STEVA'S PASSION

GOODBYE

'Lunches!' someone who just opened the door pressed the light switch that was on the wall, and the light flashed.

The corner of my eye moved though my head remained unmoved, footsteps were approaching, but not Razz, I knew the perfume.

"Mrs, I brought you some food, eat it!" Gulnora stroked my hair, gently stroked my arms, and my cries flooded back with every pity that came.

Gulnora did not comment on the state of the room that was hit by a storm of tantrums from his wife.

He put the plate he was carrying on the edge of the bed, looking at my leg wounds.

"You're hurt, ma'am. Let me call the Doctor," Gulnora stood up.

"Let me alone, Gulnora, I don't want anyone else to see me,"

Gulnora flinched, "Then I take the p3k first to treat your leg wound," and Gulnora came out.

'Yes, you can still help me treat this leg wound, Gulnora. But what about the wounds in the heart?'

Gulnora poured alcohol before she pulled out the shard stuck in my leg, just a small shard, but it really hurt amazingly, I grimaced and clutched Gulnora's hand as Gulnora pulled it. He then gave me medicine and bandaged my leg wounds with bandages.

"Already, Madam,"

I leaned against the cot, Gulnora gave me my food plate, she was ready to feed me, but I really did not feel hungry and no appetite.

"He didn't come home?" I asked Gulnora Razz, it was midnight, and I thought Razz would come after me, apologize, persuade me, seduce me and explain to me, but I was wrong, he didn't even come home. Could it be if Razz had returned to his first love? And he had already given his heart, soul and body to Liora?

I felt like stabbing my own chest with a knife to distract the pain, or banging my head into a rupture so I could forget all the pain. I can only cry and laugh like crazy. I cry for my sadness and laugh at my stupidity.

Three days passed, and Razz still hadn't come home, he didn't see me, but he didn't let me go either. And how do I feel? I don't even have a word to describe such a lackluster taste.

I only ate 2 times during these three days, even when my stomach was very painful, but there was no hunger.

Good Lord? I forgot my son's life in the belly that was just beginning to grow, how could I be this stupid and evil in my own flesh and blood? I do not want to make the same mistake as my mother did before, venting anger and sadness on her son for the depraved deeds of a husband.

I tiptoed out of the room, the door was no longer locked because I had no contact. I sat in the pantry chair of the kitchen, and had the chef make me food, after three days, this was the first time I showed myself a mess in a house person.

Don't ask how they responded, everyone gave me a look of pity, and I smiled cynically, so pitifully.

"Sister Stev?" Asha who knew I was at the pantry table immediately hugged me, she cried even though she said nothing, and I tried to smile in front of her, even though my tears had seeped.

"I want to eat first, Sha," I said to Asha as a plate of food was served by the chef in front of me, and Asha took off her arms while wiping her tears. Letting me eat.

I put a spoonful of rice into my mouth, my throat was choked, it was so hard to swallow this rice, it was like a thousand thorns were involved, and it was because my chest was so tight, I eat while crying, it feels really bad.

"Mistress?" Gulnora came before me with a well-looking man in a black suit.

I just kept looking, reluctant to ask.

"Madam, this is Mr. Abhi, this is the great Lord's personal lawyer, and he came to meet you and talk to you" Gulnora explained.

Scroll over the briefcase in his right hand. And I got down from the pantry seat, walked towards the living room sofa, Asha was not allowed by Gulnora to approach, and Asha came back to do her job.

"Good day, Mrs Steva!" greet that man whom I only responded with a small nod.

"I am Abhimanyu Maheshwara. Personal lawyer Mr. Fabio Cannavaro Razolla, your husband,"

"Mr Razz has entrusted me to take care of her divorce with you."

"***DEG***." I was still silent, staring at Mr. Lawyer with sharp eyes.

"Mr Razz has divorced you, and just by signing this dossier, then your relationship with Mr. Razz is done, I will take care of everything!"

I don't know what I feel, do I have to be happy because she has given me reassurance and released me, or do I have to be sad because I have conceived her child, and only I and Renata know? So what will be the fate of this child? No, I don't care about that, I'm capable of being both a mother and a father to her.

"How's Madam? Do you agree?" Mr. Abhi Mr. Lawyer asked for an answer, and I'm still silent.

"If you agree, please sign here, so that everything can be processed quickly."

Mr. Abhi pointed to a point in my name, and he handed over the pen he had prepared.

The pen that Mr. Abhi gave me with trembling hands, and I put my signature on the paper, right on my behalf, I looked at the point where Razz's name and signature were. He's unwinded. I am free of him.

"Madam, these are the treasures that Mr Razz has given you, there is a penthosue, Madam? Mrs?"

I stood up leaving Mr. Abhi still talking about the treasure as he pulled out some other files from his bag.I was poor, but I didn't need any of it.

I stepped out to the main door of the house with a flat face and tears that kept flowing, nothing else stopped me, they bowed and bowed in final respects, ah, ah, I think I'm dead. Hahahahaha, I'm dead.

Mrs Gulnora ran after me, she offered her house to live in, but I refused her subtly. And I said goodbye, thank you and goodbye.

Asha came roaring, she hugged me very tightly, as if her world was shattered, but I smiled at her.

"Can I take something from where you live?" I asked Asha.

Mrs Gulnora allowed Asha to come home with me, we walked up the sidewalk to Asha's residence, a driver offered to take us, but I didn't want to, I don't want anything to do with Razz.

I came out using only a crumpled, shabby dress stuck to my body. And go to the boarding house of Asha.

"Sir Stev, take it easy, it's also Kak Steva's place to live. We'll stay together again" along the way Asha keeps talking. He was trying to cheer me up.

When we got to Asha's boarding house, I asked her what suit I had left in her place. And Asha took it.

"Where's Steva going? Brother Steva doesn't live with me here? Where's Steva going?" Asha kept asking as I decided to leave wearing the man suit that helped me that night in my body. But why does it smell like I know it? Why do I feel like I'm wearing a Razz suit? Yes, the scent of this suit is the scent of Razz's body.

Stupid, indeed who wears such a perfume is only one person what in the world? Why should I even remember that jerk.

"Sir Stev needs a new place and a new atmosphere to start things off, Asha. Thank you for being so good all this time. Thank you, Stev has nothing to repay."

Asha embraced me so tightly.

"Sister Stev?"

"Don't cry" I stroked Asha's back. Then remove our body link.

"Sir Stev, yes, Sha?"

"But where is Stev going? *Hyx hiks hiks*."

I just smiled in response to Asha.

Asha is with me waiting for the bus at the stop, my journey will start from the bus that took me away.

"Take this, sister," Asha handed him her purse, he just took the cards that were important for him to put in his pants pocket, and he just took them, while the wallet and all the money Asha gave me when I was about to take the bus.

"Asha still had savings in the bank, Asha knew Kak Steva had no money at all," I smiled bitterly at Asha who was so nice, a very, very good young girl. Yesterday I was a madam, and now I am a badass.

I saw a diamond ring that was coiled around my ring finger, giving Razz that was still attached, I took off, and I gave Asha.

"I'll give you this, whatever you want, if you need it, you can sell it, it's gonna be expensive."

Asha refused, but I kept pushing her. And I got on the bus leaving Asha who wept lamenting my sorrow.

'*Goodbye everyone*.'

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