Teahmore
Episode 24 - De Javu
There is nothing I can do but love him. Every free time I have I must have spent looking at it from cheese, just to make sure that He is okay.
I not only harbored a longing so heavy for her, but also a feeling of guilt for having
made him experience this event. If I could choose, I would be willing to take his place.
Looking at all the sweet memories in a photo actually makes me more selfish to want to feel it. Not just silence, lurking from a distance and seeing her smile with another man.
But, what can I do when in her memory there is no me?
“Sorry. Sorry.”
“Not a problem.” I smiled and helped her clean up the bag. “Lu is okay?”
“Nothing, how are you? Sorry, I'm not used to walking outdoors.”
“Nothing Gie.” My reply was unconscious.
“Sorry, do we know each other?”
“Ehm.” I answered, confused as to what to answer. On the other hand it would be like to explain who I am,
but remembering the doctor's explanation that couldn't force her to remember forced me to lie to her.
“Gie, I mean Gisel. I'm listening to the song again, so don't focus.”
Anggie smiled and laughed relievedly. “Oh I guess you call Gie the Anggie. So it's not good to be spicy.”
“Not.” My answer was an awkward laugh covering my nervousness. “So your name is Anggie?”
Anggie nodded. “Iya.”
“Lu why alone go?”
“Lu pity ya see people have no vision like I go without any friends?”
“Not that, he means..”.
“Gue just want to go for a walk, although there may be a risk of making unknown people too difficult. But if
I don't try, I'll never be able to be outside the house alone dong.” Cut smiled.
“Then do I want to accompany it not around?”
“No need, it's okay.”
“Quiet I promise I won't mess around! I have a sister.” Obviously, so he doesn't have to be afraid of me.
Anggie laughs. “What is the connection trying?”
“Because I don't want my sister to be any guy, so I won't do weird to other girls.”
“Don't be offended ya, I really don't do anything alone anyway. You don't have to be sorry because I don't have a perfect physique.
“Anggie, I don't think so. Coincidentally I also want to go for a walk and do not feel good dong time alone?” Persuade me expectantly, that He may spend a little time with me.
Anggie nodded in agreement. “Yes we already know, my name is Anggie. Lu?
“Desta.”
“Desta?” Ask ensures.
“Iya Desta, why?”
“Lu know someone named Evan nope?”
Evan's? Wasn't she Anggie's ex-girlfriend who got us into a theatrical relationship. Why can he remember? “Why?”
“Any aja.”
“Any?”
Anggie nodded. “A few days ago I met a guy named Evan. He says I know him, whereas the only guy named Evan I know is Chris Evans.” Obviously laugh. “But what makes me feel weird because I met you.”
“Why?” I don't understand.
“Because when I met Evan, he said that I had a guy named Desta. Miraculously I have no acquaintance name Desta, apparently met someone whose name is Desta.”
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You could say my parents' decision to stay with their little family and entrusting me with Brian was the best decision. How not? His busyness is so dense he always took his time for me.
Every day Brian would prepare all the things I needed such as food, what beautiful clothes I wear, even He was not ashamed to buy all the needs of women such as pads for example.
Not only that, if He came home early Brian would take care of me until I fell asleep then go back to his room to rest. How can I not feel special as a woman?
“Susu brown come.”
I smiled at him. “Still.”
“Gie.” Call Brian.
“Ya?”
“I know the time is not right, but I love you so much and do not want to lose you again. So can we formalize this relationship?”
“Sorry Bri, it may sound stupid when someone who does not have a perfect physique rejects people as good as you. Some people must have thought that I was wasting this golden opportunity. But I don't want you to hope the same I can't love you anything.”
“Gie even if you can't see, it's not a problem for me.”
I let go of Brian's embrace and gently stroked his face. “Too fast for you to decide this Bri, let the running time tell you how our relationship will continue.”
Brian agreed. “Yes you have rested now yes, it is eleven o'clock in the evening.”
“Okay, you too! I'm fine sleeping alone.”
“Anggie, I work all day. So don't ask me to be away from you, when there's free time like this.”Her request.
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For some reason, at times like this, Desta often appears in my mind. As if I wanted to find out more about how he is.
“Hhh.” I drank my order coffee latte, chuckled, and realized how could a normal person be interested in me? Despite asking for my number, he never called me.
Yes, at least I have happy memories when spending time with him, even though we only discuss each other's activities.
“Anggie.”
“Desta?” I was surprised to hear that I was glad that the person I was thinking of was in the same place as me.
“Ngapain itself here?”
“Again pingin ngopi. You alone?”
“Lapse of meeting and coincidence of time want to go back see you sit alone.”
I smiled involuntarily, as if my heart was happy to know He was deliberately approaching me.
“Keep back?”
“My time is a woman as beautiful as you sitting alone?”
“Idih gombalnya very ticklish.” Reply laughs.
“I'm not a romantic guy type.” Buy her laugh.
“I can't do this alone
I can't let you go
My heart can't take the beat of letting you go
If it's not you, it can't be
I can't be without you.
No being with you but day and month oh being year
Even if I am hurtin
Even if my heart is that fire
All I want is you
I love you
Please be mine
My heart is belong for you
It's only belong for you
So tell me where you are
Can you hear my voice?
It's calling out to you
So come to me
I'm here for you
I finally found you
I'm so alone without you
No being with you but day and month oh being year
You the one that I'm belong for
You the one that I truly love
You the only one I want
The one I need
Only one I want, the want I need.”
“Eh this song is so familiar! Have you heard where yes I am.” I asked after hearing a song sung by a cafe singer.
“It has to be you. Have you heard of the Korean drama Cinderella sister? My sister likes korean dramas.” Obviously Desta.
“Maybe.” Reply doubt. “Lu have how many sisters? Asik has a brother? From small I want to!”
“One, the same age as you. Her name is Erika.”
Erika's? Again just hearing a name makes me feel as if I know the person.
“Why Gie?”
“Gue feels weird.”
“Whimsy how?” Ask curiously.
“Gue likes to feel familiar with something, as if I knew. But I don't remember ever having experienced that. Have you ever felt that way?”
“De javu?”
“Not.” Reply sure. “It feels like the thing I feel is very real.”
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