The Memories That Carry Wounds

Facts that Destroy Me

That day my mind was really fucked. All mixed into one. What if the person Yola saw was indeed Heaven, was I ready to accept the bitter reality that was currently in front of my eyes.

Because of my increasingly distant thoughts, I decided to cancel the viewing plan. And fortunately the ticket queue at the cinema was long enough that Yola had not had time to book a ticket, because he was also shocked by what he saw.

Finally Yola and I decided to search, but it was fruitless.

" I think he uda entered Dalem deh Ta, because here and there we look for it also there is no "

" But you are sure Yol that what you see is Heaven "

" A hundred percent I can guarantee it's Heaven, it's Heaven, my people see it clearly "

I just fell silent with Yola's conviction. While continuing to hope that Yola had a wrong look this time.

" But yeah Ta if it's really Sky you're ready Ta, because I saw her as a girl "

Finally Yola and I left the cinema and chose to wait at the cafe in front of the cinema. Until finally one by one people began to come out of the cinema and I saw a man who was not a stranger in my eyes. The man wearing the black shirt and the blue jeans, my God, he is the sky.

I was silent for a while, when I saw him clutching the hand of a woman by his side. Yola continued to pull my hand to follow them, yet I was only glued while holding back the tears that wanted to spill from my eyes.

While strengthening my heart I continued to follow them, until finally they stopped at the city park . My heart was really broken seeing the two of them, laughing jokingly. The thing I never saw again in the face of Heaven when I was with me at the end of this. The sky looks so happy, and I think this is the reason why the sky has changed for me lately.

I asked Yola to take me home, I couldn't see any more of this. And as I was about to turn around, how broken my heart was seeing Heaven kiss that woman. My heart felt like it was pounded by something really hard. Devastated, my heart and my feelings were completely broken. Sky, the man who has been with me for 3 years, the man who has passed so many twists and turns of life with me, the man who has so much to create memories in my heart, today he really dropped me as a fall.

My tears are pouring down my face. I couldn't help it anymore, why would he do this to me, what was my fault, he knew how sincere I loved him, did he not think of me when he did it all, I want to feel bad for him and the woman, but what power I was too weak to do it.

I don't know why Heaven did all this to me, but I'm not quite ready to hear the answer from Heaven. I'm sure my heart will be getting crushed. But I realized I couldn't possibly hold this, I had to finish this with Heaven. Even if I knew maybe this would be the last thing I talked to her about.