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"i just do a lot of work” said I tried to avoid while avoiding the look in his eyes
“seriously Rey. are you okay?” the question seemed to make me give up, I looked at him while shaking my head, I’m not okay Nay.. I’m not. He pulled my arm and then grabbed my body.
We hugged her a while later out of the elevator she previously held. “everything is gonna be okay” Her habit of fondling my hair makes it a little calmer. We walked to the door of his room.
“rest Nay..” I said as we were in front of her bedroom door
“you too.. go home and rest. “ I nodded.
“phone me if there is anything – apa” we say goodbye and I walk to my room to take a laptop and goods – other goods. I stopped for a minute in Mila's room, which the staff said had come home a while ago.
Walking to the basement while calling Nayra's father said that I told her to sleep at the hotel because she could not bear to see him waiting for his staff late to make his father thank him for paying attention and slightly managed to defeat the insisting head which sometimes still makes his father dizzy with his behavior, such as insisting on building his own business even though he was inherited some business by his parents, still like to bring a motorcycle when he was given car facilities, he was given a car, and other things that make his parents geleng – head geleng.
The conversation still continued when I arrived in the basement looking for my car that was parked a little corner because it rarely came home for some time, and stopped when Mila's car was also parked there, instead of her coming home?
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That very noisy phone ring managed to wake me up, who is bothering me today. After successfully disconnecting the furniture for about a week, I finally decided to rest by sending a note to Diana so as not to contact me for work problems.
And now I'm upset, for being bullied when I can sleep well. I grabbed the phone in the nightstand looking at Nayra's name on the screen.
“Nay.. I sleepy” said I replied before he greeted with hello.
“wake up.. I want to pick you up now” said Nayra immediately turned off the phone. I who just woke up could not digest with his words just so sleepy again continue my sleep. Until the doorbell of the house followed by the ringing of my phone again teased with noise. I woke up irritatedly to the door with the phone in my hand.
“why Nay?” I said while opening the door.
“loh.. why not ready – ready?” ask Nayra who is now standing in front of my door. I looked at him in wonder, what does he mean? “kan earlier I said I want to fetch” said Nayra with a manyun face. I blinked – blinking my eyes trying to remember. Ah. It turns out that's what he said on the phone earlier.
“where is going anyway” I said as I let her in.
“ada deh just follow” said Nayra who told me to get ready – ready. I immediately entered the bathroom ready to take a shower but stopped when Nayra shouted that I didn't need to take a shower. Without lingering – long I finally came out to find Nayra who was talking – talk with someone.
He immediately ended the call, and we left in Nayra's car whose back was full of several large black bags. The car drove to an area that had many beach tours located quite far from the city center, along the way we spent chatting occasionally singing to songs played by him.
Nayra, whose shoulder-length hair was braided, stopped her car at a place that had a small dock. There was a yacht that was charging, Nayra lowered her large bag telling the officer to help her lift, I helped lift the bag which turned out to contain equipment for the dive.
“Nay.. “ the sound makes Nayra step faster immediately up the yacht where Alena, Alric and a few more people welcome him. My mood was reduced to see Alric who was already on standby to take the bag in Nayra's hand.
“rey.. ayoo” said Alric who also took the bag from me then held my hand to board the ship.
The ship sailed, Alena who saw me in remembrance immediately gave me a bottle of mineral water, she took a seat next to Alric making me turn my eyes to Nayra who seemed relaxed while sipping water, and he took a sip of water, his expression changed in wonder when his gaze met mine. I raised my head trying to give him a code to see the behavior of Alric whose arms began to embrace Alena, he looked at them with a smile back to see me speechless at once laughing like remembering something, he said, Alric who was looking at me laughed too.
Nayra shook her head still laughing “you think I'm the same Alric dating?” Alena who was confused joined laughing. “rey.. Alric was dating Alena. At that time he invited me to make a surprise because he wanted to shoot Alena” I nodded my head at the sign of understanding and eh. jeez!! I had offended Mila at that time, turned into a workaholic for trying my hardest to forget her who turned out to have a boyfriend.
I looked at Nayra who was trying to fix her hair, staring as if I could not believe that I was wrong with what I saw at that time. made me laugh, feel happy that because I don't know, I did, I can't explain this feeling of relief.
Yacht stops where they want to visit, there is a good diving spot below. Nayra convinced me who had never experienced diving to try it, finally I gave up and stood up to hear the explanation of the two instructors who would accompany us, especially me. Because the three of them had often gone diving together. I even just found out that Nayra already has a diving license that she obtained while still living in Sydney.
After some time diving together, the instructor gave the code for the surface ride, we went up together, making me scream with excitement because I was happy with the experience today.
“I have a diving course after this” said after releasing the diving equipment on Nayra who had finished removing the equipment was laughing at me who was excited like a child who just got a new toy.
We sat looking at the shady sea under the soft sky as the sun began to block the clouds, the breeze guiding our hair in the direction where it was blowing leaving our feet submerged in the water, we both kept quiet with wandering minds.
“why yes..we always think about the worst case scenario when we do not even know what will happen?” Nayra opened the question.
“because we are afraid, afraid to be disappointed so we always think about the bad first, so as not to expect more”
“what are we going to be people who are often bad at thinking about how much we don't want to be disappointed?”
“there is a bad difference thought by thinking about the worst-case scenario Nay. but sometimes we often wrongly control our thoughts that were just thinking about what would happen, becoming suspicious of people – people who are in it. Finally we quickly conclude something that is not necessarily true because we do not want to be disappointed”
The yacht docked at the dock, decided on our conversation. We decided to go to a nearby restaurant, and change clothes. The sky started to play the color – dusk color, me and Nayra walked down the beach.
“have you ever thought of the worst case scenario that turned out like what you imagined?” Nayra started another question and answer session with me.
I nodded “because we already know what answers are there. So we always think of the worst case scenario to minimize heartache”
“what's so bad we ignore hidden answers and just trust what we see?”
Once again I nodded “that just happened to me earlier right?!” answer me laugh “you and Alric.” Nayra smiled at me who was wrong because of my misunderstanding
“rey..” step Nayra stopped, looking at me with a sharp gaze “answer honestly...what was your purpose to Sydney that time?” why Nayra arrived – suddenly asked about it.
“what would be different if I answered it now?” because what has happened now makes no difference between our relationships
“just answer rey.. honestly” Nayra still wants answers from me.
“I wanted to see you at that time.apologize and hope we can improve our relationship again” Nayra who seemed to not believe what I just said she was trying to regulate her breath.
“what was your worst-case scenario before meeting me?” nayra's voice sounded heavy as she tried to swallow her sobs
“if you are happy there, meet someone better than me. Treat you like a princess. Then I will choose to back off and let you happy”
“what did you see it? I was treated like a princess like you imagined?” his eyes now look glazed – glass.
“I see you guys hand in hand walking while laughing..” oh No!! I didn't even confirm who he was at the time of meeting Nayra. “but that time you were wearing a ring.” My sentence was interrupted when Nayra showed me the diamond ringed necklace I saw at the time.
“you want to know funny story about this ring?” tears are now starting to flow looking for a way out of her beautiful eyes “ I bought because I miss someone I heard was rearranging her life far away. Wish I was proposed with a ring like this later if we met” Nayra wiped her tears roughly “imagine how happy I was when I saw her coming to the country where I live, without hesitating to hug him because it was so longing but aware that the man I was hugging was now keeping his distance.Fuck. Ah. I'm so sorry..
“I tried to convince him there, starting a conversation that he always switched to another topic, until the last night we were with I said I always loved him, I always loved him, well he offered me friendship” I close my eyes trying to condemn my behavior that always comes to a quick conclusion when it comes to my feelings with him. “not all scenarios you think it ends badly rey..” said Nayra walked away leaving me alone.
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