
Seeing the nying-nying who suddenly cried I was immediately overwhelmed with a huge guilt.
Because of the selfishness I nying-nying hurt, on that day we still had time to joke when entering this room.
My brain immediately woke up and remembered the words I had said before that the man who made women cry was the same as useless trash.
I immediately sat down in front of the nying-nying who was crying down sitting on the sofa.
I tried to hold both hands, but at the same time he looked up. "Go Nyong I don't want you to see me crying". With tears in her eyes and looking down she spoke in a raucous voice.
"Nying I'm sorry, please excuse me! I'm wrong please excuse me. I nying". I said frantically looking at the situation created by my selfishness.
"You don't know how I feel! you don't know how I hold back so hard! You don't know what it's like to be slapped with reality!".
"YOU DON'T KNOW..!".
"YOU DON'T KNOW..!".
Nying-nying was so hysterical looking at the gw in front of her with tears increasingly rushing from both her net.
I did not have time to find out the meaning of the nying-nying speech, without cue I immediately hugged her slim body, which is in my mind at this time is looking for a way to calm nying-nying.
"Please nyong! Off!". Nying banging on my back but still hugged him and I didn't leave.
My eyes also began to glaze over his atmosphere and guilt.
"Please nyong! Off!".
"You don't know what I think! You are selfish! Release me!".
Nying-nying is still in revolt now she's trying to push my chest.
I held Nying-nying's back head gently and hugged her more tightly.
Just an apology I can say at this time, waiting to calm down again.
Gradually he was no longer rebellious, his body weakened and resigned I hugged but he still cried bitterly, blowing all the burden in his heart forced out in the form of clear tears.
Heart I hurt so much more pain when in stay blurred nying to the toilet, it feels I can not sorry myself because unconsciously with egoism I make nying like this.
From his words nying-nying looks very depressed and for sure it's because I.
"Vanesha Aprlia I love you! Sasa I like you! Nying-nying I love you!".
3 Names and 3 sentences expressions of feelings from the bottom of my heart that are spoken in tandem with tears that I also let out.
For a moment nying stopped crying and his body stiffened a little to hear the outburst of feeling gw like waves crashing on land but a few seconds later he rebuked again but this time by responding to my embrace by wrapping both hands.
"It's easy for you to say that but it's hard for me to answer because of the differences between us". Nying regulated his breathing and afterwards spoke softly.
"What difference is nying? We are both opposite-sex human beings, I love and love you and if you feel the same way let's be happy together". I stroked her hair softly.
"I'm afraid nyong I'm scared!".
"I'm afraid of falling when I reach you who are above height".
"I'm afraid I'm going to be a woman who will only ruin your comfort".
"I fear the difference between our castes, which are like heaven and earth".
"I'm afraid of the sight of everyone who sees and sneers at my family later".
"I'm afraid that my happy family is sad again because I dream of being with you".
"I'm scared nyong! I'm scared!".
I understand the fear I feel. I understand his concern, I know why he said that.
It's all nothing but not because of the social status attached to me, the status that makes nying hold her feelings.
"Vanesha Aprilia why should you be afraid if I'm beside you". I hugged Nying-nying tighter.
"Why should you be afraid of falling if the one who reaches you is me?".
"Why should you be afraid if in fact I can only be comfortable with you?".
"Why should you be afraid of caste differences? caste is only a hierarchy created by man to divide.
"Will I shut the mouths of all those who sneer at you and your family, I will be the strongest and most solid wall of defense for you and your family".
"Don't dream that in reality you can be with me, remove all your fears and hold my body tight".
I push my shoulders slowly and stand back 5 steps.
Nying-nying was shocked by the actions I took away from her.
He also immediately stood staring me sad, the fear of loss I could feel from the look of his two reddened eyes.
"Nyong why are you staying away? After saying that?". Nying spoke softly and rubbed his eyes.
"Nying-nying get rid of that insignificant fear and vent your courage".
"I'm here exactly 5 steps ahead of you, dare yourself and go through these 5 steps as a sign you're throwing away all that fear".
"Come to me Vanesha Aprilia! Come and hug my body, make Abimana Pramono yours. Make Bimo your protector and make nyong-nyong your boxing samsak".
Nying with a sticky face because of the small smiling tears heard my last sentence.
"No!". The sound of high hells shifted to hit the tile. 1 step nying forward, nying stop and look at me.
"Rese woman who first met has been playing tell me to lift her suitcase, I sprained but since then her face can not be lost from the brain gw".
Nying smiled again and I saw the happiness of that smile and "No!". He took his second step to get closer to me.
"Women who make a rocking drill and sing only to comfort him for fear of his anger and sprain".
"No!". The third step is taken.
"Women who wake up sleep soundly Iw only to cementin he ate gudeg in the morning and roadside anyway".
"No!". Nying sucked her snot and smiled to take the fourth step.
Cute that vow face nying cake no small if nangis suck snot all.
Hold Bemo hold back don't smile or laugh! One more step will overcome his fear. I strengthen myself.
"A beautiful woman with her baby face, a dream woman with all her advantages, when she is carrying it will even be more cute. If he frowns I really want to pinch his cheeks because of the anxiety and the woman is you nying".
"One more step! One more step, look me in the eye and fly into my arms baby".
Instantly it also nying jumped into my arms, hugging me so tightly.
I hug him back tightly and I lift his body in my arms.
"I love you Abimana Pramono, I like you Bimo, I love you nyong-nyong".
3 Names 3 expressions of feelings I was perfectly replied by the woman who is currently tightly in my arms.