The Unusual Husband
The Part 16
Anne POV's.
Anne kept her party dress and accessories in the closet.
Where did Robert have this kind of money to buy these dresses and accessories? If Robert says this is KW from an online shop, it can't even be trusted. Why is this like real? The material is smooth and thick like this. He said only the work of forex trading, sometimes profit sometimes loss, not clear. How can I buy such an expensive dress? Ah already, while I keep it, where know can be used for later.
I've been married to Robert for 3 years, but we never had a room. Though a wife should meet the needs of the inner birth of her husband. Robert had never asked for his right all along. However, lately why is Robert's gelagat getting sweeter? Like to say ‘I love you’, kiss forehead, hand coupler, shoulder and waist hug, etc. It's okay too, because we ‘kan have been married long. It's just that my heart often beats because of him.
Of love? Is that love? Have I fallen in love with her? Is it because I'm used to it? When she's not home, I feel lonely. Not because no one cooks and takes care of the house, but its presence that always makes me feel warm. I want to be with him, go for a ride on the motorbike, or take the train together to Bogor, eat at the warteg near the house, etc. The little things are fun for me.
Robert was always my friend when I was sad, and he made me porridge when I was sick. I thought it was the usual thing a husband does to his wife as per our wedding vows, but it turns out it is a form of real love. Meaning, love comes because it is used to it, and because it meets often, right?
He knows I hurt my dad, mom, and Spencer. However, he did not ask me for revenge, instead, he took me away together, eating and going for a walk so that my mind was distracted. Then, a few days ago I said about the baby, and he welcomed the chat. It seemed like she was indeed expecting this marriage to continue and enter the next stage, which was to have children.
Sometimes I wonder if I can be a good mom? I have no picture of a loving mother. My parents did send me to school, they fulfilled their obligations as parents and did not throw me into the orphanage. It's just, there's no fair attention and affection for me. I was treated differently from Spencer. I understand that a family that adheres to a strong patrilineal, of course everything is for boys. However, a little bit of their attention was not on me.
Fortunately I was married to Spencer who was already an orphan, so no in-laws would bully me because my own parents didn't care about me. Fortunately, Spencer was noble-hearted, he wanted to marry me who had nothing and he had already pulled me out of the mud. Although he was not a rich prince, his heart was kind and he was sweet. She wasn't much romantic about buying chocolates and a bouquet of flowers, but she was always there and ready, she was helping with housework, taking me along while I was out of my waist, he prepared my lunch, he massaged my feet and acupuncture therapy while my waist pain was crumpled, etc.
I want to be happy. If you wait for a new reincarnation happy, it still feels very long. After all, I won't remember my old life when I was reincarnated ‘ right? So, I want to ask God that in my current life there is a breakthrough, I want to be happy with Robert. I don't want to be sad anymore because of the thought that they were unfair in all things to me. Why the hell should I bother about something that's not mine? Treasure is not brought to death. I can already accept that it's all for Spencer. Maybe it was Spencer's sustenance, it could have been in his past life before reincarnation, he sowed a lot of goodness so that in his present life he was born as a child loved by his parents, a lucky life.
Did I do the wrong thing in life before reincarnation so I was born as this unhappy and sick Anne Halinger? Nobody knows. I can't count on 6 types of relationships in my life:
- The old man. They just love Spencer and kicked me out. Even I have to keep doing good, well that's okay, but I'm so bored. It felt like all my good deeds were in vain and like anything and as much as anything I did, were just taken for granted by them. Is it not natural for a child to send money monthly to his parents? However, what sliced me was that I had to give to my parents who were still actively working in the company. I am the poor, I must bless the rich.
- Brother. Spencer and his wife obviously didn't like me and they were always exclusive themselves and never invited me when they had holidays and other family activities.
- In-law. Robert is an orphan. This is good, because I don't have any in-laws who will scold me or nyinyir me. However, if I have a problem taking care of my child, or I want to go to work, or when I am sick, I cannot ask anyone for help, I'll have to decide whether to stay at work or just be a housewife because no one helps keep an eye on my son.
- Husband. Robert's job and salary were erratic.
- Grandpa Grandma. Oma Tinka has had a stroke, and my mother is grumpy about taking care of it. Grandpa Thomas was rich, but his fortune was certainly for my father and Spencer.
- Child. I ‘kan do not have children, and if I have children, I also have to take care of it and finance it. I might have to wait 25 years until the kid is established and can take care of me, huh ….
At first, I felt bitter. However, there is also a good thing if I do not have to be independent through everything? There was no debt of gratitude to anyone, except of course with my strange mother, not wanting to be friends with me, but expecting money and stuff from me. Hopefully he can realize his mistake and apologize to me even if this seems impossible.
Hate for others will make our lives fall apart. It was enough that this bitterness in my heart broke everything, and I wanted to make peace with my heart even though I did not get any affection and property from my parents.
Robert, I want to go with you abroad and start a new life, away from all these toxic people. Can it be?
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