
"I just need one word from you Anin, tell me you're willing to get married. Then I will fight for you both" said Mas Haris later.
"But what about Namira, Mas? She loves Alena so much, I can't get her hurt."
"Just trust me, I won't make the three of you're broken, you, Alena and Namira" explained Mas Haris, she looked at me softly, as if to signal that he is also struggling in this relationship. It wasn't just me, Namira and Alena who were hurt. But he too, is a man who has become a father and is now trying to make his son happy.
If I remember too many times, Haris asked me to marry him, and now my tongue is confused to say no.
Especially when I saw the look of his withered eyes, I had no power to resist them every now and then. This is all for Alena's sake, not about my own life.
Mas Haris was blocking my wrist, now the check slowly loosened and he changed to hold tightly my cold hand.
"Tell Namira that I didn't respond to what you said about our marriage, the rest leave everything to me" Mas Haris said, from his words he seemed to guess that I was questioning about this marriage because of Namira's request.
"Namira didn't ask me to question about this marriage Mas. This is all on my own accord" I replied later.
I saw that Haris just nodded his head, "Give me time to finish it all," said Mas Haris later.
What can I do if it's like this?
"Sunday tomorrow Namira wants to take Alena for a picnic, so we will go together," said Mas Haris with his hands growing closer in his grasp.
I just wanted to pull this hand, because it made my heart flutter. But Haris still held him firmly. I feel like we're having an affair behind Namira's back. Oh God, this feeling torments me so much.
"Tomorrow when Alena wakes up, tell her I'm coming home. Tell her that she's getting married to Papa again, okay?" ask me Haris.
Oh my God, how should I? I hope this decision is not wrong.
And I saw Haris immediately throw his breath with relief. He rubbed the top of my head gently, I was still sitting on the edge of the sofa, until my position became lower in front of him.
"Alhamdulillah," said mas Haris lirih, but still able to hear clearly.
"Now rest," said Mas Haris anyway and again I could only nod.
After that conversation, I now enter the room with a more tangled mind.
I told Namira that it would help to make her marriage to Mas Haris possible soon, but instead of the marriage was threatened with failure.
I even agreed to marry Mas Haris.
Every time I interfered in their relationship the two of them were getting damaged like this.
"O Allah" I said, wiping his face in frustration. I no longer know how to do so I decided to take ablution water in the bathroom. Performing the delayed prayer and re-thought before God.
Subhanallah, Thank God, Allahuakbar.
I kept saying that phrase until my heart was calm. Alena, Namira and Mas Haris.
"God, give the best path for all of us. Show us the way we can go together without hurting each other."
Aamiins.