Unknown Love's

Advice

"Where, dear, have you talked to Farhan about his wedding plans?", asked Ajeng on the phone.

"Yes. But yes, he was still not sure Kinara would accept it. Papa's mom, how? is it moving?", asked Erik.

"So I heard that my mom had met Kinara and Farhan's family. But yes they are waiting for the decision from Farhan and Kinara. Hmm..if until Kinara does not want to nerima Farhan, I have to take out the last step", replied Ajeng.

"Last move? what style is that? do not wear a strange style ah", protested Erik.

"No, trust me. Tomorrow or the day after, Kinara will make a decision. You pray for me to succeed in persuading Kinara".

"Ok, let me know, baby. Good sleep".

"Every boss, good night too, baby", Ajeng ends his phone with Erik.

The teacher immediately got out of his bed. He approached the closet containing important files.

"Well, here it is. I have to give this to Kinara", Ajeng muttered as he found the thing he was looking for.

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Farhan and Kinara were still frozen. The romantic dinner that Farhan had prepared was different because of their discussion of the engagement.

"Ra, it's night. Let's go home" Farhan's voice broke their ice.

Kinara simply nodded and walked in Farhan's footsteps. After Kinara heard Farhan's last words, Kinara chose not to respond until Farhan invited him home.

In the car, once in a while Farhan glanced at Kinara who was still silent and silenced her.

"I'm sorry Ra for burdening you with my actions" Farhan said. His little heart ached to see Kinara's attitude change that cold.

"Don't apologize, there's nothing to forgive" Kinara replied short.

The atmosphere throughout the journey was completely stiff. Only the crowd from outside the window occasionally tried to break the freezing Farhan and Kinara.

It didn't take long, Farhan's car arrived in front of Kinara's house. Farhan prepared to go down and opened the door for Kinara, but his steps were restrained.

"No need to open the door. Thanks for dinner and taking me home", Kinara rushed out of the car without looking at the stunned Farhan.

Farhan could only see Kinara's back coming inside the house and just closed the door.

"Well, come home, Ra. Where's farhan?", asked Bu Hasna.

"He's home, ma'am", replied Kinara in short.

"Oh, I thought you invited her into the house first".

Kinara just shook her head and prepared to go into the room but Bu Hasna held her back.

"Nara, come here for a second. I want to talk to you", Pinta Bu Hasna.

Kinara who was already holding the doorknob of her room chose to turn around, fulfilling her mother's request.

"Did you quarrel with Farhan?", asked Bu Hasna carefully.

Kinara shook her head slowly.

"Then why does your face look so sour?".

Kinara fell silent, she took a deep breath.

"Nara, I just want to remind you, life often leads us to many unpleasant things, sometimes we feel heavy living it. But you have to remember, all the things we experience in our lives are God's destiny and not all the unpleasant and heavy things are bad things for us. Farewell, meeting, it's all part of God's scenario. We may feel dislike, disapproval, sadness, confusion, disappointment, anger, but remember, God's ordinances will always be more beautiful than our thoughts, feelings and plans", Ms. Hasna gently rubbed the head of her eldest daughter.

Kinara was still speechless, she tried to permeate her mother's words.

"God predestined you to meet Erlangga and marry him. But God wants you to part with Erlangga. Then the Lord brought Farhan back into your life, but your heart is still heavy to accept his presence because you feel bound to Erlangga. Darling, the departure of Erlangga is the destiny of God, the presence of Farhan is the destiny of God. If you feel attached to Erlangga, it's okay, but don't make yourself a servant who just rejects every destiny that God has set. There is a reason why God makes your way like this. Of course there is a reason why Erlangga left and Farhan God presented. Everything is here, ask your heart well. If you accept your current destiny, it does not mean that you are violating your past destiny", continued Bu Hasna as if he understood very well what happened with Kinara and Farhan.

Bu Hasna's words were so soothing to Kinara's restless heart. Her tears just flow. His mind and heart accepted everything his mother had said.

Bu Hasna hugged Kinara's shaking body.

"If crying makes you calmer, cry, son. Mother, father, Alisa, Pak Wijaya's family and everyone around you just want to give their best and see you happy again. Farhan was present because God chose him, whether you accept him or not, talk to God. Even if you refuse, you will never regret it, even if you accept it" Ms. Hasna said gently.

A few minutes passed. Kinara was calmer. She thanked her mother and she chose to return to her room.

After cleaning up, Kinara still could not close her eyes. His meeting tonight with Farhan again flashed, the conversation they both ringed in his ears, as well as the advice of the mother, was still clearly heard in Kinara's ears.

Kinara chose to move to take ablution and perform the sunna prayer. He spilled all his restlessness on the prayer mats in a long do'a with tears in his eyes.

The reality he was facing right now felt so heavy on him. After feeling enough to complain to God, Kinara chose to try to go back to sleep and this time she fell asleep soundly.

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"Mas Angga.", Kinara exclaimed as if in disbelief at what she saw.

Erlangga smiled, she approached Kinara and hugged her.

Kinara's tears spilled in Erlangga's arms. Shoulders shaking. Erlangga stroked Kinara's head gently and kissed the head of his wife.

"Don't cry anymore, yeah" said Erlangga who gently wiped Kinara's tears.

Kinara nodded and tried to smile looking at the face of the man she so missed.

"I want to see you smile. If you are sad like this, I feel the same. I know the purity of the love you've kept for me, but your life is long, baby. Make the love you have as your source of happiness, yes", Erlangga holds Kinara's face with both hands. Their eyes clashed with each other.

"There's nothing wrong with opening your heart, baby. No one is betrayed if you can accept his presence. The purity of your love will always be with me here. I believe he can love you perfectly. Guard you with all his heart. Please, don't hesitate anymore. Make me always smile by looking at you happy", Erlangga hugged Kinara's body tightly and then kissed in her forehead.

There was a sense of peace in Kinara's heart as she felt the embrace and kiss of love from Erlangga. Although her tears were still dripping, but this time it was different, it was a happy tear.

"Thank you for always loving me and keeping the love you have for me, baby. It's time you were with her. Believe me, I wanted it to happen", this time Erlangga grasped both hands of Kinara and then kissed both backs of Kinara's hands.

Kinara was speechless, only tears became her language in front of Erlangga. Slowly, the figure of Erlangga faded from before him, the grip of Erlangga's hand began to slip from Kinara's hand.

"Buy.mas...Mas Angga.", Kinara yelled. He only saw the shadow of Erlangga leaving and gave a smile as a farewell greeting.

"Nara.wake up, son", Ms. Hasna shook Kinara's body.

Kinara gasped in shock, his eyes widened, he looked around the room, there was no one but Bu Hasna sitting on the edge of his bed.

"Mom.ma...Where's Angga, ma'am?", Kinara's eyes are puffy.

Ms. Hasna immediately hugged her daughter tightly. To be honest his heart was sad to see Kinara's state like that.

"You must be dreaming, son. Erlangga is not here", replied Ms. Hasna.

Kinara's tears spontaneously broke. My dream just a moment ago felt so real. His heart was so sad to remember that dream.

"Let's pray dawn, already adhan. We pray Erlangga together, yes", asked Bu Hasna while wiping tears on Kinara's face.

Kinara nodded slowly. He got out of his bed, took ablution and performed the morning prayers with his father, mother and Alisa.

After praying, they pray together.

"Are you having a nightmare, Ra? you heard clearly you were screaming for Erlangga", asked Mr. Prastowo after they finished praying and doing it together.

Kinara tried to smile and recount the dream she had. Again, his eyes shed tears. Alisa embraced her brother and Bu Hasna stroked gently on Kinara's back.

"Father knows how much you love the late Erlangga. May this dream be a hint from God for what you are facing right now. I believe Erlangga's presence in your dreams is a form of blessing and hope. I am proud to have a son-in-law like Erlangga. He thinks so much about your happiness, son even when he's gone".

The words of Mr. Prastowo add to the atmosphere.

"Do'll Nara yes, sir, ma'am, Al. So that Nara can take the right and best decision for everyone" Kinara said after she was calmer.

"We must all always pray for and support you. Now, yuk, we are all getting better and preparing breakfast together", said Ms. Hasna.

The atmosphere of the house became crowded. While working out on the front porch, Alisa helps her cook in the kitchen and Kinara cleans all the rooms of the house.

For a moment, Kinara was stunned to see a photo of herself and Erlangga framed on a nightstand beside her bed.

"Thank you, you have visited me and calmed my heart, I love you", whispered Kinara. He kissed the picture and hugged it. Although his heart was still filled with novelty, but Kinara now felt more peaceful. His dream makes him confident, Erlangga supports his life choices.