STEVA'S PASSION

I CAN'T DIVORCE HER

"Be careful," Steva snores at Razz who is about to leave, Steva hugs Razz's body tightly, a sense that always grows in Steva's heart whenever Razz will leave her, a fear of loss, let alone for his departure this time, Razz will be longer, and somehow there is a sense of unwillingness in Steva's heart even though he did not say it, Razz said it, but Steva's attitude in tightly hugging Razz's body accompanied by tears that he hid his sobs, clearly proves how his inner unreality is at this time.

"How can I go if you keep hugging me?" babble Razz with a smile. He saw a look of sadness on the face of his wife who he just realized was very beautiful, Steva has a look ayu with neat eyebrows, round eyes with brown pupils, brown, long black and plump natural eyelashes, a pointed nose and sensual lips that always make Razz want to taste again and again.

"You crying?" razz asked as their embrace was gone. Steva hurriedly wiped her tears away and she shook her head quickly.

"T-no, I'm not crying," Steva answered lying, and Razz returned smiling. He began to like his role as a blind man after several months of frustrating for Liora, and only after meeting Steva did the play feel good.

Steva continues to show happiness in front of Razz, regardless of his sad heart, making Razz so anxious to him, haru, Razz moved, but he could not express it. How good and true his wife is.

"All right, I gotta go, you're fine at home. I'll try to get back soon."

After a farewell that evening, Razz and Steva live in two different worlds. No news at all.

Steva doesn't dare to text or phone Razz first even though Razz allows her and Steva to, and the new Razz has some downtime in the middle of the night thinking he's going to interrupt Steva's sleep. Until both of them miss in silence.

Steva's night befriended tears until she was tired of crying and asleep, while Razz's night befriended the cold air and the cityscape with lights adorning the buildings accompanied by a glass of wine in her grasp.

For 2 days, Razz kept quiet, his mind was always on Steva, and how to tell everything the truth, he was struck by confusion, between continuing the marriage, or canceling it, Razz is afraid of hurting Liora.

Today when they do their wedding dress fittings accompanied by their parents. Razz continued to remain silent. He sat down daydreamingly ignoring his mama Amora and Devne mamah Liora who chatted about the wedding event himself and Liora later with great enthusiasm.

"Waaahh, what a beauty!" amora exclaimed as Liora came wearing her super luxurious wedding dress.

"You gave birth to the figure of an angel, Devne!" praise Amora later. And Devne's smile expands perfectly.

"What do you think, Razz?" amora asked her son who seemed silent in daydreams, his body was here, but his heart and mind were stuck in the house there with Steva.

"Razz's?" Amora shook Razz's hand because her son was still silent.

"Ah? Yes, Mom?" shocked Razz.

"You why the hell? Why even dream? That was seen by your future wife, what do you think? Pretty, right?" ask Amora cheerfully.

Razz looked up to see Liora standing in front of him, beautiful, she was indeed very beautiful, but did not see the slightest happiness in the hue of the beautiful face that Razz had admired since childhood, Liora was just speechless with a sad face that she forced flat so as not to show her sadness.

"Yes, beautiful." replied Razz while nodding, and Liora went back in to take off the dress before she put it on tomorrow for her wedding.

"Why are you, Razz? Is there a problem?" tanya Amora caught one thing different from her son's face.

"Well,,, Amora's like she's never young, maybe Razz's thinking about their first night, hahahahaha, that's what I've been waiting for!" seloroh Devne laughs and gets a reply from Amora.

After the dress fittings show. Razz and Liora will come to a diamond company that designs their wedding rings. But the old man didn't come, only Razz and Liora were both going there.

"Are you okay, Liora?" ask Razz later because he did not get an answer from Liora on the first question.

The sad heart, which Liora had covered with all her heart, finally revealed already, Liora cried over her face with both hands letting out a sobbing sound.

"Hiks hyx,,,," cried Liora unstoppable.

"What's up, Liora? Why are you crying?" ask Razz confused. He hasn't said the wrong words since. But Liora who was already looking sad suddenly cried just like that.

"Razz's? I want to talk, hiks!" exclaiming Liora held onto Razz's driving arm, staring at Razz with a groaning look.

'Ciiuitt,,, ' Razz stepped on the brakes to stop his car. He felt bad when he saw Liora in such a condition.

"Liora, what's wrong?" razz asked very slowly, he cupped Liora's face, wiping her tears with his fingers. It's nothing special, it's Sudja Razz did since they were kids.

"Is this about our marriage? Tell me honestly, Liora? Don't you really want this wedding?" now Razz asks at the heart of the conversation, he feels that if Liora doesn't really want it, that's why Liora is always buying time and even making a game that complicates everything.

"Will I hurt you, if I tell you the truth, Razz?" asked Liora who dropped her head on the chest of the Razz field which always made her feel comfortable. And this is one of Liora's attitudes that Razz liked long ago, the girl always gave herself up to Razz when she was in trouble.

'No, actually how do I feel, do I really love Liora? Or just because I love her so much, but this isn't love? Why does it feel any different than when Steva dropped herself on me? Which makes me instantly lustful and want to mende.sah with him? While Liora? Every time she cries, I just want to always be a tranquilizer for her.'

Liora took off their body link, then sat back properly on her chair, wiped the tears with a tissue and looked down.

"What's really going on, Liora? I don't understand if you don't tell me clearly," Razz stared inside Liora's wet face.

"I? I-a?"

"What's? Say quickly?" Razz starts to lose patience.

"What's my fate if you marry me while you still have another woman as your wife, Razz? You haven't divorced her, have you?" seloroh Liora makes Razz's heart beat seems to stop.

"DEG."

Selfish, one word that best describes a Liora at this time, she does not love the man before her, devising a plan to cover her wish of being able to live with another man, but sacrificing a Razz for himself so that he is not seen wrong in the eyes of the family.

"Why are you quiet, Razz?" liora asked, Razz stared at the streets in the quiet front.

"I can't, Liora. I can't divorce Steva. I've fallen in love with her." replied Razz softly with conviction.

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