The Artificial God

Fucking Heart!

It doesn't feel like it's night, and the night closes the sunlight. But with the moon shining in the night, tonight does not feel so dark. With small stars that help illuminate the beautiful night. Me, and Elysna were still chatting within this forest, in front of a glowing tree.

"It doesn't feel like it's late." I said sadly, when it's near time we'll be separated.

"You were right, that was so much fun" Elysna said with a sweet smile at me.

"I still want to be with you, but it looks like we're going our separate ways today" I said with a faint smile.

Elysna who heard it could only smile, "I too. want to continue with you, because you are already a part of my life" said Elysna who surprised me, and again my heart beats fast.

"Well then, see you" said Elysna who immediately left with a strange attitude after saying those words. As well as me, I immediately returned home. Because it looks like Tygruth, and Mouri are waiting for my arrival.

I told Tygruth that I'd only be gone for a little while. But it's been hours, and until late at night like this. But thankfully I did not forget my main purpose in entering this forest. Now this strange stone I have made a rope to make a necklace.

As soon as I arrived in front of my house, I saw Tygruth who was standing at the door while looking at me sharply. I don't know why I feel a bad feeling is going to happen to me. I've never seen Tygruth this angry as he seems, let alone to the point of showing his angry face.

"What's wrong? I know I was wrong, I'm sorry for coming home late" I said, scratching my head.

"I have no problem with that, but you should think about Mouri's situation" said Tygruth, whose words I don't understand.

"Huh!? what's wrong with Mouri?" I asked, "Mouri has been preparing dishes for you since last afternoon. Mouri was waiting for your arrival to eat the dishes she had made so hard for you" Tygruth said, then I immediately ran into the house, and looked at Mouri who was asleep at the dining table while holding the food bowl.

Which looks like the food was made for me, but I didn't mean it that way. I just... don't know, anyway why is he waiting for me like this?. I still don't understand Mouri's strange attitude, or.. I don't understand the feelings of others?.

"Did he just sit there and fall asleep waiting for me to come?" I asked, to Tygruth while feeling guilty. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I think I've made a mistake.

"Yes, I invited him to sleep in his room. But he doesn't want to, he'd rather wait for you" said Tygruth, looking disappointed in me.

"Then...What should I do?" I asked Tygruth because I didn't know what to do with Mouri.

"You just have to do what's best for him. Since he was so hopeful for you, maybe he didn't say this to you out of embarrassment to tell you. But he already thinks of you as a person of value to him" Tygruth said as he left the two of me at the dinner table with Mouri.

For some reason, a moment when Tygruth said that Mouri already considered me something precious to him. I remembered Elysna's words in the forest, although the words were different, but the meaning of the word had a very deep meaning. Because of Tygruth's words to do what's best for Mouri.

I was confused to do what I had to do. I'm not very good at taking care of rights like this. I'm also very hungry, knowing I haven't eaten anything all day. So I decided it was best for me, which was to wake her up, and maybe take a meal together as an apology for her.

"Hey... The mouri! wakeup! hey wake!" I said many times but Mouri never woke up. Then I pinched her cheek until finally the sleeping princess woke up from her beautiful dream, "Eh!?... Gernath.. Have you come home?" said Mouri who was smiling while sleepy.

"Yes. umm, I've come home.I'm sorry for making you wait" I said while feeling guilty for her. I dare not look him in the eye, because maybe his face looks so hateful to me because I have made him wait.

Mouri took out a spoon full of food, and she wanted to bribe me, "Eh!? I-I can eat alone" said I who refused him to be fed. What's wrong with my heart! why is this fucking heart beating so fast! the argh! I feel like I want to take it out alive.

"Why? do you hate me? sorry for my attitude that has always troubled you." said Mouri who looks sad.

"Eh!? n-no really. I didn't mean it that way! well then you can bribe me until the food runs out" I said.

At every mouthful, my heart kept beating fast. But why could Mouri act so ordinary as if nothing had happened here. Why is his face so flat! why am I suddenly talking like this? what should Mouri be like when she's bribing me?.

Today was so strange, what happened to my attitude. Though Mouri should have been acting like this, and I was acting normal in front of Mouri. Like when I hugged him suddenly, it was turning around. This strange feeling that Mouri felt when I hugged her all of a sudden.

A feeling of pleasure, with shame, perhaps this was what Tygruth meant by his words. About why he called me stupid, that's all he said because I wasn't good at understanding other people's feelings. Starting today, I slowly began to understand what feelings are, and also about something called love.

After I finished eating, Mouri went back to sleep at the dinner table. Because from that moment Mouri fed me food while being cursed. After that I held her gently, and placed her on her bed.

"Good sleep." said I, who then left. I was so surprised that I suddenly said that, I immediately slammed the door, and closed my mouth in disbelief that I would say such sweet words from my mouth to someone.

"Well, what happened to me" again this heart beats so fast.

"That is what is called love.it seems to see from your current reaction. You've started to understand how someone feels." said Tygruth, who was beside me.

"Yahoo! you're fucking shocking me! stop that shit! and since when did you wake up?" my many.

"Who told you I was going to sleep, I was just peeking at what you did to Mouri. Nice job, man!" tygruth said as he gave me a thumbs up. Plaque! I could only beat my eel, and say, "It's better we go to sleep, it's late" said I who immediately went into the room, and went to sleep.

Today was exhausting.I can't believe what I did to Mouri. My mind also kept showing me the times I was being bribed by Mouri. Argha! I had a hard time sleeping that night. But.. somehow, it feels so pleasant, and soothing.

Like the times I was humming along with those Elves in the Agnuth forest. Those strange feelings kept appearing to me from the first time I felt it for the first time when I was with that Elf. Then it continues with an unexpected event today.

"Are you having trouble sleeping because you think about Mouri" Tygruth said suddenly.

I could only hold back my anger, even though I wanted to beat him up. But it's late at night, I better not care, and still not. Although Tygruth's words were true, I had a hard time sleeping.

"I knew that Mouri was such a sweet girl. You'd love to.. ugh! uhuk! hey stop!" said the Tygruth I was beating, because he couldn't stop talking. He knew I had trouble sleeping, but why did he make things harder. Though this episode will end soon, but he can't keep quiet either!

Even though his attitude was so annoying, I liked Tygruth more now than he used to. Because Tygruth who used to look careless, and innocent, there might be side effects after he was beaten by the Elf. The side effects made her very annoying, and made her more authoritative.