The Memories That Carry Wounds

New Beginning Without It

After the end of my relationship with Sky, I went back to living my life and trying to just get used to having a day without it again. Time after time passed, honestly it felt hard for me to forget my memories with Sky. Because for the past 3 years every day I've been with him. Even though we didn't always meet but Heaven always told me and always encouraged me with his funny behavior.

Ahh it feels so hard to remember again, I feel like I lost the spirit inside me. Without Heaven my life feels empty, not as interesting as before when still with him. Especially if you remember the memories with him, my heart is weak again and my tears always want to spill. How can I continue to live like this, how can I torture myself with the shadow of Heaven that has clearly hurt me. But I am not hypocritical, I miss the sky very much, it is true said people, the most difficult of separation is not to give up love but to arrange a longing that likes to come arrived.

Not feeling almost a year passed, I returned to my teaching activities again, because I was an elementary school teacher, where my work is also difficult to make me forget the Sky, because I was a teacher, because this is where we knew each other first.

One of my students was Sky's niece, we first met when Sky picked up his niece at the school where I was teaching. Sky said at that time he was very interested in me, because I not only look beautiful but also motherhood and Heaven admires my work that makes me close to children. Because Sky also likes children so he feels his first look at me really makes him interested.

But in reality now all that is just a memory. The sky is no longer with me. My day went by without any news from heaven. I also try not to find information about him anymore, because all the sky social media accounts no one is friends with me anymore. I originally intended to block all of his accounts, but I thought there was no point in me doing that if my heart still remembered him. I had to train myself to hold back my curiosity about him, I thought this was the best way for me to strengthen myself even more so that slowly I could completely forget him.

That night I went to Bian's cafe, to get rid of my saturation and fatigue. Yola was already there first, because we had already made the agreement beforehand.

" Zetaaaa here here here "it's a good thing Yola called me because I was confused looking for her

" Yol old shrimp, uhh anyone has a cafe ni wkwk "I saw the man sitting next to Yola

" Eh Ta you broke up with Sky, because the Sky came here with a girl, I guess it was you, it wasn't, it wasn't, I don't dare to go to him because I don't think so, so it's really fitting to meet you yaudah I ask a lot of you, I wonder about it "

" Ahh you how the hell Bi, cook yes do not know, your friend is the Sky is a traitor, he cheated on Zeta, he is so evil he "Yola answered Bian's question

" Yeah?! seriously Ta? wahh anyway, you guys are old Ta, I think you guys will go to the marriage level lo Ta, but apparently, crazy did not think I the Sky could be like that "

" Well, we never know what kind of character this guy is, but I'm sincere, maybe he's not my soul mate "

" Patience, Ta, the basic boy sukak is a hobby that hurts girls "

" Ehh means you are also dong Bi, indirectly you say it lo" Yola answered Bian's words

" Hahaha oh no, why am I so talking about it anyway, ahh already lupain " said Bian

The next morning, because it was Sunday I wanted to exercise a little bit on the bike because I had not cycled like this for a long time, I was cycling around the city park near my house, because it's an excellent cycling spot.

I cycled for about 30 minutes, and I was so tired, I took a break and I put my bike near me. Not long ago I was sitting, from there I saw a man who was cycling very funny, he was holding the handlebars of the bike unbalanced, to the right and to the left. He almost got closer to me and he hit my bike and hit me. He also fell on his bike. And it's strange why I didn't avoid it from the beginning huh.

I got up and went to the man.

" Geez mas this is how the hell, bring a bike kok kayak that way, look at me until the end of the bike lo"

" Oh, sorry, mbak, I accidentally, my back was so fat that I rocked rocking with the bike, sorry "so said the man.

Gosh the reason is so funny to make me continue scolding him.

" Jaudah deh mas, next time the heart of the heart, the danger of knowing is like that "

" Hehe yes sorry mbak, oh yes no one was hurt "

" There is no such thing as "

" Oh, do you know my name is Dean, whose name is Mbak? "

" I'm Zeta "

" Oh yes Zeta, again sorry for the incident, I bought chicken noodles there as my apology "

" Em may, I happen to be also a laper hehe "

We ate and chatted, it turns out Dean was a very exciting person to talk to, we chatted and laughed at the incident earlier, like we had known for quite a long time, like, because our conversation was so loose and did not feel awkward in the least.