The Love Between Two Countries

Losing Again

There are times when we feel pain to know what it is to be happy. Pain and pain will strengthen the heart to survive a situation that is not in accordance with our expectations.

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"Bang, I was like a dream brother came here," Azharin said with a smile. He can't cover his pleasure. He became more excited. Feeling not alone in the midst of a crisis that occurs.

"Do you need to hit your cheek?" armian joked. Azharin hit Armian on the shoulder.

Jemari Azharin had moved first to pinch his brother's hand and heard Armian's small cry, Azharin said, "Well I didn't dream."

They sit sweetly with sweet dishes in the back garden of the house. The waiter invited me to sit in the dining room. They chose to sit outside. Azharin is calmer and wants to enjoy the air in the open space.

Azharin recounted the beginning of the incident and until he was in this house. Azharin also asked Armian not to interfere. Azharin did not want the presence of his brother instead make Alex's plans change and things happen that are not desirable.

Armian understood what Azharin was worried about. He agreed to be near his sister and accompany her until all was finished. For him enough to find his sister in good condition.

"Alright, just got your word, brother's already very happy." Armian rubbed the top of Azharin's head. "Sonia is worried about you when you can't be contacted." Armian continued his words.

"I didn't expect it to be like this either. I guess I can relax here."

"Here you go, you don't have to regret it. All this is already the way from Him."

"I never feel sorry, Bang. Bernard was very different from Hendri. So did his family. They accept me for who I am."

"Thank God."

"Eat Bang, you need great energy to take care of me, until Bernard picks us up."

"You miss that foreigner?"

"That stupid question." Azharin pouted at her brother's half-joking question.

"It's not stupid that you didn't catch the absence of love in your eyes."

"Did you know?" azharin asked as she gently rubbed her hair. Azharin looked at her brother meaningfully.

"Yes, you're still my stupid little brother about lying." Armian pulled his sister's hair slowly.

"Hmmm, why don't you protest?"

"Abang wants to believe what you've decided. If you choose and go with her, then you've been thinking about cooking."

"Yes Bang. Thank ye. To this day I've never regretted going after her."

They continued to chat anything after first informing Sonia. Not much was said about Sonia. Sonia's happy face was already more than a greeting to Azharin.

Azharin was getting tired. He's sleepy too. "Bang, I'm back in the room. I want a break." Azharin patted his brother's back gently.

"alright. Brother still wants to be here."

Armian though did not really understand why Azharin looked tired, very different when he was still working. At least that was Armian's mind. He finds out the cause of Azharin looking tired when talking to Sonia. Surely there is no blasphemy whatsoever from Sonia, Sonia said she was also so while pregnant. Unfortunately, Armian hardly had much time.

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At night as promised, Alex calls through the butler's cell phone. Azharin was in the room after dinner with her brother.

"Hallo baby, how are you." Alex joked with Azharin.

"Bad news. My baby misses his father." Azharin looked solemn with her words.

Alex was laughing on the other end of the phone. To him, Azharin's words sounded a little strange with Azharin's character still a little stiff.

Alex kept making fun of Azharin. "Your baby or yours?" Alex's laughter was still heard after finishing his sentence.

"Me and my baby. Satisfied you Mr. Alex." Azharin was annoyed to hear Alex keep laughing at her. He was unaware of his easy-to-feel and volatile mood.

Alex did not take issue with Azharin's voice which yelled in annoyance. "I promise you, at most twenty-four hours your husband has been out of prison and will fly straight to pick you up" Alex said casually but seriously.

But that relaxed attitude did not apply to Azharin. Azharin was shocked and immediately screamed saying ouch. He held his stomach and limped towards the bed. Azharin then sat on the edge of the bed while continuing to hold the stomach that felt increasingly painful.

Alex, who had repeatedly called when he heard Azharin complain and not answer, immediately decided unilaterally and contacted one of his guards.

Armian rushed to Azharin's room when one of Alex's bodyguards told him about Azharin's situation.

"Arin, what's wrong with you?" Armian looks panicked when he sees his sister crying while holding her stomach.

"Remain to the nearest clinic!" alex's orders are still connected to one of the bodyguards.

"Good Sir. Master don't forget, don't you, this house is very far out of reach." The guard said reminding timidly.

"Yes, do what you can and be as soon as possible!" alex sounded vibrating. Alex was hit by an emergency. The first time Alex felt fear and thought more.

Alex begins to realize his biggest mistake. He regretted not supplementing Azharin with the help of a nearby doctor. Alex's thinking is not up if there is anything to Azharin's content. Alex did not think of a long trip and the problem could make Azharin shackled secretly.

Armian had raised his sister and the bodyguards had pulled out the car. They carried Azharin. Armian held his sister in his arms. Azharin's tears mixed with sweat that began to drench her pale face.

"Abang, it hurts so much," a faint groan sounded.

Armian didn't know what to say. Only a swipe on his back and a tightening hug could he do.

In less than half an hour the blood began to seep. Azharin was in shock when she felt fluid running between her thighs. Amidst the pain, he felt his thighs. Feeling her hands wet she tried to sniff. The smell of carnations. Azharin knew it stinked of blood.

"Bang, it looks like I'm bleeding," she said crying withstanding the pain as well as the shock. Armian was getting quiet.

Azharin already felt hopeless. She was sure of a miscarriage, despite tucked in a prayer in her little heart so as not to happen. Azharin resigned to what happened. Even so, his little heart was disappointed.

"Why am I not allowed to be happy, Bang?" Unsurprisingly, the disappointed sentence was thrown in the middle of the increasingly painful feeling.

"It's not good to say that. Calm your mind." Armian uttered a false sentence. His heart alone could not calm down, how could he possibly ask his sister to calm down.

"Is the clinic still far away?" armian asked Alex's bodyguard.

"It's still about ten minutes, sir." The sentence is spoken slowly. Guards also empathized with Azharin. For him some time that had been spent guarding Azharin, found Azharin figure who did not complain much.

Azharin just sobbed. He didn't say anything until he was treated by the medical. An infusion hose has been attached and Azharin is still asleep under the influence of the drug. Armian just stared inside the face of his sleeping sister.

Her tears pierced her sister's face that was like no burden. His sister asked, "Why am I not allowed to be happy, bang?"

Armian wiped away her tears. He lowered his head and rubbed Azharin's head lovingly. "Hopefully after all this, you can be strong and come back happy, deck."

Armian tidied up the position of his sister's blanket and passed from the room. He just wanted to inform Sonia.

"What dear?" Sonia is shocked to learn Azharin miscarried.

"Yes. Can't be saved. The doctor said, Azharin may already feel signs of pregnancy problems."

"It could be, and the girl wouldn't complain much."

"Yes, we know the same nature." Armian added.

"May she be strong."

"Yes. How's our son?" tanya Armian felt another fear. Azharin's events gave us a fear of losing a child.

"He's fine. Auntie said she was still taking a nap. He slept a little late because he was playing. Just call aunty if you want to see her," said Sonia who is still in the office.

"No need, dear. Let him sleep. I want to wait for Azharin. There was nothing when he realized." Armian asked for his wife's understanding.

"Yes, go back to the room. Let me see him for a second. I won't talk." Pinta Sonia wanted to see firsthand the state of Azharin.

Armian complied with his wife's request. He entered slowly and highlighted Azharin's face. It was seen his wife taking a small breath and then looking down for a moment. He knew his wife could feel what her sister felt when she woke up.

Sonia again raised her head, and gave a small nod to Armian. Marked enough for the time being. Armian nodded and gave his wife a warm smile. He disconnected and put his phone in his pocket.

He sat down near his sister and looked back at her face. "Ma, pray for Arin. Let him be happy after all this," muttered Armian consoling himself.

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