This Is Not How It Should Be
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Their holidays are no longer fun. Especially when Al asked for permission to return to Jakarta first made them all no longer have a reason to stay on vacation.
After the day that Al met Dhirga everything changed. Al returns to being a talkative Al and just daydreaming all day. Al is back as a living corpse.
It made Letta's anger at Dhirga even more mountainous.
"fuck!!" Maki Letta just after closing the door to Al's room.
There was Naufal who was ready to calm Letta's emotions by stroking her back.
Their return schedule was delayed by one day because there were no tickets.
"i hate her babe" whispered Letta holding back angrily.
"yes I know , but don't do this later even to make Al worse" Naufal persuaded Letta.
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Today they returned to Jakarta .
Al did not meet with Dhirga again, a very short meeting that made all the calm that he had built was shattered.
Al who began to cheer up is now back to Al a few months ago. Many daydream, do not talk much, and like to be alone.
Al's attitude like this makes Rafa again have to fight hard to restore his Al.
A week they have returned to their activities that are not preoccupied with campus tasks.
Al is not much different from that day . She went back to being a poor girl and it made everyone close to her sad.
"For Al.." said Rafa when he met Al in the campus corridor.
"hi ka" with a smile on the force then Al passed.
Rafa just looked at Al's back who started walking away . Unknowingly Letta had been standing beside him.
"Ka .. "call him softly, there was a lot of sadness that could be heard from his voice.
"Hi Letta" said Rafa imposing his cheerfulness.
They then walk towards the coffee shop available on their campus.
"Are you okay brother ?" Letta finally asked him a question he had thought about for a long time.
He wondered how Rafa's heart was.
Rafa shook his head while holding his coffee cup.
"Think maybe I'm okay Let. I fought hard to make Al see me, but now..." Rafa purposely hangs up his words, but Letta understands his point.
"Why do you want to help me ?" Ask Letta who is confused how to.
"Lo is always enough beside Al that is enough for me"
"But you know yourself brother, not just lo that he away, me too" Letta began to shed tears .
Letta understood what Al was feeling right now, but she was saddened by Al's attitude.
"Maybe let her be alone first, let her calm down first" Letta agreed with Rafa.
If Al doesn't think they exist then they just need to do the same to Al. That's best for now, considering Al doesn't want to be disturbed.
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Alka sat pensively on the sofa of her room recalling her memories with Dhirga.
~> Flashback
"Baby, you promise me that I will continue" said Dhirga, who was lying on Alka's thigh.
Dhirga instantly rose from shock with Alka's perfectly reasonable answer.
"Keep me how should you make a fool of me?" Dhirga's parched face made Al laugh.
~> Flashback off
"Maybe God wants me with another bang , I'm too sick when with you" said Al lirih at the end of his sentence.
The drops that fall off are no longer water but blood that may be more clearly telling if his eyes are tired of dripping liquid.
Al grabbed his phone lying next to him. Opening the Whatsapp application that he used to chat. But there wasn't a single message from Letta or Rafa.
Are they angry about being ignored ? Inner Al.
Then Al tried to send a message to them but the message only showed an ash tick, indicating the message was not sent.
Rafa accepts Letta's proposal to stay away until Al himself comes looking for him. Even Rafa according to when Letta asked him to block Al number.
"Tomorrow I'll apologize" Alka said then lay her body ready to sleep.
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This morning Alka woke up with a new spirit to rise up and forget about Dhirga . He was tired, really tired. Tired of waiting in uncertainty . Actually it is certain, Dhirga is married to Merry is not that a certainty that is absolutely certain?
"For pa ma'am" said Al to his parents.
"Hi dear" papa Danish kissed her favorite son's cheek.
"wahh, is your son back?" Mama Elvina is really happy to see Al with a new spirit .
It is clearly visible from its beautiful appearance. His eye bags and eyes were gone and Al marked a proper rest last night. His face in natural polishes, because after returning from his vacation let alone make up maybe hair is not combed by him because there is no spirit to do anything. I even locked myself in my room for 3 days.
Al smiled sweetly. He was determined to forget Dhirga.
After finishing his breakfast, Al bamitan finally went to campus with his own car.
Al waited for Letta in the parking lot, and sure enough before long Letta was seen walking casually into the campus fence after saying goodbye to Naufal.
"Letta" called Al with a warm smile.
Letta turned her head, smiled and left. Letta was still upset with Al, not supposed to ignore him.
Letta actually did not have the heart to be cruel like that, it was very curious to hug Al. Letta was able to see a different Al this morning, Al looks like more fresh.
Al was saddened by Letta's neglect. Perhaps this was also what Letta felt as he ignored her.
It's okay, and then he'll try to talk to Letta again.
But until the end of his lecture Letta did not pay attention to Al at all.
Al finally understood what it felt like to be ignored. Al walks towards the parking lot limp. In the corridor he passed Rafa who was sitting coolly picking up his phone.
"Sir Rafa.." said Al hesitantly.
Hearing the voice she so longed for Rafa looked up and saw Al who was smiling sweetly at her.
Ahh the smile that I miss, Rafa's inner.
Rafa then stood up slowly, rubbing Al's cheek affectionately and gently then Rafa left from before him.
"Sister." call Al choked, his voice restrained, his chest tight to see Rafa's back away from him.
Unknowingly the clear fur was dripping again, this time not because of Dhirga. But somehow seeing Rafa move away he was eager to have her, asking for himself. It feels like asking his ego to control him. I want to ask Rafa not to go.
"Sir Rafaaa.." she cried with her tears.
