This Is Not How It Should Be

Farewell Letter

"Would you like to come here?"

The question escaped Al's lips, and it was clear that Al was holding a lot of anger for Dhirga.

Suddenly Al yells hysterically mentioning Dhirga is the cause of all this, the cause of great regret in his heart.

Yes indeed, maybe if Dhirga does not appear again when they are on vacation in Bali Al will not hesitate to accept Rafa as his lover.

Maybe if Dhirga doesn't show up again, Al is happy to move on from him.

Maybe if Dhirga doesn't mumble anymore, Al is already aware of his feelings for Rafa and doesn't make his relationship with Rafa tenuous.

Al kept shouting and was about to hit Dhirga, fortunately being held back by Papa Danish.

Because of the furore, the doctor who examined Al came out of the room to see what was happening.

The doctor immediately called several sisters and asked them to bring Al the hospital room.

Al was then given medicine to calm down and now Al was fast asleep.

"Sir Ma'am, I beg you not to make the patient experience strong emotions as before, it can affect his psyche because at this time the patient is depressed, make the patient calm, Mr. Bu" obviously the Doctor is at length.

"Okay Doc, we're sorry" Papa Danish replied.

"There is no need to apologize, sir, we work together, everything so that patients recover quickly. Excuse me first" and the doctor left.

Al had to undergo hospitalization in their special hospital that had problems with his psychic.

"Dhirga apologizes Om Auntie, it should not have come today" said Dhirga.

"Yes . indeed you should not appear again in Al's life" the emotion was still felt on Mama Elvina because her daughter was just a puppet was almost crazy like this because of the man who came and went as he pleased.

"Tante, Dhirga is really sorry, Dhirga's intention came today to ask for forgiveness from Al , Dhirga did not expect Al would be like this. Dhirga also want to say goodbye to Om and Auntie, Dhirga will really go from Al life. This is a letter to Al, Dhirga. Maybe it's better when Al's condition has recovered just given him Tan,"

Dhirga gave Mama Elvina a white envelope. And then Dhirga left.

***

Two months have passed and Al's health development has been very good.

Al underwent hypnosis every day for two months he was hospitalized. Now Al has a lot to say although sometimes still like to daydream, but it does not have a bad effect on him.

"It looks like the patient has improved a lot, now he only feels a little sadness when he remembers his deceased lover. It's natural that I can't and won't erase that memory let him remember it, but don't get drawn up" obviously the young doctor while his eyes were not separated from Al who was laughing with Letta.

"I'm very grateful that the doctor took care of our child" Papa Danish said.

The young doctor who turned out to be named Angga smiled sweetly.

She became very beautiful when she was back to being herself, the Inner Angga.

The dimple on the right continued to appear and disappear as Al laughed and stopped laughing.

Angga remembered the first time Danish and Elvina brought their depressed child with empty eyes. Very different from what is currently joking with his words.

"When can Al go home Doc?" the question from Mama Elvina interrupted Angga to re-awaken from her admiration for Al.

"hmm.maybe next week" answered Angga who was taken in by Al's parents.

Angga walked over to Al.

"Hi Al's. What do you feel right now?" ask Angga basa stale.

"Maybe bored Doc" replied Al origin and then smiled ignorantly. Oh, my God, his smile.

"Patience yes, if you continue to improve next week can go home , as soon as this week. As long as you promise not to feel sad again" Angga's hand reflexes stroked Al's long hair.

Angga realized his behavior and finally left so as not to do it again. Angga touched his left chest feeling his heartbeat pounding against his chest wall.

- A week later

"Haaahhhh, I'm finally back" cried Al as he set foot back home after two months as a patient.

"Non Al's... O Allah.. Thank God it's not healthy?" one of the household assistants who had joined the family of Tunggadewa for decades approached Al with a happy look.

"Al is very healthy mbok...." Al then embraced the assistant happily.

Papa Danish and Mama Elvina who had just entered and saw him immediately smiled warmly.

"Eh Tuan here mbok bring his bag Non Al up" said Mbok and snatch the smooth big bag.

"yes sir" he replied and then walked towards Al's room.

Papa Danish embraces Al's shoulder and leads him to the tv room.

"Honey, there's something Papa wants to love you" Papa Danish began to talk as they sat on the big couch.

Mama Elvina took out a letter from Dhirga on Al.

"It's from Dhirga, you read it but remember your emotional control" Mama Elvina seemed a little hesitant as she gave the letter.

Al accepted it with trembling hands.

"Can Al read in the room?" al asked with a slightly trembling voice.

"Of course it's a pity, but your emotional control is yes" Papa Danish once again reminded. They don't want anything to happen to their children.

Al then walked towards his room on the second floor. And immediately closed and locked the door of his room.

Al slowly landed his butt on the edge of his bed. Look at the envelope that says "This is the last one, from Dhirga to you"

Al exhaled slowly trying to regulate his breath and prepare his mental.

Slowly Al opened the white envelope and looked at the folded piece of paper, took it out slowly and opened it with an erratic feeling.

Dear, My Baby Abriana Alka Tunggadeva.

I know I'm a real jerk, but I really don't want to leave you.

I always hoped we would be together forever after this storm was over.

But without me realizing I'm actually making you so hurt.

Really, can I still not know that he asked you to come back ?

But I know what you'll answer.

No!!

I can even hear your voice when you say it out loud.

Can it still be me who has hurt you so deeply to apologize to you a little ?

Al, I was a fool to let you go so perfectly for my fear.

I was afraid at that time, maybe if I didn't fulfill Merry's request he would do something bad to you.

That's the reason why I went to live in Bali with him.

Until the baby was born, and I secretly underwent a DNA test, and do you know the results ?

The baby is not my son, and I forced Merry to tell the truth.

After that I prepared my heart and felt able to meet you.

But when I met you everything changed.

I am late, your heart is filled.

Your days are colored with Rafa.

Alka, do you believe that I am so jealous of Rafa that even when she can no longer take you from me?

I was jealous when you were more devastated when Rafa left you.

Now that I'm conscious, hearts can change, days turn around changing everything even the irreversible.

I want you to be happy, even if I'm not the reason you're smiling.

Because together need two hearts that love each other, not hearts that force to be together.

Goodbye Al, let me take care of you from afar with my prayers.

I will always love you until the last breath.

Dhirgham Haider Irhab