The Artificial God

Deteriorated

Heard they were planning something for the future for the world, and this kingdom. It reminded me of a message said by a little boy I had met. A little boy who I believed in his shocking words. Though I had just met her, but her voice, gaze, and aura were painful to me, therefore I believed that she could see the future. But unfortunately, it looks like I will never see the boy again.

Hearing their conversation about our opponent who is a mythological creature, and again the king who controls or leads the mythological creatures makes me believe more in the words of the child. All the conversations they had in this meeting room made me unable to bear it. This pain is again controlling my heart, damn it.

"Eh!? A gernath? what's wrong with you?" said Elysna who was surprised, and at the same time worried about me when I saw my tears flowing. It turned out that unknowingly this pain made me tear out my eyes. I should have held him back because he was currently in front of them. Then after that Elysna helped me untie the rope that was tying me, and the cloth that was put into my mouth.

"Basar turns out you are very crybaby." said Boa Boa who looks to be holding back laughter.

"Am I being too hard on you? are you all right?" elysna said, constantly worried about me. But I could only shut up, and tell my heart that it wasn't what made me cry, but something else.

"Gernath, let's say what you want to say" Tygruth said as he smashed into the table with his hand, and it left me a little surprised. At the sight of Tygruth's lowered face, and biting his lips with a feeling of guilt or some other sort of regret.

"Tygruth!?..."

"Stop this plan too, and come back home!" I said loudly while standing straight. Even so I while showing my pitiful self in front of them. The figure of someone who is severely depressed because of problems that cannot be faced by him.

"W-what!?" Elysna, and Boa Boa were shocked by my words, but Tygruth was silent in the meantime, and did not comment a single word on me afterwards.

"What do you mean Gernath? can you tell me more details?" said Elysna who seemed to disagree with my actions.

"That's right.. Why did you suddenly give up like this?" boa Boa said, not understanding my actions.

"Cu-sufficient..just get here.. ugh... I can't stand all this. please" I said while enduring the pain I felt at this moment, as well as the tears that would drip. It was really bitter, and painful, I was no longer able to endure this pain.

"Gernath... why?" boa Boa murmured which followed sadly after seeing me who was suffering.

"At least. You said a clearer reason about it! so we can understand what you're saying!" said Elysna who felt annoyed at me, but behind the annoyed face there were patches of sadness on her face.

"Even though I said the reason..you guys will definitely not obey right?" my words are very well understood, what they are like.

"But at least say what you want!.." cried Elysna who then I denied it with a fact that slightly deviated from my heart. Because there's no way I'm saying anything cruel to my friends, because right now they're all I have.

"For our good you say? then what about those who have sacrificed themselves for us who say to them that we will create peace in this world someday. For the sake of realizing that hope they are willing to sacrifice their lives for the sake of the people of the future, who they cannot feel because they have sacrificed themselves first for the bright future!

I didn't expect you to say this in front of us. Someone who once said, and convinced everyone that there will be a bright future someday with the creation of eternal peace. But now the man gave up, and yet the world he hoped for was not yet fully created. There is still a lot of chaos, and death in this world.

But you said you would give up on all that, and prefer your own selfishness to live peacefully in your abode? there are a lot of people out there suffering. You are a loser who can't keep his word" said Elysna, who left the room disappointed in me who gave up on our shared dream.

"Louris, Alzheimer's, Vloid, Mouri, Gordials, and the villagers who were helping us at that time, then the hope of all those who want peace. Are you really going to throw away the hopes of those who have sacrificed their lives for us? they sacrificed themselves not because of war, but for the sake of peace.

Those who have sacrificed their lives have placed great hopes on us. If you suddenly give up like this? what was their death for? did you do it on purpose? to have their deaths in vain?. If you don't intend to do that, you shouldn't put high hopes on everyone. You're just a bad liar" said Boa Boa, who also left the room after being told that.

And finally there was only me, and Tygruth in this room who had just kept quiet, and bowed his head since I said to stop the plan we've been making for decades. Surely,. Tygruth must have disliked this too, and he would have said something similar to Elysna, and Boa Boa. I look so sad in front of them.

Then Tygruth got up, and walked towards me. After that he put his right hand on my shoulder and said, "Gernath. I will support the path that makes you happy" Tygruth said briefly, leaving the room. At last, there was only myself lamenting my sorrow in this room.

If they had left, I could finally cry as much as I could in this room, alone. Meanwhile Tygruth who had just walked out of the room was shocked upon seeing Boa Boa, and Tygruth who was still standing in front of the door of the room. Their faces still looked sad, and it was as if he still could not believe what I was saying.

"You guys still here?" tygruth.

"Yes, I'm out of words for her" said Elysna, clenching her hands while holding back tears.

"Gernath...why is he suddenly like that?" said Boa Boa who was crying softly.

"Listen to the voice of his true heart through this door.he is the one who suffers the most at this time. He is the one who keeps his suffering in order to make others happy. He had fought so hard against this world, that he finally found something that made him give up. I don't know what it is, which is certainly something of suffering that he can't save" Tygruth told Elysna, and Boa Boa heard the sound of my crying through the door of this room.

Then the two of them cried loudly behind the door. Meanwhile Tygruth kept trying to stand up straight, and endure the pain. At this time... we are really falling, this heart... I do not understand why the heart is created?. What is the heart created for? if in the end all that is felt is pain after a momentary happiness.

It is better for men to be created without a heart, even if those close to them are killed. It won't make a wound this big, there won't be pain, and happiness. Maybe it is something that is not bad for me, because then humans can live casually without being bound by a feeling. It was a world without feelings.