Teahmore
Episode 16 - Awkward
“Agh!” I said I was surprised when the basketball hit my head.
I saw Desta running towards me, the same thing that happened two years ago. But the difference
at that time I still did not want to admit that I was interested in him, whereas at this time it was too late to explain.
“Why aren't you?” Ask worried.
“Ngak.” I replied without seeing Desta, afraid to make me not sure to stay away.
“Temeni I play, want?” The bargain stopped me from leaving immediately.
“Main?” Reply doubt.
“Iya. Yuk.” His ink and immediately pulled my hand towards the field.
I was completely swept away in Desta's hand, as if I didn't want to let go and thought the events we went through were just my dreams.
I remember how we used to spend a lot of time playing basketball on this court, even if just watching it play while enjoying a glass of ice cream with some fried food, but just seeing it made me happy.
“Dest.” I said I realized this was wrong. “You know I can't play, so I'm back.” Pamitku, so as not to be stuck with her for too long.
“Iya already, this time I really want to teach you. Can't refuse, okay?” Her request.
I fell silent as if my heart was fighting each other, defending its lightness. But finally the rejection that wanted to be spoken in the lips was defeated by the soft grip of Desta's hand on both hands.
“Well this way dribble the correct ball.” Clearly me.
I nodded in understanding, although in fact my mind focused more on our distance being so close. Although nervous, a feeling of comfort quickly filled my heart, as if I had forgotten this feeling of pain.
Without feeling the sun began to set, but the laughter on my lips as if they did not want to stop. We were still grabbing the ball to each other like two little kids, without even Desta knowing he had hugged me four times because he wanted to take the ball that I was holding tightly in my stomach.
“You two why here?” Ask Erine to investigate.
“So we want to do.” Reply Desta indifferently.
“Keep you why to Desta?” He looked at me who was silent, in surprise.
“As far as he dong go, none of your business right?” Cut Desta to help me.
“I didn't ask you Dest!” Erine shouted annoyedly.
“What's the difference?”
“Dong difference! She yes she is, you yes you!”
“Sorry.” Cut me up not wanting them to fight. “Gue does not mean anything kok.”
“No meaning whatsoever? But his laugh was so happy huh?” I don't like seeing my closeness to Desta.
“Erine!” Jerky Desta.
“Udah Dest.” Cut me. “Gue go first yes, sorry to bother you.” I continue to leave
the two of them were still clashing their mouths even when I was away.
“You and me, we made a vow
For better or for worse
I can't believe you let me down
But the proof's in the way it hurts
For months on end I've had my doubles
Denying every tear
I wish this would be over now
But I know that I still need you here.
You say I'm crazy
'Because you don't think I know what you've done
But when you call me baby
I know I'm not the only one.
You've been so unavailable
Now sadly I know why
Your heart is unobtainable
Even though Lord knows you kept mine
You say I'm crazy
'Because you don't think I know what you've done
But when you call me baby
I know I'm not the only one
I have loved you for many years
Maybe I am just not enough
You've made me realize my deepest fear
By lying and tearing us up
You say I'm crazy
'Because you don't think I know what you've done
But when you call me baby
I know I'm not the only one
I know I'm not the only one
I know I'm not the only one
And I know, and I know, and I know..
And
I know, and I kno, And I know...
I know I'm not the only one.”
♥♥♥♥
“You two why here?” Ask Erine to investigate.
“So we want to do.”
“Keep you why to Desta?” He went to Anggie, not satisfied with my answer.
“As far as he dong go, none of your business right?” Cut me pissed.
“I didn't ask you Dest!” Shouted Erine no less annoyed.
“What's the difference?”
“Dong difference! She yes she is, you yes you!”
“Sorry.” Cut Anggie mediate. “Gue does not mean anything kok.”
“No meaning whatsoever? But his laugh was so happy huh?” She doesn't like Anggie.
“Erine!” I watched him get worse.
“Udah Dest.” Cut Anggie calm me down “Gue go first yes, sorry to bother you guys.”
“Dest go where?” Erine asked, 'cause I wanted to go after Anggie.
“While I love where Rin is going! Can you, don't bother me?” Just pissed.
“Dest, I love you! Let's just reverse it again.” His request is hopeful.
“Rin I've never loved you.” I'm obviously trying to be patient. “Find a man who wants to be with you, not chase people who do not love you like gini.”
“You why the hell? Not happy, is a girl as beautiful as I want to be with you?”
“It's no use talking to you huh Rin! Very good to be a person.” I answered, and left him.
It's my folly to think that my attitude alone is enough to let Anggie know that I love him.
I took the guitar next to my desk, slowly I chanted the song “Let Her Go”. Either to comfort my free time or just an expression of my pain
“Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hope one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast
You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies
But you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast
Well you see her when you fall asleep
Never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved her too much
And you dived too deep
Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)
And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)
Will you let her go?
'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go.”
♥♥♥♥
“Good.” I said unconsciously. I was relieved not to see Desta and Erine. The feeling of jealousy as well as being uneasy had made them fight still enveloped my heart. It is not easy to forget someone who has filled my day.
“Good?” Brian asked confusedly. “What is a good Gie?”
“Ehm.” I looked around, hoping to find an answer. “This Decoration. Decoration is good.”
“This is the first time you said a nice place to eat. All this time I thought you didn't care. Although I am confused, in which way you say this is good.”
“Ehm. That.” My answer was interrupted, because compared to all the places we've tried to eat, this place
includes simple. Brian always takes me out to eat at fancy, glamorous, classy restaurants. While this time, only sushi restaurants with traditional concepts. “Because I like to eat in places that have a traditional impression
viscous.”
Brian nodded as if to believe. Although I myself am not sure my explanation is acceptable, but at least he did not ask further.
“Good if you like. Next time I'll find a place with a concept like this.”
I nodded in agreement.
“Sushi here is delicious. It's like eating sushi in Japan.” Obviously Brian. “You should try sushi volcano.
Tastes savory, spicy but fits on the tongue.” Continue to explain to me, by showing the menu. “You should also try dragon roll, the taste is really good!”
I laughed at Brian's enthusiasm earlier. He's always been nice to me, never even once pissed me off with his attitude. But like someone who's already in love with someone else, as if all of Brian's positive values can't make me love him.
“So what do you want?” Ask Brian.
“Ehm. I want the..”.
“Gie.” Cut Brian.
“Ya.”
“That's your friend isn't it? Who has come to your apartment.” Continue pointing towards the entrance of “Ehm. De. Desta. His name is Desta.”
“Desta.” I said in my heart, why did he come here? Although I know this is a public place, but of the many sushi restaurants that exist why should come here.
“Gie.” Call Brian, because I just stare silently at Desta and Erine.
“Oh. That's right, Desta.” My answer. “The boyfriend is beautiful isn't he? She's modeled. Her name is Laurensia Erine.”
Brian shook his head. “Ngak. Too skinny! Anyway his reputation is bad.”
“You know where?” is from I don't believe it.
“Many of my business associates are dealing with Erine.”
I nodded in understanding. “But I think she's pretty, even though you think she's skinny. You see for us girls, such a body is ideal.” I said honestly with no intention of praising him.
Brian laughed and held both of my hands. “Gie.” Said. “I think you're prettier than her. Even you can make me always fall in love like this.”
I smiled back at Brian's praise for me, even though he always praised me and said he loved me,
but the feeling of pleasure like having feelings for each other I never felt, even though we had been together for months.
