STEVA'S PASSION

STEVA POV

STEVA POV.

I ran up the stairs to the top floor and then darted into the main room which was also my room for several days, I closed the door so hard that I felt the shakes that could not beat my body, I cried at the door and rested on the floor, my hands clutching my chest which was very painful. My crying is so heavy flooding in incessantly. This is the most cruel betrayal I've ever felt, this pain is so much more painful than any betrayal Malvin has ever done to me.

I cried roaring in solitude, suddenly my mother-in-law came home with a woman who was recognized as the wife of my husband. I wanted to scream but my voice was inaudible, what an inner pain it was after knowing all his lies.

Who the hell is he? All of a sudden I didn't recognize my own husband at all, he was like a stranger in my view, just his name, Fabio Cannavaro Razolla all I knew, the rest, was just a lie. And maybe there are still so many other lies I don't know about.

His face was fine, very handsome and handsome, his beautiful blue bead which I thought was blind, it turned out that he could see clearly all along.

'God?'

And even worse, I found out if my husband had another wife, another woman other than myself who was received with open arms by the Madam, my mother-in-law.

'So, is that why he didn't introduce me to his mother? shit, my heart is getting sick thinking about it.'

The door was knocked from the outside, I woke up from the daydream, then I who was still resting on the front floor of the room door stood up despite feeling staggering because the energy that suddenly disappeared was lost somewhere.

'Lunches!'

"Steva?" Razz immediately hugged my body tightly as the door opened. I just kept quiet, didn't refuse, nor did I return her embrace. I was too confused as to what to behave. Angry and rebellious is not my character, I prefer to leave gracefully when Malvin insulted me and betrayed me, and now, when the same thing happens again, I am quite confused what to do.

"Darling? Please forgive me, I know I'm wrong, I know I've hurt you, but please forgive me" said Razz, who still hugged me and listened silently.

Razz took off his embrace because I did not react to reply, he then brought his face closer to link our lips and I turned back to not accept his kiss. He was silent about my rejection.

I took off his hand that was holding my body and I walked away sitting on the edge of the bed, Razz closed the door quickly then followed my steps, he sat crouching before me holding both hands, I did not return the look of her eyes so deep to me at all. I don't seem to recognize him, and I don't want to know him.

"Darling? Steva?" lirih Razz tried to get me to talk.

I slowly took my hand out of her hand, then I looked at her until my brown bead with its beautiful blue bead of eyes met.

"Who are you? I don't know you, you're not my husband, you're too bad a man to live with me, you're a liar, a fraud, and you're a traitor, too," I poured out my heartache with emphatic sentences full of emphasis. Razz looked down and I knew he was crying.

"I only want my husband, he is the Master, the Master of my big baby, his face is handsome even though some of his skin is broken, his eyes are full of beauty even though he cannot see. He's the most perfect, the man I know with his sincerity and honesty, and I don't know you," my sincerity made my chest even tighter.

"I'm sorry!" lirih Razz sobbed.

"So, you actually have another woman? Hufftt,,, I'm stupid! Ahahahahaha!" I laughed in tears. Crazy one? No, I just don't like looking weak in front of people who hurt me.

"What's my fault with you until you do this, Mr Razz?" I called him an old call that made Razz look up at me and shake his head in disapproval.

"Steva's? This is?"

I listened, but he stopped talking.

"What's? Let's say, I'm waiting for your answer" my challenge. No matter the tears that continue to flow, or the body that shakes violently, the heart that hurts and the chest that is tight. I keep trying hard when it comes to a heart being played with.

And Razz just fell silent, he said nothing as if giving an answer to the justification, if he had married and had another woman besides me who was actually accepted by his mother, while I?

"So, who's your second wife, I just know if I'm your secret wife,"

"Enough, Stev, enough. Don't hurt your own heart with those words!"

"I? It wasn't me who broke my heart, it was you!" my screams couldn't stand it.

"I can't stay like this, I don't want to live like this, to be in prison or to die even if it's better for me than having to share a husband" I said.

Razz just kept quiet and clasped my hand tightly, he made no sound at all, but dropped his head on my lap instead. And I let it go because I still want to talk before I stand up and walk away.

"I like to joke, Mr. Razz, but not with feelings. I love to share, but not with a partner. I've been hurt by betrayal, but that doesn't mean the pain will lessen when I experience it again and again, it's very painful, and too painful, Mr Razz!"

Razz did not flinch, he just kept silent without a word, but his sobbing made me want to scorn him, how could it? He's the one who's guilty, and he's the one who's crying, he's the one who's hurting, but he's also the one who's hurting. Funnier.

I stood up and Razz looked up, he stood up and looked at me who was reluctant to look at him, he was very handsome, but I did not know that face, my husband was a handsome man whose face was broken, I'm mende.sah with him. Not with the man in front of me whose face is so smooth.

"I give up, I'm gone!" I said while stepping. But he quickly held me back, pulled my hand and dropped me on his bed.

"Aaahh?" I screamed as Razz began to clump at me, he kissed my neck, took a sip and bit him violently.

"Split me, I don't want to!" yells refused. But free, both of my hands that beat his chest he clutched with both hands then he stretched to both the left and right sides of my body, then he again buried his head on my neck and smeared.bu by force.

My head shook to the left and to the right preventing his actions that I valued from abusing me, lowering my pride.

"Stop me, you're hurting me!" I shouted with a quivering voice, there was fear along with my natural instincts that received a sigh from him.

"I'm sorry, Steva. I don't want to hurt you, but you forced me to do this to you, I didn't want to lose you, I wouldn't let you leave me like you left Malvin and let me live in agony and regret, I'm not ready if that happens. I'm gonna get you pregnant with my son so you can't get out of my hands."

"DIG!"

This is what I don't like, coercion, oppression. Makes me feel like a weak woman, and I don't like that.

I continued to rebel, but whatever power I had was not at all comparable to his strength.

He lifted my body and dropped me violently right in the middle of the bed. He sat me right in the middle of my body, flanking my legs until I was unable to move, but my hands kept trying to hit him incessantly.

Razz quickly took off his belt, and this is my defeat, both hands he clutched and Razz used his belt to tie both hands and he tied the belt to the cot on top of my head.

"Razz,,, please stop! Hiks hyks hyks."

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