The Queen VS Princess

The futile sacrifice

“you sure go home by yourself? Your face is pale.”

“nothing. I can myself.”

“does I need help Sojiro to drive you?” ask Mia.

Until this moment, Mia did not know about the breakup of Hana and Sojiro. Even Hana herself didn't know where to start.

“not necessary. Sojiro must be still a lesson. He was in 3rd grade. How could I possibly bother him with a trivial thing like this.” Answer Hana who is still trying to cover up the truth.

“ya. You be careful yes, Hana.”

“sorry yes, Mia. I'm troubling you.”

“no problem. Quickly healed yes.”

I don't know where this all started. But Hana's head seemed to want to break. Maybe because today he forced himself to stay in school. After all yesterday's events, he was still quite shocked and did not know what else to behave like. Even the events since 3 days yesterday still revolved in his head.

Until now Hana has not even asked what Leo feels like, how his Father and Mother think about all this. Could it be that there was still hope for her chaotic feelings? Hana left school when the break began. Mia was very worried about Hana's situation. He immediately ran towards Sojiro's class. Without a second thought he found Sojiro with his friend chatting casually during the break.

“Mia? What's up?” sapa Sojiro after seeing Mia gasping for breath.

“Hana.....” said Mia stammered as she adjusted her breathing.

“ada what? Hana why?” Sojiro immediately turned pale. The worried face look appeared instantly.

“dia was sick. Now go home alone. I'm worried brother. I wanted to ask my sister to take her, but Hana refused. Said he didn't want to trouble you.”

Sojiro clenched his palms. Seen he thought for a moment then immediately rushed to leave Mia. It is undeniable that in the depths of the heart Sojiro is still very loving and caring for Hana. Although after all that happened, he immediately ran after Hana. I wish he could still pursue her.

I don't know who's more stupid in this. After all this Hana was still thinking about Sojiro's feelings. It makes Sojiro can't just let it go. It would be much better if Hana was being mean after what Sojiro had done in the park that night. It would definitely be much easier for Sojiro to forget about Hana soon. However, there may still be little chance for Sojiro to win this gamble. It is not impossible if for several months he managed to heal Hana's heart and make her turn away. That night, Hana just cried listening to Sojiro's cruel words. No one knows what Hana feels like. “there's still a chance!!” sojiro said in his heart. He even forgot about his car and ran after Hana.

Another bit. Sojiro's breath began to hunt. Though he is also diligent in sports, but still his physique is not as strong as it seems. From a distance, Hana was walking a little in a daze. Hannah herself arrived in front of her house. Sojiro increased his speed with a little bit of his remaining power. I hope I can still correct my mistake yesterday. His mind yesterday was completely filled with jealousy towards Leo.

Hana opens the door to her house and is surprised to see Leo also opening the door at the same time. However, he was even more surprised to see 2 suitcases and some cardboard that Leo was about to carry. Shoulders vibrate. Trying to hold his body from collapsing. Hannah tried to open her mouth.

“what's this? Brother Leo where are you going?” asked Hana with a little stammering. His eyes could not look at Leo and just looked at the suitcase.

“why are you home? Isn't home afternoon.” Leo said no less surprised. He intends to leave without Hana's knowledge. But even come like this.

“do you want to go? Why?”hana asked who was beginning to catch the strange reaction from Leo.

Leo just kept quiet and said nothing. He looked at Hana sharply and smiled. Hana finally dared to look into Leo's eyes after a few days always avoid eye contact. Sojiro finally arrived in front of Hana's house. Seeing this incident, Sojiro could only hide behind a wall. Waiting for the right moment to come out.

“Hana, I'm sorry I made trouble for you. I know it's very hard for you. Problem one is not finished, you have to accept other problems. I'm sorry for my stupidity.”

Hana's eyes still did not move from Leo's eyes. I guess what Leo will say. The same between his mouth and his eyes. For a moment Hana forgot about her pain.

“actually I've been planning this for a long time. I can't stay with you continuously. It will only hinder the process of forgetting you. At that time I did not mean to say my feelings until anytime. Just like right now, I didn't mean to say anything about my move. I don't even intend to say goodbye to you.”

“can't you stay here? I'll worry.” Hana said trying to stop Leo's departure. Her tears almost broke.

Sojiro was still listening to their conversation from the outside. Hands clenched. Teeth gritting.

“I told Mom. If I stay here, I can't guarantee nothing will happen. I could have hurt you more.”

Hana's tears broke. He could no longer hold it. What's he supposed to do? What does he want? Must resolve. All this has to be resolved.

“aku love you.”

Sojiro's fist grew tighter. His sight began to blur. Should he leave that place and go back to school? It's all over. There is no hope for him anymore. Why don't his feet move?

“I know. I love you too. But this can't go on. Our relationship has hurt many people. We can't be together.”

It's lies. Then why? Why does all this have to happen if in the end it doesn't produce anything? Like digging the ocean. It's futile.

“why do you blame me for what you did yourself? You started all this. You told Kak Kumika about how you felt, you also told Dad and Mom about our past, you told Sojiro yourself about what you've been feeling for me, you've hurt them, but why is it like you're dragging me and acting like it's our fault?”

“aku...

Can't take it anymore. Can't stand Hana anymore to stem everything. Explode !! Take out everything you want to say !!

“isn't it enough if only I know? If in the end none of us can fight, then why are you hurting so many people?!”

Leo remained silent. Hana's words made him realize that all this time he only thought about his own feelings. He hurt others just to let others know how hurt he was. How childish. Without realizing it, Leo actually hurts the person he wants to protect.

“you just moved your load on me. It's like you gave me trouble, and then you left me with a pile of problems you caused. I almost gave up on you. I almost loved Sojiro. If you hadn't told Sojiro, maybe I could have loved him. You kind of give hope to the love that I have been harboring all this time, but the end you give is just a rotten hope.”

Sojiro is still in place. His anger had covered his entire body. As if to destroy Leo right then and there. Sojiro breaks up with Hana in hopes that Hana can be happy with Leo. However, what he heard made everything he did yesterday in vain. Now Sojiro seems to have added to the heartbreak of Hana.

“go you from here !!! this is my home and my father !! I have the right to expel you from here !!!”

“Hana, I'm sorry. I don't think about your feelings or what's happened so far. I'm sorry. I love you, Hana !!” leo said as he began begging for forgiveness.

“I don't want to see you again !!!” hana said while slamming the door.

Leo remained silent. Didn't know that Hana could be that angry with him. It deserves it. All has already happened.apologize can not restore everything Leo has done. Hana's right. If he was only honest with Hana, he would not have to hurt so many people like this. If it is necessary, Hana and Leo should be together to get through this problem. But, he's misstep. Leo's footsteps moved away from the house. It was appropriate that he accepted all of this. Hana's words continued to echo in her heart. Regret means nothing at this time. His daydream stopped when he realized Sojiro was behind the front wall of the house.

“you.....since when was it here?” leo asked surprised to see Sojiro standing still and looking down.

“that night…. That night I was sure Hana was crying all night. I want Hana to be happy with the person she really loves. Even though I'm willing to get hurt. But after knowing all this, how I regretted hurting Hana and leaving her crushed in your hands. You're the worst. Even if now I hit you, it would just stain my hand.”

“ I don't need your meaning at the moment. I've had enough of a headache with my problem.”

“you deserve it. It would be even happier if Hana slapped you.” Said Sojiro while leaving leaving Leo who was still silent with all his stupid thoughts. Rice has become a porridge. The stale slurry.