This Is Not How It Should Be
Open the Heart

It's currently at 05:00 WIB . Al , Rafa , Leta and Naufal have arrived at Soekarno-Hatta Airport to travel to the island of the Gods.

Their plane will take off at 06:00 WIB. They do not like to rush, it is better to come early than to rush . They stopped for breakfast first at one of the restaurants at the airport.

“This is for you Al” Rafa comes with a tray containing 2 croissant dishes and 1 cup of hot coffee also 1 cup of warm tea.

“Thanks kak” replied Al who immediately sipped his tea and Rafa only replied by stroking the shoots of Al with affection.

Rafa's attitude like that makes Al wrong and embarrassed . Al stopped sipping his warm tea and glanced at Rafa who stroked it with his left hand and right hand scrolling the phone , Rafa's eyes were fixed on the phone screen so he did not realize Al who had reddened.

Leta and Naufal looked at them with a fluffy smile on their faces .

“What?!” al said in a slightly raised tone in embarrassment.

Rafa reflexively turned towards Al who was already as red as boiled shrimp. Rafa then looked at Leta and Naufal who were then increasingly unable to resist his expanding smile.

“Why?” asked Rafa who had now folded his hands in front of his chest.

Leta and Naufal just laughed then finished their breakfast . Al and Rafa also start to finish their breakfast .

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They arrive at the Rafa family's villa on the eve of lunch due to the location of the villa far from the airport .

“Welcome young master and friends. All rooms have been Ipul clean master, can choose anywhere” said Ipul the guardian of the villa .

“thank you” answer them simultaneously.

Al chose a room upstairs with a window facing directly to the sea . Without him knowing next to it is Rafa's room.

When he opened the big window and walked towards the balcony a cool breeze greeted him and the sea spread wide in front of him . Al involuntarily closed his eyes.

Rafa who had been standing on the balcony from the next room looked at Al who was so beautiful with a short tutu skirt in black as well as a matching T-shirt .

Her long wavy hair danced as the wind blew. Al suddenly shed tears as he closed his eyes.

Rafa is eager to call Al to let the girl know that he is not alone.

“Hoi you guys !! Don't date mulu let's go to sea!!” leta shouted at Rafa and Al.

Rafa had not realized since when Leta was standing there. Al immediately opened his eyes and wiped away the tears on his cheeks but the trace of his sadness could not be removed.

Al shows his sweet smile to Leta, he does not want Leta sad to see him who is still heartbroken.

“Come!” take Al to Rafa gently. Rafa was inexhaustible to this girl who was very good at covering up her sadness.

Rafa smiled but in his heart he felt sad because his presence still could not make Al open his heart and forget his heartache.

But Rafa does not know in his heart Al is determined to open his heart as wide as possible for Rafa. It's time to forget about Dhirga who doesn't know where he is. Al was tired of waiting.

But he still could not determine what he would do if Dhirga suddenly appeared before him. Will it stick to its stance or will it collapse its defenses.

Al ran after Leta with their typical happy laugh screams. Rafa and Naufal were looking from afar.

“Gue salute the same lo Raf , Leta many stories the same I” said Naufal who made Rafa look at him.

“Not love should be fought for bro?” rafa replied by returning his eyes to Al.

“That’s right!! Fighting!!” naufal said she imitated a Korean girl group.

“Jijik!”

And they laugh .

On the other side was a man who looked at Al longingly.

Al continued to play with the beach water with Leta like an excited little boy.

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“Honey we eat seafood yuk” Leta spoiled on Naufal , entwine Naufal's arms with affection.

“Iya ayok” Naufal can never resist Leta's wishes, he has the main female principle.

Al just stared at Rafa as if asking for his approval.

“You want ?” rafa asked gently, and Al nodded like a obedient cat.

“Alright” Rafa agrees to Al's wish and Al smiles sweetly , Rafa can't hold his hand to not stroke Al's head.

The blush!!

Al's face reddened, feeling the treatment of Rafa who now increasingly showed his feelings for Al.

Suddenly Al heard a voice that he so longed for and so he knew . Who else if not the voice of Dhirga .

“Al..” soft sayings.

Oxygen was lost to nowhere, and Al felt short of breath when he saw Dhirga who was so thin and unkempt. Doesn't feel a clear grain sliding without cue.

Al still can't believe it. The presence of a real Dhirga or just a mirage in the middle of his heavy longing.

As his skin touches the fine hair that begins to grow around Dhirga's beard, Al becomes convinced that this is real.

All eyes looked at them. Al immediately clenched tightly onto Dhirga's body which looked like a zombie.

“Bang..” he said softly in the middle of his increasingly broken cries.

Al felt Dhirga also felt what he felt. Dhirga returned Al's embrace equally tightly .

“Sorry I” Dhirga said it many times .

“Where to bang ?” al asked after releasing his embrace.

“...” Dhirga could not answer him , Dhirga could not say what was true .

“answer me” Al demands Dhirga to give him an explanation, so that all clear and Al can determine which path he should choose .

“Merry told my parents that the child he contained was my son.” could not continue his words Dhirga then ventured to glance at Al.

Al was surprised instead of playing, Al covered his mouth with his hands. And the clear details just keep escaping to betray his master.

Dhirga then squabbled at the foot of Al . Apologized and swore that it wasn't his son.

“I dare to swear to death Al , it is not my son” now Dhira can not hold back her tears anymore.

“Then ? Brother left me because of Merry?” fear crept into Al ''s heart, he was afraid of the answer Dhirga gave .

“I was forced to take responsibility , whereas I didn't feel I did it to Merry , I dare swear Al” brain Al as if lost the way to think . He could not digest Dhirga's words.

“I'm still waiting for the child to be born, then I will DNA test, I promise I prove that the child is not my child ,”

After saying that Dhirga then left Alka with confusion filling her head.

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In villa.

Rafa approached Al who was sitting pensively on the beach. Rafa occupied himself beside Al who was still pensively staring at the vast sea.

It feels like Rafa lost the courage to talk to Al. He sat quietly with Al.

"i'm devastated" Al said suddenly without turning his eyes to the sea.

"..." - ".Rafa was still quietly confused about what to answer .

"i'm really devastated, I love her so much . Suddenly he left me without a word of farewell. Now when I started living my life normally again he came and said he had to take responsibility for the child Merry was carrying.. Can I separate my son from his father?" The crying can no longer be contained. Al was crying.

Rafa does not know what to do, he pulls the crying Al into his arms and occasionally kisses Al's head.

Leta who stood in agony with Naufal wept when she heard Al weeping bitterly, and Naufal hugged her.

I closed these eyes

Trying to forget

All the wonderful memories of you

About my dream

The more I try

Your shadow's getting real

Proceed to the soul

God help me

I don't know where you are

It feels like my life without you

Is there you miss me

Like me who always misses you

Always miss you

I can't deny it

You are the only one

That can make my soul

Who ever died meant something

But now you're missing

Like being swallowed by the earth

You never realized

Meaning of your love for me