The Queen VS Princess

Last letter to Shana

Trying to re-enact the past. Tadashi did come to Shana's life a few months after Hiroki's death. Hiroki never told me anything about Tadashi, could they be brothers? No. gabe. Hiroki is Shana's cousin. If Tadashi is Hiroki's brother, Shana should know too. Wait for…. The hospital where Hiroki was treated during the accident was Tadashi hospital.Is it possible that they knew each other back then? But this photo was taken before Hiroki's accident. That means they knew each other before the accident even happened.

Shana's car finally stops in front of Tadashi's house.This is Shana's first time visiting Tadashi's house.he always refuses whenever Tadashi asks to go to his house. Hope Tadashi is currently home. Cleanne and Shana looked at each other at the door. Between hesitating to knock on the door and being afraid to know the truth. It didn't take long to wait until the door opened. Unexpectedly, Tadashi himself opened the door. The three of them were surprised.

“Shana? Cleanne's? What's up?” tadashi asked after opening the door and was surprised by what he saw. For him it is very unlikely if Shana comes to his house.

Shana showed me a photo she found at school. With a serious look, Shana said to Tadashi “I need an explanation for this photo.”

The shocked face was shown by Tadashi at a glance. However, the look in his eyes came back sad and looked at Shana sharply. “where did you get this?”

“this photo fell in school. I found it.” Shana answered briefly.

“what is your photo and Hiroki?” cleanne asked who was no less curious as to what was likely to happen before her. The mystery of what is hidden behind Hiroki's friendly and cheerful figure.

“enter. I need to show you something.” Take Tadashi to Cleanne and Shana. He walks slowly to his room. Shana and Cleanne followed him without asking further. Both Shana and Cleanne feel a little foreign when entering Tadashi's house.

“what do you want?” shana asked immediately feeling alert when she found out they were being taken to Tadashi's room.

“I want to show you something. It's about that photo.”

Overwhelmed with curiosity, Shana sets foot into Tadashi's room, shocked to see a large photo on the right wall. The clearer and more familiar photo than the one that Shana currently holds. Really, how longing it then appeared when he saw Hiroki smiling happily in the photo. Shana's eyes glazed over.

“i don't really want to hide this from you. But you always refused to come to my house. In addition, this is also Hiroki's request to hide it from you.”

Shana looked at Tadashi with question marks. However, he let Tadashi himself explain everything. Shana touched the big photo. As if to tell Hiroki, “how are you there?” the photo looks happy. It was as if Shana was returning to a time where Hiroki was just smiling and laughing at her. Suddenly silent atmosphere. Cleanne was only able to stay silent because he did not want to ruin this important moment.

“actually I've been friends with Hiroki since childhood. Even before he met you. One time you moved into your house and you met. From then on, everything Hiroki talked about was about you. Both of your parents are distant brothers who have not met for a long time. When Hiroki finds out you're cousins, he can't stop thinking about you. The more days, the more he realizes that you are everything to him. However, it is impossible for you to form a special relationship. At that moment, Hiroki realizes that he loves you more than anyone.”

Shana's tears are dripping. He had to endure it since he saw Hiroki's photo. Now it just drips away. Cleanne immediately approached Shana and held her shoulder. Trying to make Shana calm.

“your relationship is getting closer. Hiroki told me more about yourself. Maybe because almost every day I hear about you, I feel a strange feeling in my heart. In the end, I saw you with Hiroki being together. That's when I realized. That feeling is jealousy. I love you too, Shana. But, Hiroki is much more valuable than you. I choose to hide this feeling.”

Tadashi walked to his bed. He sat down while looking down. A single tear flowed behind his lowered head. Just this time Shana saw Tadashi in tears. In fact, Shana never even saw Hiroki cry.

“until one day, Hiroki was diagnosed with stage 3 leukemia. At that time, Hiroki did not want to care about his illness. He did not even believe he had the disease. Hiroki ended up checking himself in various hospitals all the way abroad. The result is the same. He asked me not to tell you about his illness. For him, you've suffered too much with your family that doesn't even care about you. Hiroki doesn't want to add to the burden of your mind anymore. Apparently the disease was more virulent than expected. In just 5 months, the disease has spread to the final stage. Inevitably, he had to undergo chemotherapy.”

Shana's tears are dripping more and more. Self-defense weakened. “leukemia?”

“you remember when Hiroki said he wanted to go to school abroad?”

Shana nodded slowly.

“that's when she had chemotherapy at my hospital. Almost every day he feels like seeing you. But, just hearing your voice over the phone makes it cheerful again.”

Shana clenched her hand. Her tears were still soaking her clean white cheeks.

“the more days his physical condition is getting weaker. The disease is more violent than it seems. Several times he entered IGD treatment because of bleeding without cause. At that time, he had said to me that he wanted to come to your birthday party.”

“viewing his physical condition that is increasingly declining, it is impossible to realize. But the miracle happened the night before your birthday party. Hiroki's condition is improving. I could not believe it myself. Maybe it's the power of his love for you. I gave her permission to come to your birthday party. But, bad things actually happened a few hours before the party began. Hiroki had a seizure and had several times lost his heartbeat. Bleeding is everywhere. Some of the best doctors and the best medical equipment I've given up to save my best friend. Hiroki briefly regained consciousness for a few minutes and said something to me. He told me to call you that Hiroki had an accident on the way to your house. Hiroki also told me to take care of you for her sake.”

Shana's crying got out of control. Breath hunted. Shana was crying. In his heart, he did not want to hear more about this story. But, he should know. Because it's all about Hiroki. Someone who has ever meant anything in his life.

“within seconds after he said his last words, Hiroki breathed his last with a smile. I feel useless as his best friend. Even I have the best and biggest hospital, but I can't save my own best friend's life. Then you came in a few minutes after I called you. I don't want to see you cry, but I'm also very sad to see my best friend lying helpless again.”

Tadashi walked slowly while wiping his tears. He walked to his desk by the window. Take something from the desk drawer. A letter. Tadashi gives it to Shana who is still full of tears.

“I found this letter in the room where Hiroki was treated. This letter is for you. Sorry if only now can I hand it over. I wish I never gave it to you. I wish you never knew the truth. But maybe Hiroki will forgive me. I really want you to know how Hiroki has been feeling to you all this time.”

Shana received the letter and wiped her tears. Resetting his breath and feelings.

******Dear Shana,

I'm sure when you read this, I might already be in heaven.

Hey, don't you cry……. It hasn't started yet….. ^_^

The days with you were so much fun. Seeing you laugh with me is the most precious thing to me. Even though our relationship is full of opposition.

I'm sorry I didn't tell you what I was going through. I'm sure you've heard from Tadashi.

Believe that…. I just want you to be happy with the people who love you.

You know, actually Tadashi loves you very much, hlo.

I entrusted you to him. I'm sure he can make you happy.

You know, Shana, I love you more than anything.

I'm sure I'm happy here. So you should be happy too, right?

Never blame yourself for all this. You have to stay alive for my part too. Show me if you can be happy.

Despite appearing to be judes, ignorant, and grumpy, I know you are actually loving, kind and honest.

Thank you for those precious times.

All our memories are neatly stored in my memory.

Goodbye, Shana. I love you. I'm happy to know you.

Hiroki Kozuki****

Tadashi takes over the position of Shana Cleanne crying in Tadashi's arms. Seeing that moment, Cleanne then exited the room while wiping her tears. He looked up at the sky through the middle window. "Shana will be happy here too, Hiroki. You don't have to worry. He has many friends who love him."