
After work Zafira felt very tired. Not only physically tired but also psychologically. Remembering the incident at the restaurant. Syfa and Kiya who saw her best friend were moody. Not just one time. But Zafira was heartbroken many times by the same person.
Zafira decided to clean himself and then perform prayers.
"Yes Rabb.. Nothing really happens on this earth without your permission. YOU broke the hope I had hung in his name, and now I realize I will never find happiness in any hope I have but you." Zafira cried in her prayer
"Yes Allah. Set me up for a good choice for me, my religion, and my family. If with him carry the wound then keep me over it . But if my path is on him then find our way. Make my business easy for me, and meet Me with my priest who will lead me to your path. Amen"
The strand of do'a that Zafira prophesied made Zafira feel a little more relieved.
Zafira tidied back his prayer equipment. Not long after his two friends entered his room.
"Have you finished praying?" ask Syfa
Zafira smiles. Nodding.
Syfa and Kiya sat on the side of the bed watching Zafira. Feeling uncomfortable with the attitude of his best friend Zafira also immediately finished his work.
"What the hell are you?" ask Zafira wonder
"Is it okay, Ra?" ask Syfa
Seeing his two friends who were worried and cared for him, Zafira smiled.
"Gua is okay Syf" Zafira said with a smile.
"really? Loe's sure?" ask Kiya to make sure
Zafira smiled and walked up to her two best friends and sat in bed.
"Take a. I will stay good as long as I still have a family who always love the cave. And friends like you who always care, care and love me. Thank you." said Zafira then asked for his two best friends.
They hugged. Strengthening each other.
Zafira thought for a moment. Then he breathed.
"Gue stopped" Zafira said
Syfa and Kiya were shocked to hear that.
"Gue stopped to hope. It was enough to wait for him. Maybe this love will not be lost in my heart. But to hold on to him feels free" said Zafira.
Syfa and Kiya are still waiting for Zafira's next words.
"The word Love does not have to have. And not everyone is lucky to have and live with people who love and love each other" Zafira said. Both of his eyes were already clouded.
"owhhhhhhhh... Fira.. be patient." said Syfa and Kiya.
"Said Sayyidina Ali ibn Abi Talib, Allah is jealous.It is impossible to unite in loving HIM with love for his other. Maybe that's why God broke my heart that loved him too much" Zafira said.
"Now I want to give my heart to Allah. I leave the Love of the Cave entirely to God. Let God lead me to a love that will bring me closer to the Love of God" Zafira said.
Zafira cried how much she used to love Almeer. But God broke all his hopes. It was just a waste that he got. Now he will give up that hope completely.
"How will this be after?" ask Kiya
"Maybe this is the reason God sent Mr. El in my life. He's nice, very nice. Although we have known him not long ago, he immediately came to preach. He showed his seriousness. Maybe the cave will learn to accept it" Zafira said
"Fir, don't make a decision when your heart is filled with disappointment. I'm afraid you'll regret it later." said Syfa and embraced by Kiya.
"God willing. I have been Istikharah for a week. And this afternoon may be the answer to my Istikharah during this time.whatever will happen later I surrender all of it to Allah.. And may that sincerely come to my heart" said Zafira
Syfa and Kiya immediately embraced Zafira. They could feel how Zafira was feeling right now. Zafira is so tough. There were many wounds that Zafira had felt. They are witnesses of how Zafira's love journey so far. Now they can only pray the best for Zafira.