Unknown Love's

Diary

"Morning daydreaming, why?", Erik's voice made Farhan cut off his daydream.

"Ck, early in the morning, nosy", complained Farhan with a sinister glance toward Erik.

Erik scrunched his forehead, "Gue doesn't mean to be nosy, I'm just his name, Han. Very sensitive", Erik sat back on the sofa.

Farhan took a heavy breath and just stared at Erik lazily.

"Why? about Kinara?", guess Erik. Farhan did not answer.

"Believe me, today you definitely got an answer from Kinara".

Farhan took another breath, "Gue tried to ask him directly last night. But.ah, it looks like Kinara has not been able to open her heart for me", Farhan's eyes look sad.

"Come on, since when is my cousin blushing? Han, all this time I know how much you love Kinara. You go to great lengths to receive her married to someone else, you also try to open your heart to another woman, but now see, God changed the path of your destiny with Kinara. You're a good man, Han. God must love you the way, believe me" Erik tried to encourage Farhan.

Farhan smiled faintly, "Thank's yes Rik, you can always support me".

Erik smiled, "Lo is not just a cousin, my best friend and boss, Han. For me, I consider myself my own sister. Whatever, I'll always support you, ok".

Farhan's smile grew. Indeed, Erik was for Farhan not just a cousin, friend and partner of ordinary work. Since childhood Erik has always been there for Farhan. Although they are different ages, but the closeness of the two is like a brother and sister.

"Oh yes Han, today we have a schedule to meet clients at Hotel Y at ten o'clock", Erik reminded Farhan's schedule.

"Hmm..ok, who is our client this time, Rik? what is the value of the project?", asked Farhan began to focus on his work.

"Yes. This time our client owns a financial company. They will invest in our company, the value is fantastic, Han. I heard the CEO of the company is female, young, the same age as you, beautiful, rich and still single" said Erik excited.

"Ck, where's your brain, Rik. You already want to marry Ajeng but still do not take care" shoot Farhan.

Erik laughed loudly, "I don't take care of my heart, Han. That's the truth, the CEO is beautiful, young and rich. But Ajeng is of course more than anything, she's the queen for me" Erik replied lightly.

Farhan shook his head. Sometimes Erik's attitude is unpredictable.

"Ok, you set all the needs for our meeting. I finished some of these files first", Farhan showed me a pile of files on his desk.

"Ready boss", replied Erik and passed from Farhan's room.

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Ajeng and Kinara were still at the funeral. Kinara's tears broke through reading sheet after sheet of the little book that Ajeng had given her

"I don't know for a long time, Jeng, that Mas Angga has this book" Kinara said amid sobs.

"I also got this book from Leo, brother. He's a personal assistant to Angga. Leo said before the departure to the project, Angga asked him to give this book to the house if something happened to him" Ajeng said.

"I'm sorry, brother, I've already accepted and read the contents of the book. I just knew that before Kak Angga got married it turned out that he approached brother until like that", continued Ajeng with a thin smile.

"Oh yes, the last page of the book, hopefully can answer the anxiety of brother", Ajeng ended his speech.

Kinara immediately opened the last sheet of the book he had in his hand.

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**I didn't think I had a meeting with Farhan today. He used to be my student but now he's my partner. We talked about a lot of things, from work to feelings.

I could see a flash of love from Farhan's eyes when we talked about Kinara, my wife. Until now, I have not been able to read how Kinara felt about me because we were married because we were betrothed, I understand if it might be very difficult for her to love me.

But I really love her, no matter what she feels like to me, I promise to always love her, look after her and make her happy. Sometimes I think, if one day I have to go and not come back, who can I trust to love, care for and make Kinara happy?.

When I think about this, Farhan's name always comes to my mind. That's the only name I can trust. I'm jealous and don't like other men who have feelings for Kinara, my wife. But if I don't exist, then jealousy and dislike are no longer excuses. Yes, I can only hope God will choose Farhan to love, care for and make Kinara happy if I am not*.

Kinara's cries spilled, Ajeng immediately hugged his sister-in-law. Kinara was crying a mouthful. He didn't know what to say to what he was reading.

"I don't know why Angga wrote something like this in his diary. But I get it, Angga is so loving and thinking about your life, Brother. True said papa and mama, Angga must be happy if the brother was happy. Please consider Farhan's proposal. Farhan is a good man, even Kak Angga is so trusting of him to love, care for and make his brother happy if Kak Angga is gone. Farhan's current presence is God's destiny and the answer to Kak Angga's hope".

Kinara was still crying. His heart was slashed with all the things Erlangga wrote in the diary. The shadows and memories with Erlangga again rippled in Kinara's memory. But on the other hand his heart was now more peaceful and confident to make a decision.

"Thank you, you've written down all the memories of us, even you've written a message that I never imagined would happen to me right now. Thank you so much for thinking about my happiness, thank you, mas", whispered little heart Kinara in the midst of her cries.

Ajeng still hugged Kinara's body which slowly started to calm down.

"Thank you, Jeng, you've accompanied me here and given me this book. Your brother is the best man I've ever met. How lucky I am to have such a husband" Kinara said with her eyes moist.

Ajeng smiled, his eyes glazed with sadness and novelty at the same time.

"Yes brother. Brother Angga is indeed a good man, even I think he is so perfect even though it often irritates and irritates me. Angga believed in Farhan, and I was sure that Farhan could love, care for and make his brother happy as Angga did or even Farhan could be better".

Kinara nodded her head slowly. He wiped Erlangga's headstone, then kissed her softly and deeply.

"Thank you for everything. I hope that what I'm reading is your blessing", Kinara muttered before she and Ajeng left the tomb.