Teahmore
Episode 27 - Truth
“Am I the second person you visit after him?”
I shook my head subconsciously, and only fell silent at the loss of what to explain to her.
It's so hard to cover up everything I don't want to hide from her, but I can't either
she explained that she was someone I loved. My only hope, Anggie realized that everything I told her was our relationship.
“Sorry.” Further. “I'm dizzy again, a lot of thoughts. So it's not clear, digress everywhere.”
“I'm supposed to apologize for..”.
“Ngapain are you sorry? It is not your fault, I am a lot of thoughts until asked that.” Cut it. “Ya let us eat.”
I nodded in agreement. “I'm ready you sit down.”
“Dest, can I ask?”
“Ask what Gie?”
“If you think, how the hell do we know falling in love with someone?”
“Fall in love?” Manya make sure.
Anggie nodded.
The drizzling mottles began to descend, but as if it did not care about me and he continued to row the boat enjoying the time together. This event was not our first kiss, but it did reoccur in the same place.
I could see Anggie smiling sweetly looking at me, for me enjoying the time together in the rain not only reminded me of that special moment, but also made us like happy little children.
“Gie.”
“Yes, Dest?”
“According to you, what makes a person realize that he has fallen in love?”
“Fall in love not because you feel that he is good or that he is like the idol of your dreams, nor is it because
he always gives you what you want. But your feelings will be comfortable when spending time with her.” Her reply gently caressed my face.
I smile. “As the current means?”
“Ya.” The answer. “I feel comfortable spending my time with you.”
I kissed her forehead, hoping we would continue to love each other forever.
“Fall in love not because you feel that he is good or that he is like the idol of your dreams, nor is it because he always gives you what you want. But your feelings will be comfortable when spending time with her.” I said quoting his words.
“Why it feels familiar ya hear those words.”
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It's funny to see myself enjoying time together with Desta, as if taking the opportunity to spend time with him as long as someone he loves has not yet remembered him.
Even I easily agreed to Desta's invitation to visit her home. Hhh, can I continue this?
“You why Gie?”
“Nothing, just a little tired.” Reply evasive. “Your house is quiet?”
“My family is rare in Indonesia, how about if I teach you to play piano?” Bargainly.
“You can also play piano?” Ask surprised.
“Yap! Want me to teach you?”
I'm shaking. “No Dest, I can't play any musical instruments.”
“Nothing to try first, who knows you found pent-up talent.” Persuaded it.
I smiled and applauded after Christian Bautista's song finished. “Crazy! You can play guitar, piano can. So envious! I just you told me to look for Do notes in this piano keys will definitely not meet.”
He gently brushed my hair. “And there's me who can play for you.”
“But you learned this from small huh?”
“Bokap really likes music, so he teaches his son to play an instrument since childhood. But people definitely don't believe I can play a musical instrument.”
“That's! People who can play musical instruments are usually romantic.” Reply laughs.
“Whose theory try?”
“Iya is just that.” Reply origin. “But you sure like to show off the same as the bustle in Aussie first?”
“Ngak.” Laughing reply. “I have never played a piano specifically for someone. Usually, if there is a school event, campus, so aja.”
“You want me to teach piano?” Continued offering.
I laughed imagining myself playing a musical instrument, it felt like it would definitely ruin the game. “Ouch! Don't let me not have his artistic talent.”
“Nothing to try first, who knows you found pent-up talent.” Persuaded it.
“You why Gie?”
“Nothing. Only..” I said disconnected.
“What's all?”
“As experienced dejavu. I think I've experienced this.” I clearly. “Ehm. But don't discuss.
What song do you want to play?” I continued to shift my unclear thoughts.
“All Of Me.” Desta answered and began to lead me to play piano notes.
“What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind.”
Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Because I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh
“How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Because I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh
Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Because I give you all of me
And you give me all of you
I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh.”
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I closed my eyes, enjoying the cool air after the rain. It felt like spending time listening to the water stubs made my heart feel at ease.
“Iya doc I know that it is for her good, but for now the person concerned does not want to follow the therapy.” Brian was upset.
Doc's? What does it mean doctor? Then therapy? What is Brian talking about? I asked in my heart curious because although upset, but the volume of his voice sounded stifled as if he did not want others to know.
“Iya I also know doc, that by not taking this therapy his amnesia will be longer to recover. But Anggie doesn't want to go to therapy and wants everything to heal on its own, so I don't want to force.”
Anggie's? Is Anggie what I mean? But why would Brian call me amnesia?
I took a breath, trying to think of the meaning of his words that I did not understand at all. Did Brian mean to know the same name as me?
Pranks.
The sound of a vase breaking along with my fall, made Brian sober up and immediately ran small towards the terrace. “You okay Gie?” He was worried, helping me to stand up.
“Bri, I accidentally heard you phone.” I reply without a care to my hands that are bleeding from broken glass. “What does it mean?”
“You hear?”
I'm nodding. “Iya from earlier I was here, you forgot this terrace right next to your room?”
“So what does Bri mean? Amensia?” I continued because Brian was silent.
“Gie I have an explanation as to why this is all.”
“Exposure?” I was upset because I was lied to by him.
“I'm doing it all because I love you.”
“You love me?” I don't believe it. “Obviously I heard you say I don't want to go to therapy, but I don't know anything about amnesia. This is what you call dear Bri?”
“Sorry.” The reply. “You are very similar to my late sister. It's not just your nature that is the same, even the way you smile makes me feel with her. I don't want if you remember everything, our togetherness will end.”
“Emang why if I remember all?” I don't understand.
“Because if you remember everything, you'll realize that it's not me you're hearted with. But others.”
“Bentar, bentar.” I still don't understand what our conversation means. “I really don't know what you mean. Anyway how can I amnesia, I still remember you, Tania, even my parents who chose to be with their new partner.”
“You have retrograde Amnesia. Amnesia that makes you forget some of the events that have happened in the past. Your current age is not sixteen, but twenty-three. This apartment belongs to you, not me. I am also not on vacation in Indonesia, but I have come back here to continue
my job.”
I was silent trying to digest Brian's every word and the awkwardness I had felt as if it was answered. “Then who do you mean by the person I love?”
“You must know who he is.”
“Desta?” Many doubt.
Brian laughing. “Even if you do not remember, but your heart cannot lie.”
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