The Destiny of Love The Substitute Bride

It turns out that love is no man

Provid. Zaphira

Flashbacks.

I woke up at night. I saw the clock on the table at 02:45 midnight. I saw my bed was empty. I stared at my bedside.

'Where Kang Almeer is in my heart.

Why isn't Kang Almeer here every time I wake up in the middle of the night?.

Where exactly is he?

does he not want to be in the room with me?.

why is it that from the wedding night until the 2 months of our marriage Kang Almeer was never in the room at night?.

Tight-tasting. What kind of marriage I'm living right now, when in front of me and her family, she seemed to accept this marriage willingly. But why was it when I woke up that he left me?.

Don't want to keep guessing. I decided to go to the bathroom to take ablution. Then I performed the evening sunah prayer. Late in each prayer reading made my mind and heart become much calmer.

" O Rabb.. You are the master of the heart. And You are the owner of the heart, and You are the healer of this heart. Only you know exactly how I feel. O Rabb if loving him will only bring pain to this heart then give the servant the antidote. If loving her will only find a deadlock then show her the way. He is the One whom You chose for the servant. Then lead the servant so that he can reach it. Open the hijab that prevents the servant close to him." Zafira prayed

"Yes Rabb. Is it wrong for a servant to begin to love him whom you predestine to be a servant priest. O Lord, there is no intention in the heart of the servant to pray for Your love with his love. But I just want to love him to be the way to get closer to your love. Show Your way and draw the Servant closer to Your Riddho. Amin ya Rabbal A'lamin"

After praying I continued with muroja'ah. Re-sharpening my Quran. Soluble in kalamullah make the heart that was once arid back watered. Until without feeling the dawn time entered. Then I continued to perform the dawn prayer.

Kang Almeer went back into the room after I finished my morning prayers. By bringing some fiqh books that seemed to have just finished he read back. After putting the books Kang Almeer put his body in bed. And not long after he fell asleep.

I'm rattled. Why does Kang Almeer always return to the room after the dawn prayer. And then sleep after the dawn prayer. Then all night he's where's he doing?. And he only sleeps after the dawn prayer and will wake up at 6 am. he only sleeps 1 hour and begins to move back.

Not wanting to keep thinking about it I decided to go to the kitchen. Help me prepare breakfast. And also bring coffee and coffee mates for kang Almeer.

After the course was over I decided to wait for Syfa and Kiya to be taken. During the wait I kept thinking about Kang Almeer's attitude.why he always behaved in front of me and my mother's father. But remembering what he did every night made me feel confused. What it really wants. Even to this day I have not been touched by anyone. I'm like a single woman. Is there something wrong with me?.

"Dhor" kiya surprises Zafira

"astaghfirullahal. Kiya can't be a prank. What if I have a heart attack, how do I try?" I said a little upset.

"tau nih Kiya" said Syfa, who blamed Kiya.

"iya,iya sorry. Abis Loe was also a dumbass. Later, the new kesambet know the taste" said Kiya defending himself.

"shih.. If you say yes." said Zafira

"already, already.so to the caffe is not looking for food. This is the case" Syfa said

"yes to donk. Today Fira is a treat" said Kiya spirit.

"uhh. How I am anyway. Tar I used to see the money is nothing. If I don't bring the same cash or how to try" said Zafira. He opened his own service and his wallet

"how is there not?" syfa

"Oh my God, I forgot to bring my wallet. Atm same cash there are all wallets. But there's this too. ATM from Kang Almeer" I said while showing the ATM card

"yes, it has been given to you from Him. Yes, just dipake. Don't tell me you've never used an ATM. Or even you don't know the password?" kiya said

"we checked at the machine first. If there is no balance then let me just pay" said Syfa.

We went to the engine to check it. Then go to the usual place. Along the way I kept thinking. How can the balance be so much. Who Kang Almeer really is. He looks like a masterpiece in general. What salary is he that big. Even in 2 months of marriage she has her balance in atm reaching over 300jt digits.

"go to the toilet first" I'll go to the toilet.

When I wanted to go to the toilet, I saw Kang Almeer was with 2 men at one of the tables. Because my goal was the toilet that turned out to pass Kang Almeer's desk which seemed busy with the file in his hand while listening to the explanation of the man who was sitting at the table with Kang Almeer.

I keep walking the toilet. When I was done from the toilet right as I passed Kang Almeer. Kang Almeer looked a little surprised. I also stopped for a moment to greet him, because it would not feel good if we did not greet him while we passed directly.

"Assalamualikum Kang" I said as I shone

"Vaalaikumsalam. Are you here too?" kang Almeer.

"iya kang. wanted lunch. Along with Syfa and Kiya as well".

"oh." said Kang Almeer while slightly nodding

Suddenly the two men stood up.

"who is this Mr Zein? Is she your wife?" ask one of the

"but isn't Mr. Zein unmarried. Why are we not invited to get married?" said one of the others

Degh's..

'So all this time his co-worker Kang Almeer has not known about our marriage. Because our marriage is done impromptu, no one knows. But why Kang Almeer hasn't told them.' My inner

"oh yes Mr. Fatur, Mr. Bima introduce this Zafira my friend. And Zafira introduced this Mr. Bima and Mr. Fatur. They're coworkers of the company I work for" said Kang Almeer.

Degh's..

Why does it feel so cramped. When I heard Kang Almeer introduce me

as a friend to his friend. Not as his wife. Kang Almeer never thought this marriage existed. And Kang Almeer's good treatment was just spying on behalf of a friend.

From the beginning we formed another relationship in our marriage. But why does it hurt so much. When I started to love her and found new hope in this marriage. But in fact it was just a dream. This feeling is not in question.

I tried so hard to smile to hide my broken heart. I covered both my hands in the chest. Can not stand the lingering in this situation I say goodbye.

"Akang, Fira, excuse me to go back to Fira's desk. Kiya and Syfa must have been waiting. Excuse me first, gentlemen. Assalamualikum" I said and left.

I went back to my desk trying to endure my pain. I don't want my friends to know what happened. I should be able to try to suppress this pain so as not to be seen by them.

"loe why the hell is Fir, than was observed bengong aja. Any issues?" ask Syfa

I smiled

"Gue is okay. Have eaten yuk. That Abis we're home. Still have to do the task also from the lecturer" I said trying to avoid.

I don't want to tell anyone about my domestic relationship. Let this be my and Kang Almeer's business. This has been decided by us. So I have to be ready for the reality that exists today.

It turns out that it feels as painful as this is when our feelings are not in question.