The Married With The Devil

Attitude Change

At five o'clock in the morning, Alan woke up suddenly. His breath hunted. Coupled with his heartbeat that was far from normal. Quickly, he turned to look at Bianca and found that she was still fast asleep. However, Alan who had just been relieved, accidentally stared at Bianca's hand which was on the blanket. His eyes were round in disbelief when he saw the woman's wrist flushed and left a clear mark.

Alan immediately ran towards the bathroom to wash his face. In front of the mirror, he looked at his face that looked messy. Even after taking sleeping pills, his eye bags still appeared. Alan believes that last night he had a nightmare and was unknowingly acting out of his control.

“Job!” Bump Alan in a soft voice.

***

Bianca, who is still alive, inevitably opens her eyes immediately when her phone on the bedside nightstand continues to ring. Lily's name is on the screen.

“Halo, Lily.” Sapa Bianca with a hoarse voice. He closed his eyes again.

“Bianca, are you still asleep?” Over there Lily spoke in disbelief. The clock has shown at eleven o'clock in the afternoon.

“Bianca!” Call Lily in a loud voice.

“Ya?” Bianca answered quickly as she opened her eyes.

“Wake up and accompany me to the bookstore. I'll wait for you in the usual place. Twenty minutes.” After saying that, Lily immediately turned off the phone connection. And left Bianca who could only stare at her phone screen in disbelief.

“Ya Lord.” Bianca snorted in annoyance as she rose from the top of the bed and realized that Alan's figure had disappeared. He knew that the man was not working. Remember that today is Sunday. Alan usually wakes him up for breakfast or lunch together. But now, the man left without saying anything.

“Hah.” Bianca let out a rough sigh while staring at her wrist. Alan's place scored a pretty clear trace of grip. With a heavy weight, Bianca stepped towards the bathroom. Maybe it's better today to get some fresh air.

***

Jimmy, who was accompanying Alan at the office, immediately picked up his phone which shook briefly inside his pants pocket. A message from Bianca just came in.

Tell him I'm accompanying Lily to the bookstore.

“Tuan.” Call Jimmy and look at Alan. He then handed his phone to the man.

“What?” Alan asked not to understand. But still receive the phone Jimmy gave me.

“Message from miss Bianca.” Alan quickly stared at Jimmy's phone screen when he heard Bianca's name. Before long, the man let out a deep sigh while returning Jimmy's phone.

“Why didn't he tell me?” Alan looked down while saying softly. His head feels dizzy.

“What is going on?” Jimmy asked without hesitation. He also looked at Alan. Waiting for an answer from the man.

“I don't know!” Alan spoke frustratedly while looking up and leaning his back on the sofa. He decides to come to the office this week and asks Jimmy to accompany him. At least, being away from Bianca made him feel a little relieved without having to be afraid if he would come back to hurt the woman.

“Nightmare?” Jimmy asked without fear. He didn't know Alan. They've been together long enough.

“That damn nightmare is back again.” Alan spoke with a face holding in anger. Though he was sure, if he could escape from everything. And now, when he had felt his relationship with Bianca was starting to go well, something he was desperate to forget, resurfaced.

“Did something happen to Miss Bianca?”

“I think I should add a dose of my sleeping pills.” Lirih Alan's. Deliberately ignoring Jimmy's question.

“Master!” Jimmy cried as he looked at Alan in disbelief.

“I guess, for a few days, I'll sleep here.”

In addition to having a workspace that is so spacious with super luxurious and complete facilities. Inside there is also a secret door that when opened, will reveal a large room. Complete with a bathroom and also a king size mattress.

Alan did deliberately make his office as comfortable as possible. Not just for his employees but for himself.

“But, how about Miss Bianca?”

“I'll go home and talk to him later.” Said Alan without spirit. He again filled his empty glass with Cider— - an alcoholic drink made from fermented apples. With a drink, Alan felt a little calmer.

***

Bianca looked at Lily who was busy picking out books in silence. It had been almost thirty minutes for the two of them to surround the entire bookstore, but Lily had not bought anything yet.

Bianca deliberately wears a long-sleeved shirt. He didn't want Lily to look at his wrist and make the girl worry.

“Actually, what book are you looking for?” Ask Bianca. He also took a book that on the cover there is a picture “hati.”

“I'm looking for a mystery novel that just released. Coupled with some horror novels and also thrillers.” Lily answered happily. His eyes sparkled when he saw a book that was thick enough to have a black cover.

“You didn't buy a book too?” Lily asked while looking at Bianca.

“How to be a good lover, maybe.” Lily said the origin while chuckling amusedly. Without Lily noticing, Bianca's countenance changed. He remembered Alan.

“I'm hungry.” Bianca Lirih. He quickly pulls Lily towards the cashier. Bianca was forced to do so so that they would leave immediately. Otherwise, Lily would have stayed even longer and bought a lot of books.

***

Bianca just arrived when the day had started towards the end of the afternoon. He also saw Alan's car parked outside. Not in the garage or the home.

“Bianca.” Alan who was sitting in the living room, immediately called Bianca when the woman had just entered.

“Why is your car parked outside?” Bianca asked in a curious tone.

“Come.” Alan said, hinting Bianca to sit in front of him.

Alan did not immediately say the goal was to go home. He preferred to stare at Bianca intensely while sighing deeply. He was eager to hug and kiss Bianca's lips. But Alan was afraid that he would hurt the woman again.

“Alan.” Call Bianca when Alan is still silent.

“For a few days, I will stay in the office.” Bianca's forehead crinkled incomprehensibly when she heard Alan's words.

“Turned?” Ask Bianca to make sure.

“Yes. I'm not going home. I already told Sofie and told her to accompany you.” Bianca immediately got up from her seat while looking at Alan sharply. He really did not understand the man's attitude.

“Alan, what really happened to you?!”

“Jimmy will also—”

“ALAN!” Shouted Bianca with an annoyed face. The man deliberately avoided his question.

“Tell me, what's the matter with you? I really don't understand. Your attitude suddenly turned strange. Sometimes, I feel like you're a stranger to me.”

“Tak happened to me. I just want to put some distance between us.” Alan replied without looking at Bianca.

“Distance? For what?”

“There is no important reason. I just want to be alone.” Bianca who could not stand it anymore, unconsciously took off roughly the sling bag she used. His heart ached when he heard Alan's casual remark.

“What is so worthless to you?” Bianca spoke coldly while staring at Alan flatly. His face did not show any expression either.

“Bianca, that's not what I mean.” Alan panicked and looked at Bianca with a guilty look. Really, he didn't mean to hurt that woman.

“Sometimes, you treat me so gently. Makes me feel like, if I really am a person of value to you. But afterwards, you also treated me harshly, even to the point of hurting me.” Bianca said as she looked at Alan sadly. Tight chest. He did not want to cry in front of Alan. Not after knowing if the man just threw it away.

“I was forced to do it because I didn't want to hurt you.”

“Hurt me? Don't you realize what you're doing right now hurts me more? If you don't need me anymore, you can just throw me away.”

“You don't know anything.” Alan said softly while turning his eyes away. His heart was also tight when he saw Bianca get hurt.

“I don't know because you never said anything to me!” Bianca shouted furiously while looking at Alan full of hatred. He could no longer hold back his tears. The man always does his best.

“Do you want what happened a few days ago to happen again? Bianca, I don't want to do anything to hurt you. Wasn't that ex on your wrist the result of me? What if I do worse than that without me noticing?!”

“And you think leaving home can solve everything? You didn't explain anything to me and you'd rather stay away from me. Was all your sweet attitude all this time just a lie too?” Bianca doesn't care anymore if she makes Alan angry. Even if the man hurt her more deeply, Bianca didn't care either. It was much better if Alan just destroyed it. Instead of having to torture him slowly.

“Bianca, I love you. And hurting you is the only thing I wouldn't do. But I had no other choice. At least, for now, let me be alone to finish everything.” Alan finally reveals what he feels like to Bianca. And hope that the woman will understand a little.

Bianca laughed. He did not react at all when he heard Alan's words just now.

Of love? Fuck everything!

“Isn't this house yours? Much more fitting if I'm the one who went.” Bianca immediately picked up her bag lying on the floor. Quickly, he ran out leaving Alan. His hands nimblely move over the phone screen to call a taxi. Bianca will go anywhere. Even living on the streets would not be a problem. Outcast and worthless humans never seem to have a place.

“Bianca!” Alan was only able to scream without moving a bit. He wanted to chase the woman. But on the other hand, he also did not want to hurt Bianca. Alan was sure that Bianca would be fine because the woman had a good friend.

Maybe this is the best for both of them.

His nightmare was the scourge of the most frightening and also terrible for him. And the only way to be free is to make peace with it.

Then after that, Alan would tell Bianca everything. Without hiding one thing.