The Journey of Jinan

Chapters. 94

Jinan was silent for a long time after hearing all the explanations from Ardo about the man who had hacked all the computers of Putra's company to be the cause of the bankruptcy of her ex-husband's family. The two of them were currently just silent and looking at each other with their respective thoughts. Ardo is afraid that his beloved wife is angry with him, while Jinan himself is confused how to respond to all her husband's confessions.

Surprised? Can't believe? Shok's? That's certain. But he was confused how. On the one hand he understood the purpose of Ardo's excuses which were upset by Romi's unworthy deeds to him, but on the other hand she was also disappointed because her husband could do the same act of unhappiness.

"Dear."

Ardo clasped Jinan's hands, which were still in front of him, staring at him blankly.

"Dear, I'm sorry. I know what I'm doing is wrong, but I swear, I didn't cross my line. They went bankrupt because of the influence of my actions, but it was not entirely my fault. They went bankrupt because of their own colleagues who withdrew all shares and wanted to cancel their cooperation privately. Because you know what? In that business world, personal problems can't be confused with work." Ardo took his breath for a moment. "Yes .. there may be some who are indeed affected by the news, but it will not be up to 50% so that it makes it poor. I beg you, dear Jinan, forgive me."

So many sentences that Ardo delivered to make his wife not to be angry with him, but until now Jinan still did not respond to all the words of her husband. He was really confused as to how to respond to all this. He was afraid of mispronunciation or other mistakes if he commented.

"Dear."

Ardo pulls Jinan into his arms by continuing to say sorry words that he hopes Jinan will forgive him.  But unfortunately not the apology he got, but the wet feeling on his right shoulder that he got. Where the tears of his beloved wife that turned out to fall on his shoulder.

"Good God, baby." To his surprise, Ardo immediately drew his arms to cupper his wife's cheeks and wiped the tears from her beautiful face. "Darling please, don't be like this. I'm sorry. I. .. I'm really sorry I did all that. I–"

"Everything that happens to me, whether today or yesterday, it all happens by God's will, Ar," Jinan said.

Ardo was speechless with the first sentence Jinan said. He looked at the tired face of the woman very deeply. Three to five seconds they were still silent with that gaze until Jinan spoke again, "as well as what is happening to them at this time, all of it happened by God's will."

Ardo frowned at the words of his two wives. Whatdoes thatmean?

"But, as human beings given reason and thought by God, we should be able to think what is good, and what is bad to do. We should know, roughly what consequences we will have on what we do."

Ardo held Jinan's hands back. He knows that Jinan is very disappointed in him, but he still hopes that Jinan will forgive his error.

"It's night, let's go to bed. I was already very sleepy," said Jinan who suddenly shifted the topic.

Ardo sighed, then nodded his head and lay down beside his wife. Maybe his wife needs a break after a day of looking after their child, and plus this shocking news that makes him have to rest his mind first.

......

From that night on, Jinan looked different in Ardo's eyes. Indeed Jinan still served him very well, smiling sweetly at him, being cheerful in front of everyone, caring for him and his two children, he said, even Jinan looks like he never knew the truth he once confessed that made the woman disappointed. But behind it all, Ardo had caught something strange from the eyes of the woman. It was as if something was covered by Jinan to her. And it seems .. it had something to do with what happened that night.

Tonight as Jinan was about to turn off the room lights to prepare for sleep, suddenly a pair of burly arms belonging to Ardo slowly entered through the sides of his arms and hugged his body tightly.

"Ar, I'm still in–"

"I knew. Let me hold you like this for a moment, "said Ardo when Jinan wanted to say about his unfinished puerperium.

Jinan sighed slowly. She followed her husband's wishes without any intention of commenting.

"You're mad at me?" ardo asked after a few seconds they were silent with each other in that position.

Jinan looked towards the left side, where Ardo's head was leaning on his shoulder facing the other direction.

"Em, no."

Ardo tightened his embrace on Jinan's stomach.

"You're mad at me."

This time the man no longer asked, but gave a statement of what he felt.

"Then?" ask Ardo quickly.

Jinan frowned confusedly. "meaning?"

Ardo sighed for a moment, then he took off his embrace on his wife's body. He turned Jinan's body so that their positions faced each other, then he looked with the beautiful eyes of his beloved woman.

"This eye." Aro rubbed the corner of Jinan's eyes after a few seconds in silence. "I have not seen any honesty in these beautiful eyes in a few days."

Jinan was still silent with her position.

"After that night, I always caught something strange in your eyes even though you were acting normal to me. I saw like there was another Jinan I did not recognize in these eyes. Jinan who seemed to be holding back an honesty."

Hearing that, Jinan started to lower her head. But not ten seconds before she looked at the floor of her room, now her head was again faced with the handsome face of her husband with a gentle movement by the man in front of her.

"Say, what makes you like this, Ji. Is it because of what I did to your ex-husband's family?"

"Fel." Jinan touched the back of Ardo's hand cupping his face. 

"I'm sorry" she exclaimed with teary eyes. Seeing that, Ardo immediately pulled his wife into his arms as he would no longer be able to see the tears from her beautiful face.

"I don't mean to be dishonest with you. I ... I–"

"Tell me," said Ardo when he felt his wife had trouble speaking.

"I just want to try to hold back my disappointment for what you've done."

Jinan bit her lower lip after saying that sentence. While Ardo could only sigh heavily. He knew that his wife must be very disappointed in all his actions, but he did not expect that his wife was willing to endure the disappointment for his sake.

"What should I do so you don't get disappointed in me anymore, Ji?" asked Ardo who was still in his position to hug Jinan. "Tell me. I'll do anything for you."

"I don't want you to do anything for me, Ar. I just want you to account for everything you've done to them."

"You want me to give back their bankrupt company?"

Jinan shook his head. "I'm .. I just haven't felt at ease before we apologize from them, Ar."

"I'm sorry?" asked Ardo with a frown.

"Ar, never repay the bad deeds of others against us. We are not God who can punish the bad deeds of others. His fault with me then let it be his own responsibility to God. I'm happy with you now, so please, don't make everything we've been through so hard just because you're upset with them. I've forgotten all that, Ar. Right now I just want to live in peace with you and our little family. And ... and I can't calm down now before we admit our mistakes to them."

"But I still haven't accepted the betrayal that man committed to you–"

"The betrayal of Romi to me is one of God's destinies to bring us together, Ar," Jinan said quickly.

   

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