Teahmore
Episode 13 - Hiding
I was confused by myself who always wanted to cry every thought of Desta. Even when the crowd is crowded, my heart still feels lonely. “Hhh.”
I want to tell someone about this pain, but what do Tania and Fanie think that I who have been evasive have actually fallen in love with Desta?
I smile at the book with a pink cover, titled “How to Modify Hair.” This book is one of the memories among many stories that we have both gone through.
It feels so funny, when the real thing has long passed like it felt like it just happened yesterday. I even remember how upset I was to meet Him continuously, but at this time I was hoping to meet him.
“Ironis.” I said unconsciously.
“What's ironic?” He asked and made me drop the book, surprised to hear his voice so close. “Isn't this the book I bought back then? You want?” Return the fallen book to its place.
I can't lie, just hearing voices makes me so happy. Even though it feels inappropriate
it's nice to be around a man who doesn't love me.
“Sorry Dest, I want to go home first.” I answered and immediately left so as not to keep thinking foolishly to want to embrace him.
“Hey, are you okay?” He was worried because I almost fell down avoiding the two children running around.
I nodded silently in Desta's arms. It felt so comfortable and made me almost forget that
our relationship is not as close as it used to be. “Still.” I said awake, and immediately let go of his embrace.
“Gie.” Call him when I walk away.
“Ya?” I said expectantly, hoping that he would ask me to stay.
“Be careful on the road ya!”
I tried to smile and hold back my tears from falling in front of Desta. I felt really stupid, hoping He would hold me back and say that He missed me like I did to him. “Iya, you too.”
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As the saying goes, “If you love someone then you will be happy to see Him happy with a loved one.” But I think it's ridiculous, because I'm not happy at all. It might sound selfish to have Anggie for me, but I really can't
forgetting himself.
“Hhh.” It felt like I had only been walking for a few weeks, but it felt like I had spent months in a vacuum. Even secretly I feel jealous to see my parents who are still busy dating together, so that their relationship is still harmonious like a young couple.
“Cloak.”
Unconsciously I smiled expectantly hearing the sound of the door opening. I really hope that someone who comes is Anggie, because he often spends weekends with me.
“Destaa!” Sapa Erine was happy when she saw me.
“Hhh.” I grunt disappointed.
“You're not happy to see me?” Ask annoyed.
“Ngak.” Honestly answered. It felt like not only did he destroy my hopes of meeting Anggie, but it also pissed me off because he kept seeing me.
“Why?” Confused ask. “You should be happy to see me again.”
“You haven't changed in the past yes, chilly.” The reply was to laugh no matter what I said. “No wonder why so many girls are interested in you.”
“Hhh.” I can only sigh nafaskesal, as if I do not know what to comment so that He understands that all this time misunderstood me to love him.
“Desta. I Love You.” Erine hugged me.
“Rin, offin!” My love for him.
“Sorry ⁇ accidentally.” Cut off Anggie, allowing the vase to fall off. “Sorry very disturbing, here just want to turn back Erika's book kok.”
“Gie.” Call me.
“Iya why?” He smiled as if he didn't care if I was hugged by another woman.
I cursed myself who foolishly again wanted to explain unnecessary things.
“Dest?” Call him because I'm silent. “Why?”
“Nothing.”
“Oh. Yes, this is Erika's book yes, thanks.”
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I was grumpy at myself who couldn't forget about Desta being hugged by another woman. It felt so ridiculous to expect him to explain that all I saw was a misunderstanding.
“Hhh.” Disappointed, angry, jealous, upset, and this feeling of pain mixed into one in my heart, but again there was no right for me to be angry with him.
I inhaled my breath again and exhaled it with annoyance. Time is indeed moving forward, but my heart seems to remain in the past with Desta. It's hard, it's hard to forget.
Although some say the way to forget someone is to remember all the bad things about him, but
for me he doesn't have a bad side that makes me want to stay away. What a folly of mine, falling in love with a showgirl!
“Gie.” Calling Brian dawned on me that he's been by my side ever since. “Why you?”
I shook my head and tried to smile, to make it look okay.
“Gie. I know you're lying. I can see in your eyes.”
I looked down on the tears I could not hold back from thinking about Desta. It felt really upset to know Brian knew I was hurt, and he didn't care at all.
Brian smiled and hugged me tightly. “Nangis only as much as you, let your feelings be more relieved.”
“Sorry.” Frogs made his clothes wet with my tears.
“Nothing.” He gently stroked my hair. “I'm glad to entertain you. You know it anyway? If I'm happy to hug you like this, I miss! I'm sorry I didn't call you, because when I got there my phone went missing, and my parents asked me to do all the work there before returning to Indonesia.
“Iya I understand, thanks also you have entertained me now.”
“I don't want people I love sad.” Evidently. “I'm really sorry to go all this time and can't find out news about you.”
