The Artificial God

Strange Memory

I feel scared, cold, lonely, lost, what a strange place. Why did I suddenly feel that way, as if I was a child crying full of that day. Although I couldn't see her face because it was covered with black fog, but I could feel the sadness, and suffering she had experienced during her life from the sound of her crying.

The sound of crying is very suffering, as well as the sound of crying happiness because there is someone who makes him happy, and that someone is who he is hugging it. Then I started to step up, and approached the person in the hug slowly.

But all of a sudden he was facing me, "Who are you?" ask the person in the hug. I who heard those words coming out of him was so shocked that it made my body tremble, and lost control. His words were so piercing, that I did not know who he was, nor did he know who I was. But.why.

"Ah...no, it's just that brother remembered something" the person smiled as he looked at the person who was hugging him.

Then suddenly there was a strange sound that started popping, a voice that echoed my ears that greatly disturbed me. The voice slowly grew louder, the voice kept saying my name. Until I finally woke up, and was in my room.

I saw everyone watching me with sad eyes, apparently they were very worried about me. It felt so good that there were people who cared about me, but as soon as I held my face, there was something soaking in my face. And that is... My tears!? did I... just cry?.

Then Mouri who saw me was awake immediately jumped up, and hugged me hard while crying loudly. She cried so much because she was worried about me. I'm so lucky in my life this time there are people like them... eh? the loh? what do I mean about my life this time? what did I just digress?.

"Basic stupid! why do you always worry us" Mouri said, crying loudly.

"I'm sorry for worrying you guys" said I, who felt guilty for them, though I was happy.

"Thank God you're okay, Gernath, we're so worried about you" Tygruth said.

"By the way..Where is teacher Mouberg?" I asked because I didn't see him.

"Oh him, the teacher has come home from earlier, and he left something to you" said Gernath while giving a bag made of leather. Then I accepted it, and tried to open it, and looked at the contents. As soon as I opened it it was just a clear triangular-shaped stone.

But as soon as I looked at it carefully, there was a drop of blood inside this clear stone. A very strange stone I thought, not only that, he also gave me a letter, but he could say it in person tomorrow night, because he kept coming to our house at night to teach us magic power.

"Use this stone in a precarious state" is the only message written in a letter given by the teacher. I don't know how to use it, and again what will happen to this stone when I actually use it?. Why didn't he just tell me!.

"Hey Gernath...What do you dream of until you cry in your dreams?" asked Tygruth suddenly.

"Oh this I don't know, it's just that I saw something that I didn't seem like I should have seen" I said.

It is also true what Tygruth said, if it is not wrong then I fainted when I saw Mouri's face. That gaze.., "Akh" suddenly as soon as I remembered Mouri's gaze again my head felt pain. What exactly happened to me!? why is it that I see something that doesn't make sense and suddenly my head hurts like this.

What is everything that is happening to me right now, and before is something I should know about?. Like something that was destined, something that this world gave me, I don't know what it's meant. It seems like the world is trying to remember something I don't know, or something else.

Even though I don't know what it is, it seems like the strange pieces of memory that popped into my mind are showing something I still don't understand right now. I don't know why, I think it's something very important, like something I should know.

But something about what? I still don't know anything about the strange memories that popped into my mind. Is it possible that I would have to constantly faint in order for me to know what is meant by the piece of memory that pops into my mind?. If it is possible, then I should know about that strange memory.

But.. how do I fall unconscious, so that I can see the strange memories come to my mind. What do I do to get me to pass out? even though it hurts so much, I had to endure it for this strange thing. Then I remembered the cause I had fainted on at this moment.

I immediately tried to bring out my power, and stared at the magic circle carefully. But nothing happened to me, other than the dizziness that got worse. The first thing that made me faint from the look of hatred from Mouri back then, then the second was the magic circle?.

Are the two related? magic circles, and hatred? what the hell does that mean?. I don't understand it at all, and again the two are not connected because it's very strange to be connected. Then I remembered the first dream when I fainted, if it was not wrong I was in an obscure place due to the blur, and I heard the voice of a little boy who was crying.

Then at the end of the dream if it is not wrong there is someone I do not know who beat me. His existence was so scary to me, it gave me goosebumps as if I had died once I was with him.

Then I try to connect my second dream that I am experiencing right now. If not wrong I had a dream about a little boy who hugged someone while crying full of pain and suffering. The deg! suddenly my heart was beating and made me realize something.

If not wrong the voice of the child in my dream today is exactly like the voice of the child in my previous dream. I was very surprised once I started to know the truth, but with the truth that exists today it seems like I still have to go through the truth even further.

Then as soon as I connected the person who beat me up in my first dream, I was so scared that it felt like I was dead. Her existence was really very similar to my second dream! the truth of the person being embraced by the little boy was exactly like what I had experienced in my dreams.

Fear, disappointment, loss, and many more feelings are mixed in it. For sure it was a very bad feeling, and really rotten one I've ever known. I don't know why suddenly I was so grateful for the life I was living.

Because this life is so beautiful, even though I've been living by my parents since I was a kid. I don't know why it feels, I better not have parents. I don't know why I can think that right now, when it's a bad thought. There's something strange about me, I'm even glad I don't have parents.

Am I really okay?...