
Mas Haris has sacrificed a lot for us to have a whole family. Release Namira until ready to learn to accept me wholeheartedly.
Hearing her honesty made me look down again. Mas Haris and Namira have both taken steps, but I am always hesitant.
O Allah, open your hearts to live this. Inner me, try to strengthen yourself. No longer want to feel defeated by the feeling of unworthiness along with Mas Haris, do not want to lose with feelings of guilt to Namira.
But also convinced to step forward, namely married to Mas Haris.
When I lifted my eyes it turned out that Mas Haris was still looking at me like that.
"I'm sorry Mas, I don't respect Mas Haris and Namira's decision" I said later.
"Bismillah Anin, if we are together to take steps, God willing, there will be a way" replied Haris.
I could only nod at her hearing her words. But from this conversation we have both agreed to get married soon. Right after Alena was allowed to go home.
Mas Haris then reached out his left hand, his palm open asking me to grasp it.
With mixed feelings, I finally ventured to move my right hand. Until it fell in his hands and we clasped each other in a conscious state.
Yeah, well aware we're linking these fingers together. I felt Haris holding my hand strong enough that his comfort reached my beating heart.
Throughout the journey we never let go of this hand. It might be hard for Mas Haris to love me, but for me it's so easy.
At exactly 10 o'clock we arrived at the basement of the apartment, Mas Haris went down first and helped me out. "I'm going to take Alena," said Mas Haris, and now our hands are released.
"Yes," I replied.
Try to get used to our closeness, do not want to be awkward or to run away again.
All I have to do is try to make Mas Haris comfortable, you must both try to create a full and happy family.
"Sleep baby" replied Mas Haris.
"Anin, call Anton to come. I feel Alena's body is a little warm" Mas Haris said later.
The deg! My heart instantly pulsed in pain, as if in an instant it was instantly crushed.
"Really, Mas?" I asked anxiously, I immediately checked Alena's body temperature with my own hands. And sure enough, Alena's forehead, hands and even feet were warm. Not as usual.
Between our speeding steps to get to the apartment unit, I hurriedly contacted Dr. Anton.
"Doc! please come to the apartment right now, Alena's body feels warm!" I said with excitement when the call was connected. I didn't say hello first.
"Okay Ma'am, calm yourself. Replace Alena's clothes using comfortable, loose and soft clothes."
"Okay Doc" I answered, I was suddenly worried. Fear of something bad coming back to Alena.
Arriving at the apartment, Mas Haris and I headed straight for Alena's room. Together we made Alena feel comfortable, I changed clothes Alena and Mas Haris took off his shoes.
"Pacify yourself Anin, doctor Anton will be here soon" said Mas Haris.
While Alena I saw that she had fallen asleep again with a rough-sounding breath.
Mas Haris pulled me into his arms, not the least I tried to break away, but I returned this hug strongly enough.
Yeah, I'm not alone anymore. Now there will be Mas Haris accompanying me and Alena.
In this embrace, I cried with restraint.
O Allah, please do not make Alena sick again.