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#8
15 Years ago
I was sitting in the house when Arga's sister Aira passed by my house. I immediately intercepted him and asked Nayra for help if I wanted to take him to eat chicken noodles at Bu Dewi's shop.
And now with a neat appearance I headed to Nayra's grandmother's house. When I arrived he was done changing clothes, his long hair was allowed to decompose. She looks so beautiful, she always looks beautiful.
“mau pegi now?” Tanya Nayra spreading fragrant perfume smelling fruit – fruits. I nodded my head and went into the house with my grandmother.
We both walked around casually while talking about the exam. Nayra is about to graduate Junior High School while I am going to grade 3 High School.
“mimic well?” Tanya Nayra who raised her hand followed me who was also curious because she did not feel the point of water falling on me. And suddenly it rained very hard. Nayra and I immediately ran to find shelter. We sat in front of a large store that had been closed for a long time, we looked at each other and laughed as it got wet. I pulled his hand to stand close to me. We both held hands while waiting for the rain to stop. I'm also Nayra same – just as shy to not dare to look at each other.
The sound of running feet, Nayra and I looked towards the sound and it turned out that Aira, Nala's cousin Nayra and some other girls who instantly made Nayra let go of my grasp. Ah. just disturb them. The rain did not stop, I wanted to take him away from this place so that nothing would interfere. What is my day that can only be resigned to this situation.
The clock has shown at 10 which means that we have been stuck in the rain for 2 hours, I saw Nayra had looked evaporated. Warung Bu Dewi must have closed by now I thought. Ah. failed again.
“through aja yuk...” said Nayra to a friend – his friend also me. “can until midnight we here” continued Nayra who seems to have been cold. They all seem to agree, so do I. When I was ready to run, I held Nayra's hand which made her confused. I opened my shirt to cover his head, and while holding his hand we ran together towards the house. I wanted to take her to her grandmother's house but she refused because she didn't want me to be sick because I had to go back to my house. I let him go, carrying my shirt on his head.
***
The school exam that lasted almost 2 weeks has been completed. I immediately cleaned my bag ready to go home to make the usual Bani will hang out with me after school to be confused
“Rey.. Where to go?” Tanya Bani who is still sitting casually with friends – classmates
“mau rus” I said sounded rushed
“why fast – fast anyway?” Bani asked trying to hold me back
“I want to chase angkot to go home to kampung” because I have to go home to aunt Nia used to change clothes and take an angkot back to my home in the village.
“ayo eat first... “ invite Bani who I want to refuse but can not because now he has pulled me to the canteen. “ada important business yah?” Bani is still curious.
I shook my head “mau meet someone sih” said I'm not good, actually I just can't wait to meet Nayra
“who the hell, how important is it?” still curious, apparently he
“Nayra” said I made Bani look at me more confused which made her smile.
“ah.. it turns out Rayhan already has a new girlfriend” he smiled thinly while patting my shoulder made me shake instantly
“not yet girlfriend” said slowly which makes Bani more curious.
“turns out Rayhan also has a chick being chased?” she instantly laughs “so beautiful what the hell is she?” bani's question was only answered with my smile, I did not want to say it or describe Nayra in detail because I was afraid Bani would become more curious.
***
I finally arrived at my house in my school uniform because there was no time to stop by Aunty Nia's house. I just called Aunt Nia diwartel and then immediately looked for angkot to go home. I went into my room and fell asleep due to exhaustion.
The number on the clock points to the number 8 on my way out of the bathroom. I immediately changed clothes and prepared - ready for Grandma Nayra's house. As usual Sunday night in front of Nayra's grandmother's house looks crowded because of the young boy who is playing the guitar, I saw Nala, Lira and some of Nayra's cousins were singing. Hmm Nayra where well.
“Rey.. “ rebukes Nala who surprised me because I was daydreaming before. “do not go where – where yah” Nala asked me to wait for him who was running into the house and he returned with a bag of clothes. “nih.. from Nayra” said Nala gave the bag to me. Uh. Nayra's not staying here tonight.
“Nayra where?” I can't stand guessing – nebak
“she left last week” said Nala who surprised me, uh. why did Nayra not say anything before
“where?” he went on vacation with his family.
“Nayra moved to the Capital, she will High School there” Nala's answer feels so difficult for me at this time. How could?
“you mean? But Nayra's parents?” I still haven't received the answer before
“iya. same as you Rey. Nay will stay at his aunt's house in Jakarta, so he will go to school there” I try not to be hysterical at this time. My heart felt tight, how could he leave me without saying anything before. I even prepared myself today to tell her how I felt but she left me. Nayra, Jakarta feels so far away now.
I threw the bag with the shirt on the bed. It looks like an envelope tucked out of it that makes me jump into a curious bed with the envelope. And that's a letter from Nayra.
Dear Rayhan, please,
Sorry for not saying anything before
Because I didn't know I was leaving so soon.
Thanks for the shirt and the Sunday night, it was very memorable.
See you around.
Nayras,
I took a deep breath while putting the letter to my chest. The creaking of the door surprised me, it was my mother who checked my room because she thought I had not come home.
“mom think you're having a weekly night” said the mother standing on the doorstep.
“Nayraya has gone bu..” lamented me with a pouting face
“loh.. You like Nayra?” well. mother so know deh. ”week yesterday, the day before leaving mother met Nayra, even she also said goodbye to mother, mother, he said say hello to Rey” I who was lying down immediately woke up as fast as lightning.
“kok mother did not tell sigh” I said turned to be upset because mother found out that Nayra had left.
“how do you know if you like him” said mom picked up the shirt I had taken out of the bag and now lying on the bed. I forbid mom to pick it up. “other girls many” mom tried to comfort me.
“Rey wants Nayra mom..” I said I was still tight if the girl I wanted was Nayra
“yah already, then good luck waiting” said mother who made me become upset. Nayra is about to start High School which takes 3 years to complete. And I have to wait that long? That's right Nay!!
***
The strong gusts of wind started to feel cold on my cheeks. Nayra pushed my body to stop the kiss. His face looked at me with a surprised expression as well as fear. He took his steps away from me.
“sorry” said slowly then turned around to walk away leaving me temporarily still glued. How does he apologize? The sound of the closed door made me realize that now he was released from my grip. I took a step that was already in the elevator. I went to the emergency stairs trying to catch up to him and vain – sia Nayra has entered into his room.
I rang the doorbell without patience. We need to talk now.
“Nayra..” Call me almost lost patience because he did not want to open the door of his room. I pressed the doorbell again, which seemed to have disturbed the neighbors of his room. But I don't give a shit. My phone is embroidered, I immediately grabbed the thing that was nailed to the pants. Nayra's on call
“we need to talk” I said without greeting first
“Rey...I can't” Nayra's voice sounds hoarse like holding back a cry
“don't be like this Nay, open the door” I keep persuading him
“Rey.. We can't see you again” Nayra's words just now somehow hurt me so much
“Nay.. let's talk good – baik” still with the effort to persuade him
“I don't want to. stop persuading me Rey. Nothing to talk about anymore” Nayra is still consistent with her decision
“there's a lot to talk about Nay and you know it” my tone is starting to go up now
The next morning I was surprised when the receptionist gave me the keys to the jeep used by Nayra yesterday. He chose checkout at 7am to avoid me. He even changed the phone number I thought was blocking me. And when I checked into his office they said that Nayra was leaving town because of some sudden business. Nice move Nayra, she thinks of me as a germ now. Avoiding and avoiding me.
***
A week passed when I found myself in a hotel restaurant talking to his client. I just arrived and watched him closely. How can he look good – fine after disappearing without any explanation. Some restaurant maids let me sit down, but I just nodded and said in a moment. I want to sit next to his desk, which is now sitting on someone else's desk. I walked slowly to his desk when he saw that his client was standing, he was chatting and driving them to the restaurant exit where I took the opportunity to immediately sit on his now empty table.
Nayra has returned and looks surprised, He stopped for a while then returned his shirt while cleaning the goods – goods without greeting me.
“ehmm” I said distract him “you’ve back?” I asked even if he didn't look at me.
“rey..” said slowly, trying to stop me
“sud” short door that he directly followed. Let's do a bargain on Nayra
“rey.”
“nay.”
“rey.
“nay. we need to talk”
“there is nothing more to talk about”
“we have a lot to talk about”
“rey.”
“nay.”
“rey. stop it”
“nay.. don't try to dodge”
“reys.. “
“we need to talk Nay, or we can do this all day”
“rey. We shouldn't have met”
“nay.. do you want me to scream now? Here?” my threats kept him quiet. He really likes to raise emotions now
“rey.”
“NAY..” I raise the volume of my voice that makes restaurant visitors instantly look at us.
“oke.oke we'll talk” Nayra cut me off trying to calm me down this very unstable one
“hours 5 in cafe Rena” said to the point with his place. Nayra's face is still having trouble saying yes or just nodding “or would you rather I pick up at the office?” he knows that now he's in danger with me knowing his office address.
“no.no.. 5 hours in the cafe Rena” he said immediately
“good..” I smiled at him feeling happy for having won this debate. While he as soon as possible to clean his bag and get out of here.
***
Time showed me over 5 hours when I arrived at my sister Rena's cafe. I greeted Rena who was confused to see my arrival in the afternoon.
“Nayra has arrived?” askaku who immediately made Rena's face turn to understand. He pointed at the back of the cafe, Nayra seemed to be sitting alone looking at the flowers – flowers neatly arranged there.Aware Nayra who was alone there I immediately entered and locked the door, putting the key in my pocket made Rena angry because of my behavior.
I opened the pick up order box connected to the pantry cafe and told them that I ordered the caramel macchiato that I would take here and did not forget to threaten them including Rena so as not to open the door with a spare key. Thank you for the idea of pick up order box well Rena.
Immediately I sat down beside Nayra who had anticipated my arrival.
“what should we talk about?” nayra's first question, I don't have to ask
“why did you avoid me?” I started to turn things around
“I don't know what to say to you”
“about what?”
“i returned your kiss, which I should never have done”
“you have the right to do what you want”
“not with other people's girlfriend”
“you know, I love you” my defense just made Nayra laugh cynically
“how long have you guys been dating?” Nayra starts her act
“2 years” my answer again makes his cynical laughter back
“then, you want to leave him. To come back with me whose relationship never lasted long with you?” yup.just right Nayra. I'm ready to leave Mila now. “rey... have you forgotten something?”
“forget what?”
“you also love him” Nayra's answer just seemed to hit me instantly. Messing up my feelings.
“but I love you more
“you sure will choose me?” I replied with a nod of my head. “are you ready?” I looked at him carefully trying to understand the meaning of the question.
“you mean?”
“are you ready, make a family that thinks you like a boy – the legs so hate you? Relationships that you have built with colleagues and friends – friends so damaged? You may lose one of your best employees, and your family will be the talk of her family, neighbors and even your own relatives. While I became the most blasphemed person to have stolen you from him” his eyes looked glazed - glass stared into my eyes. He beat me hard this time.
I didn't find a single word to defend this time. I ran out of words – words he made. “sometimes we think is good for us impact the opposite for people – people around us” he said still continue his sentence.
“how about you? Your feelings for me?” I was trying to find out if he still had feelings for me
“what's still important?” his voice sounded weak “sometimes love does not have to have this” obviously – is obviously a refusal to return to me.
“do you not want to pursue your own happiness?”
“rey.” Nayra paused for a moment then looked into my eyes “happiness is not just about a couple. I've been in your boyfriend's position and I don't want to ruin the relationship you've been in for a long time. Wouldn't love get bigger if you spent more time?” he obviously – obviously taught me – exhausted without being able to deny it. “some time you will forget me, even you do not have the feeling left for me”
I gripped her hand and stared at her sharply “Nay. Don't you love me?”
“rey.. as much as – love me the same you, I don't want to take you from anyone. It's time we move on and forget about our past” he said just now there is a point. Maybe I should move forward and make our relationship a lesson. I let go of his hand and returned to the chair.
Something is not finished here, something is stuck with my feelings but I can not find the word – words to express it. “maintaining the relationship is not easy Rey, it is not, and you managed to survive for a long time with him. Isn't she the best of the many women you've dated before? You have to keep Rey” ah. I can't find my answer.
There was nothing wrong with every sentence he said, as long as Mila was the longest to stay in a relationship with me, facing the cold me was no problem for her. Have I found the right person all this time? But why can't I erase my feelings to Nayra? Is it true, the more time I spend with Mila will make my feelings for Nayra fade?
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