This Is Not How It Should Be

All Feels Hollow

Al followed Leta's point of view, as did Rafa . Al just nodded in agreement with Leta's question .

“So this is what makes you cry ?” Rafa's like going to pounce on Dhirga .

It seems that Rafa still cares about Al .

Leta sets her sights on Rafa and realizes the idol still adores other girls . Leta thought a fistfight a few years ago had made her give up but the reality was not . Rafa still admires Al .

Rafa moves out of his chair with a dead red face holding back emotions, Al and Leta who realize it immediately follow Rafa and try to block him but Rafa can no longer be banned . Leta and Al follow Rafa's steps with a little run .

Bugh!! Bugh!! Bugh!!

Without warning, Rafa beat Dhirga mercilessly and all who watched screamed hysterically as fresh blood began to flow on the side of Dhirga's lips .

Al felt dejavu .

Why did it happen again, the inner Al who felt dizzy with all this . Al pulls Rafa to stop beating Dhirga, however he is still his girlfriend . Al could no longer feel her tears flowing endlessly . Miris sees Dhirga battered and is sad to see Rafa being brutal because Rafa has been so gentle towards her all along .

Al also felt tight when he saw Merry crouching to help Dhirga . It felt like Al was hugging the almost unconscious Dhirga but what power Merry had preceded him .

Leta painstakingly blocks Rafa, who still seems unsatisfied, from beating Dhirga . Leta kept calling Rafa's name to calm down . Rafa looked at Al who could only cry silently watching all this made Rafa who was like being possessed by a demon then soften and break away from Leta .

Rafa hugged Al who was still not speaking . Hoping for Al to scold him or slap him but Al was still silent staring at Dhirga . Dhirga painstakingly wakes up to reach Al but there is not the slightest move Al to get to him . His heart ached at Dhirga full of wounds and blood but more agonizing when imagining the reason Dhirga came to this place with Merry, let alone Al saw for himself how Dhirga treated Merry .

“Al-ka..” said Dhirga limped . Now all eyes are staring at Al even pedestrians start making small circles around them .

“This is not what you see Al” Dhirga still painstakingly pronounces every word because of the torn and sore corners of his lips.

Al was still silent not knowing what to say . Then Rafa took her gently to his car . Al according to following Rafa , it might be better that way . Al walked over and occasionally looked back at Dhirga who was looking at him sadly as if something was inexplicable .

On the way home Al just kept quiet, Rafa and Leta didn't know what to do . Do not know how to comfort him because even a fool would assume that Merry is pregnant with a child from Dhirga if he saw Merry who came to the obstetrician with Dhirga . Even people who have never been pregnant also know to the obstetrician yes with husband .

But what about this ?

Al turned her gaze on the slightly jammed road , her tears were no longer flowing but the traces were still clearly visible on her beautiful face .

“What do you think their relationship is?” Al started to open the conversation earlier both Rafa and Leta were afraid to start .

Rafa and Leta turned to Al who was still busy looking at the crowded street .

“Kalo I said Dhirga only between you can feel better ?” Ask Rafa who does not want Al to be sadder .

Maybe this is the first time he cares so much about a girl .

Al just shook his head signaling that the answer did not make him better .

“You should talk about it Al , let you know what you should do next.” Leta also advised Al , as a good friend Leta did not want Al to continue to feel sad .

“Maybe for now I want to break until my heart is calm only then I met him” Al was confused how could this be the best because talking when emotions will make everything more messy .

“Everything the best for you” Rafa can only encourage his girlfriend.

Rafa feels the good and evil elements are beginning to take over his senses.

Good chance boss, you can go straight into nikung si Al. Said the Evil One.

No. True men don't marry. The Good does not agree with the Evil One.

Rafa ruffled her hair in frustration . Let everything run like water, if indeed the soul mate will not go where and if everywhere it means not a mate .

The car drove leisurely , the sun began to set and left a tinge of twilight on the sky that changed with the night .

Al felt his mood was increasingly unclear coupled with Dhirga who did not try to contact him at all , either by chat or phone . Al thought positively, maybe Dhirga was busy treating his wounds but suddenly it felt tight considering Merry who treated Dhirga's wounds .

The car entered the elite housing complex where Al lived, a few meters from Al's house saw Dhirga's car parked on the side of the road .

“Stop ka” pinta Al yabg see Dhirga car in front there .

Rafa stops his car and has not realized why Al asked to stop, shortly Al got out of the car followed by Rafa and Leta .

Al approached Dhirga's car looking for where the owner of the car was . And shocked when he saw Dhirga who was still bleeding leaning on the front of the car, looking down as if holding back the sad that could no longer be revealed .

The wound is still there, even the blood has not been cleaned and dried on the parts where the blood flows.

“Bang” call Al.

Rafa who initially wanted to approach him when he knew the owner of the car was detained by Leta who then shook his head slowly.

“Give them time” Leta whispered, then Leta and Rafa went from there .

Dhiga hugged Al tightly.

“Engga as you see Al , I just accompanied him” explained Dhirga who still hugged Al tightly .

Al as if numb, unable to feel the embrace of Dhirga . Al cried in that unrequited embrace.

“I need time bang , please love me time” pinta Al while parse a hug from Dhirga.

“Baby , I'm serious , I'm just anter , not I'm the father of a child conceived Merry” Dhirga still trying to blow Al's heart .

“Then who bang ?!” Al demands an answer from Dhirga, but Dhirga is unable to answer.

Dhirga just silently heard Al disappointment . Dhirga doesn't know what to do.

“That seems like a lot you hide from me huh ? I don't know anything about you, whereas you know everything about me . I feel like fair 'cause, I want us to break ya” sadness Al can no longer be dammed .

Dhirga was shocked to hear Al who asked for a break from him, indeed this is his fault who had lied to Al .

Did not get an answer from Dhirga , Al went straight into the house . Let's just say Dhirga agreed.

Somehow the continuation of their relationship . Al was afraid that one day he would be more surprised by the true secret of Dhirga . Even Dhirga could not tell him who the father of the child Merry conceived .

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(a few months later)

“Alkaa..” greet Rafa as they meet in the campus corridor.

“Hai to ,” Al reply greetings from Rafa .

Al has not contacted Dhirga for 6 months and vice versa .

Dhirga like lost in the earth . Once upon a time Al came to his studio Om Adhit but the staff said they moved out of town . But why did none of them tell him .

“hai. Nightmare the hell ?” Rafa's voice brought him back. Now Rafa and Leta are always with him , accompany him and help him forget about Dhirga .

Yup Leta is now moving to college because he does not feel at home in Bandung and rather can not be far from Al.

Rafa has never known how many times he has expressed his love for Al . But still no answer . Rafa understands maybe Al is still waiting for Dhirga to return .

Time continues to pass until the end of the semester exam and all students are preoccupied with written exams and practice exams, not least Al . Though the heart is troubled but the world keeps turning, life goes on . Al doesn't want his love story to make him lose the future .

After the exam all students are closed for two months, some go on vacation and some take advantage of the time with part time work . Until the time the holidays began Al still can not determine what activities will fill his time.

“Holiday we did ya Al ?” ask leta while she gripped ice coffee lattenya .

“Lu want part time what is treveling?” Leta turned to Al with a look of annoyance .

“Gue nanya same lu Al, even behind her sih” Leta put on a sullen face and Al just laughed to see it .

Thanks yes Let, Inner Al . He feels his life is now lighter thanks to Leta who always comforts him.

“Bali yuk” invite Al

“Nah so dong” Leta back the spirit of hearing Al's remarks.

“Yah said anyway if you ngajak treveling , use pretend nanya”

Leta laughed out loud, her mode was caught with Al.

“Take to Rafa yuk” pinta Leta.

Al rolled his eyeballs , memorize well with his best friend this one .

“Al..” Leta held Al's hand gently, and Al turned to Leta.

“Udah all this time Dhirga no news , you want to open your heart for Rafa ? Don't worry I already have a bustle kok, if that's what makes you want to open your heart to brother Rafa” Leta know very well his best friend is so dear to him , and Leta knew exactly what made Al not want to open his heart to Rafa's brother.

Al just a little smile .

Shortly thereafter came a man, who was said to be handsome also not but he was not ugly . Seeing it like there's no boss . The man who had just passed through the door and entered was walking towards Al and Leta .

“Hai..” greet the guy on Leta and instantly kiss spoiled Leta's forehead .

“Hai dear..” Reply Leta no less spoiled . Leta then wrapped her hands around the guy's plate .

“Al knew this guy that I told you about lu” Leta introduced the guy to Al.

“Hai . I Ghibran Naufal Rizal call aja Naufal” greet Naufal kindly and extend his right hand to shake .

“Hai , I'm Abriana Alka Tunggadewa call me Al” replied Al while receiving a handshake from Naufal.

Yes Naufal does look so in love with Leta and also looks more mature than Leta . Probably the same age as Rafa .

Al smiled seeing Leta and Naufal looking so deeply in love with each other . Naufal is not as handsome as Rafa and does not look like a bad boy like Dhirga but his supple nature makes him attractive coupled with dimples that arise when he smiles . Sweet .

“Al...” Leta call Al gently and then gently grasp Al's hand . Al replied to her with a gentle smile as well . Al know what Leta will say .

“please , give a chance to brother Rafa” Leta plead to Al . Not for nothing but Leta is a witness to how steadfast Rafa won Al's heart .

Then Al nodded and smiled . Leta hugs Al because she is so happy, Al finally wants to open her heart to others.

“But I just opened my heart ya Leta, don't force me to love ka Rafa in a short time” said Al on Leta , for fear that Al will be forced to love Rafa wholeheartedly .

“Loving her or not is your decision, but helping you to move on is my duty” once again Leta hugs Al who is sitting next to her.

Naufal who had just known him was also happy, maybe Leta had told Naufal everything.

May this be a good start for all of us, Inner Al.