attentively.

"Are you going home in a taxi again, Ra?", asked Ananta looking at his best friend.

Kinara nodded her head.

"If you don't mind, let me send you home", bargained Farhan who had been listening to the conversation at the table.

"What's wrong, I can go home in a taxi. I think it's safe".

"No, Farhan better get you home. I'm worried if a woman as beautiful as you takes a cab alone these nights. I'm sorry I couldn't drive you because daddy asked me to stay here during the event" Giovani said.

"Yes Ra, don't take a taxi, yeah", Ananta added.

Although he felt uncomfortable if he had to go home to Farhan, but finally Kinara gave advice from Giovani and Ananta.

She had already returned wearing her coat, and hugged Ananta before leaving. Ananta and Giovani are staring happily at the departure of Kinara and Farhan.

"Let's go in", Farhan opens his car door for Kinara.

"Thank you".

The car drove, "Show me where you live", Farhan asked as they entered the streets of Paris.

Kinara just nodded her head, then gave some directions and the rest she chose to be more silent, staring at the beautiful atmosphere of the night in Paris through the window beside her.

Farhan glanced at Kinara, there was a happy feeling as he was able to meet the girl he loved again and at the moment they were just the two of them in the car.

"mmm...Ra...".

"Yes", Kinara looked over.

"I'm sorry I wasn't at your husband's funeral at the time".

"What's wrong".

"I am so sorry for his loss. What about you now?".

"Thank you. Yeah, as you can see, I'm fine".

Farhan smiled faintly.

"Thank God then. It's not easy to accept losing someone you love, is it?".

"Yes".

"You're a strong woman, I believe you can live everything well".

"Yes thank you", replied Kinara with a smile.

"Oh yeah, about Giovani, are you related to him?", asked Farhan carefully.

Kinara scrunched her forehead, "No. We're just friends".

"What do you think of him?".

Kinara seemed to think, "He's a good, friendly, successful and intelligent man".

"Aren't you interested in him?".

"Why are you asking that?".

"I just want to know, can I?".

Kinara sighed deeply, her heart was currently pounding incoherently.

"Any woman would be attracted to a man like Giovani, but I'm still hard-pressed to open my heart to others".

Kinara's answer pierced Farhan's heart. On the one hand he was happy because Kinara could not help answering all his questions, but on the other hand somehow his chest felt tight when he heard Kinara's answer that had not been able to open his heart.

"What's?".

"Isn't there a woman you love?", Kinara stared fixedly at Farhan.

Farhan was silent, he did not know what to give an answer.

"Han?".

"Yes"

"Don't cheat by not answering my question", Kinara turned her eyes again outside the car window.

Farhan glanced at Kinara, "There's a woman I love, but.", Farhan's words hung.

"But what?", Kinara looked back at Farhan.

Farhan smiled faintly, "But it seems like I have to fight hard to melt his heart".

Kinara was silent at the answer.

"Fortunately the woman you love. She is loved by a kind, well mannered, intelligent and hardworking man like you", complimented Kinara sincerely.

"Do you think?".

"Yes. Although we haven't seen each other for a very long time, but I'm sure, all your kindness hasn't changed" Kinara replied confidently.

Farhan smiled at the honesty of Kinara's words, there was a warm feeling seeping in his heart. Farhan was happy Kinara still looked at him as well.

"Oh yeah, what are you doing in Paris?", asked Farhan to switch the conversation.

"I'm in college here".

"Well, great. Where's where?".

"ESMOD", replied Kinara in short.

"A field that is much different from our college majors. You're great", praise Farhan.

"Thank you".

Kinara asked Farhan to turn and stop his car at an apartment.

"It has arrived, thanks for driving me home" replied Kinara who had removed her seat belt.

Farhan smiled and nodded small.

"Wait", her voice restrained Kinara who had already opened the car door.

"Yes?", Kinara turned to look at Farhan.

"Sorry, all this time I've been gone always not to tell you, even when you're in trouble, I don't share you. I don't know if it's the right time or not, but I'm afraid we'll have a hard time seeing each other again. Kinara, can you try to open your heart for me?".

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Kinara's heart was pounding at Farhan's words. I don't know where Farhan got his courage from suddenly saying that.

"Ma...what do you mean, Han?", Kinara's feelings began to stir.

"I'm sorry if the timing wasn't right and the way I said it was sudden. But our meeting tonight, I take it as an opportunity that God gave me to be able to say everything. I love you, really. My feelings for you have never changed until now. Although there was once a woman that God had given me for a moment in my life, but my love for you is so great that I have been able to survive this far, Ra. I hope you will give me a chance to fill your heart and your life, Kinara".

Kinara just fell silent hearing all Farhan's words. He did not expect that their meeting tonight would bring both of them to a difficult situation and feeling.

"I'm sorry if my words burden you. Rest" continued Farhan because Kinara did not give any answer.

Kinara tried to smile and just gave a small nod, "Thank you", he said leaving Farhan's car.

Kinara rushed into her apartment, her feelings completely muddled. She tries to digest all Farhan's words, but on the other hand, she feels betrayed by her late husband. During this time Kinara had been so hard to keep himself and his heart so as not to be attached to anyone. But somehow, his meeting with Farhan after a long time apart and hearing Farhan's words made his heart rustle violently. A feeling she had not felt for a long time and she had never gotten from another man after the departure of her husband.

"Mas, sorry, I'm guilty of you. I shouldn't have come to the party and didn't accept Farhan's offer to take me home. I'm sorry, my heart is so messed up right now that Farhan has revealed his feelings for me. I. I. I.", Kinara's tears spilled staring at Erlangga's portrait in her arms.

Meanwhile, during the return trip, Farhan's feelings were not good. She felt guilty for telling Kinara that she had just met back, but her other heart was relieved, the burden of feeling she had been enduring was finally conveyed as well.

'I hope you can understand and accept my honesty, Ra', Farhan hoped inwardly.