This Is Not How It Should Be
Like being struck by Lightning
The day goes on. With Alka still trying to apologize to Letta and Rafa. And all that time they did not see the existence of Alka.
The sun had already shifted, and the sky was still giving off its royal color. It was almost dark but Alka had just finished her business on campus.
Alka stood looking at the beautiful sky, praising the beauty of God's creation. And accidentally his eyes caught the figure that made his heart ravaged lately.
They look like lovers, laughing while joking and the girl's gaze greatly explains her feelings for the young man who attracted her. And occasionally spit on Rafa's arm. Lean friendly on Rafa's shoulders.
"Kak Rafa" said Al calling the suspect turmoil of his heart.
Rafa walks with a girl who knows who, walking to his parked car next to Alka's car.
And Alka stepped her feet unconsciously towards them.
Why does this heart feel like this ? Why is this pain so real ? Why did the pain in his heart feel like it was when he saw Dhirga and Merry back then? Whatisthis?
Al's heart wondered what he felt.
"Sir Rafa?" Call Alka when her slow body is very close to her.
Rafa looked over and looked surprised in his eyes.
"Al.." said Rafa.
The beads of their eyes met even as if letting go of each other.
"Raf.." call the girl who was walking with Rafa.
"So enter Nadia" Rafa ordered without taking his eyes off Al who looked very sick.
"Sister. Why does my chest hurt?" Al asked innocently while holding his chest.
From his eyes was very visible Al in pain.
"Why you, baby?" Rafa cursed his mouth that flippantly called Al that name.
Al smiled bitterly. And go by leaving Rafa.
Al ran to his car and immediately plugged the gas.
Heart hurts. Throbbing head. And his eyes hurt.
"I why ?" The finger touched her cheek that had been soaked by tears.
The more pressed the more crowded it feels. Alka finally pulled over her car on the side of the road and cried loudly.
I don't know what he's dealing with. Rafa ignores him or calls Rafa dearly. Or maybe the pretty girl who walked with Rafa.
That girl is so pretty. Even she who is a woman can say she is a beautiful girl especially Rafa who is a man. Rafa must be interested in him.
His cry grew even more bitter when he thought of Rafa who was interested in the girl Nadia called by Rafa.
How could.
The question echoed in the recesses of his heart. His heart banged hard in there.
Finally Alka cried out sadly.
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"who is Raf ?" Nadia asked at last who had been curious since.
Rafa who has since met Al has become very quiet. Say nothing and focus on the road.
Looks like Rafa forgot there's a pretty girl next to him.
"Huh?" Justright. Rafa was busy with his thoughts from now on.
"Raf.. lo daydreaming huh?" Ask Nadia.
"not if I dreamt it had hit me earlier" said Rafa.
"He who?" It was clear that Nadia was jealous.
Nadia has been Rafa's best friend since Secondary School. But do you believe there is genuine friendship between women and men ?
In this case Nadia is the one who fell in love with Rafa. Rafa pretends not to know it for the sake of maintaining their friendship even though Nadia's heart is hurt.
"She's Alka, the girl who's been my moodboster. The innocent and insensitive girl I love with all my heart. The girl who was stuck with her first love and I tried to pull her out of her heartbreak" Rafa said.
Nadia remained silent. Finally Rafa loves another girl. It was like crying and screaming but he didn't want Rafa to pity him.
"Why do you want to go after him?" Whatever Rafa's answer is definitely hurting his heart.
Rafa was silent. Because he is also confused why not be pursued. It felt like chasing and hugging him but his legs were very heavy to step on. He also felt like he wanted to berate his feet that did not want to be invited to work together.
"Gue loves her Nad. You support me as much as him, right?"
"gue will support whatever your decision" he replied later.
"thank you, Nad".
Rafa takes Nadia home. It was very exciting to go to Alka's house but she instead drove her car back to her house.
There was pain when I saw Alka's eyes. Eyes are the window to the world. From the eyes we can see what he feels.
The glint of Al's eyes showed a heart so wounded that it caused a sense of unease in his heart.
Rafa finally sent a message to Alka.
@Rafa
Alka, I love you
Ting! (Incoming message sign)
@my lovely Alka
Put everything down, brother.
let's just say we never had anything"
The reply from Al seemed to burn Rafa's body. His body shook violently. His heart was like burning, maybe it would blister afterwards.
Without much thought Rafa snatched the car keys he had placed on the table. And drove his car towards Alka's house with an erratic feeling.
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Alka was sitting alone on the balcony of her room. Maybe her eyes were swollen from crying.
"The new gue's awake. Am I jealous ? Am I starting to fall in love with Rafa? It hurts so much she can laugh at other girls but she's been my nyuekin lately"
The clear thread was back flowing without permission.
"Rafa jerk . I've made me fall in love and keep going with other girls" cried Alka.
"Rafardhan Athalla I love you. Even you can make me forget the same Dhirga.." lirih Alka.
~> Flashback
Alka was busy picking out the books on the library shelf suddenly felt a burly arm holding her from behind.
"good morning" she said right in Al's ear, making her blush.
"Our brother in the bus don't be silly" whispered Al to Rafa.
Rafa flipped Al's body and placed his lips on Al's lips gently.
Al who was shocked felt his body stiffen.
"When I kiss you relax dong, and don't forget to return my kiss" whispered Rafa.
Rafa pulls Al's arm to put it in Rafa's neck. Then Rafa hugged tightly to Al's waist.
Rafa re-attached his lips slightly***** and lightly bit Al's lower lip so that Al could open his mouth and Rafa could pass on the contents of his mouth.
At first it was surprised but over time Al started to reply.
It was their first kiss after Al finally opened his heart to Rafa.
~> Flashback off
Al cried bitterly remembering what they had gone through together.
Even his heart felt sore when replying to the message from Rafa earlier.
The longer his cries grew more heartbreaking. Anyone who hears must feel that sadness.
Suddenly his phone rang. The name Letta appeared on his phone screen. Alka took the call.
"Hallo" said Al.
"alka.. cepet came to the hospital xx Rafa critical condition antics" Letta's voice was very panicked, and the panic transmitted Alka.
Just a few sentences from Letta that made him crumble again.
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