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#10
12 Years ago
The twilight sky began to faint – faintly turned orange as I sat on the terrace. Father told me to go home to help him clean the backyard of a house that had been abandoned long enough. The spirit of the mother to plant and care for flowers began to arise again so inevitably the father intervened to clean the backyard because he did not want to tired because the area was large enough to be cleaned by himself.
Ah. It turns out that tonight was Sunday night and I had to be stuck in the village because you must have kept me from returning to the contract while I was exhausted enough to raise my spirits to go for the night. Nadia is still flirting because I can't accept going to family events alone without asking her. If he knew I was leaving because of what I was sure it would be decided right then and there.
Arga looks like he just came home from playing ball together with – other village children. He then broke away with them and continued walking towards my house.
“loh, I don't think you're coming back here” said Arga, who sat with me in the house.
“iya, last phone call. Help – help at home first, he said” obviously I saw Arga who was sipping ice water that he brought.
“in that case, for a while at the house of grandma Nayra yah” invite Arga who prophesied me to be a little was – was because there must be Daffa as well.
“ada what events?” tanyaku who is actually preparing the word – words to reject it.
“Nayra invites us to eat – meals at her grandmother” explained Arga who makes me understand. Nayra's family often prophesy a dinner on Sunday night. Usually they invite their girlfriends to come meet their families.
“see later well..” said I really don't want to go there. I was right – really wanted to keep a distance from him or Daffa.
***
“Rena, Reza, let's eat” call mom to Rena and Reza who are watching tv, while I've been sitting first at the table eating because of hunger.
Father and Rena are discussing the majors – majors are good to take if you study outside the city. Rena who has been in the 2nd grade of High School is asking for your opinion because in fact she wants to go to a city that is bigger than our area.
“Rey.. try asking Nayra, for a study abroad scholarship what are the requirements?” my question made me silent. Overseas? Ah.. You may have mispronounced.
“outside the city may be pak” I said trying to rectify Mr. Which makes Rena and Reza laugh at me, while mom just shakes.
“kak Nayra is indeed studying abroad tau” said Rena defended Mr
“hah? Didn't he go to college in Jakarta?” I ask them to hope they are wrong
“ka Nayra attended college in Australia tau.. in Sydney” explanation that is quite surprising me actually because actually I think that she will be studying in Jakarta like High School time and it turns out that she lives abroad. It was only fitting that he was confused when I called him the capital's son. Ahhh.it's a shame.
Because I felt lonely at home, I finally decided to go to Arga's house which of course will pass through Nayra's grandmother's house which is actually my goal. But I don't know what reason to say when I get there. So I'm going to go to Arga's house which is usually also crowded because many men are playing billyard.
“rey..” I looked when the voice that called me familiar in my ears which turned out to be Nala who was carrying the tray in her hand. “sini...” call it that makes me accidentally see Arga who I want to meet was cool eating with Adit. I got closer
“Nay, there's Rayhan nihh” Nala told Nayra. Nayra came out which made me unable to say what – what. With a red blouse and jeans that show the shape of the body. Ah. I lost my mind here.
“Rey, let's eat” take Nayra who has been preceded by Adit and Arga earlier.
“I've eaten at home” I said while holding my stomach. Nayra seemed to frown because of her refusal. “swear, I just finished eating” I said trying to convince her.
“if ice fruit want?” bargain Nayra again which I finally say.
“I sat outside yah” I said pointing to the place where we used to play guitar. I was a little uncomfortable because there were some guys from the village next door who were also their guests.
Nayra came out of the house, following me in the seat with a glass of ice. Underneath the black, he looked like a light.
“come in again sana” said as I received the glass of Nayra “ada guests dikilain” said I pointed at the men from the village next door.
“that guest Nala” said Nayra then next to me “Nala who invited them” explained Nayra who made me nod while saying O…
We were silent for a while, letting our thoughts equal – equally wander. I was confused where to start.
“apparently there are those who study abroad, without saying anything” said I opened our conversation that made the Nayra semyuman instantly expand.
“I think you already know” Nayra is trying to defend herself.
“if I know, where might I say the son of the capital” said I still feel ashamed because of my words at that time.
“actually I don't want people – people know. So I was happy when you didn't know” said Nayra to my surprise. He did not even want people to know that he was studying in the country of people.
“hah.. why?" I don't understand
“I'm ashamed” Nayra scratched her head “I'm afraid it will be considered showing off or whatever it was” said Nayra who amazed me because she was so low
“Nay, you just go to college it makes you proud. And now that you managed to study in that country is a big thing nay, you do not need to be ashamed or afraid to be considered arrogant. Because no one in this village has a chance like you” I try to make him feel proud of what he has achieved.
“iyah, thanks Rey” he said as he fell for me.
“oh well.. You didn't invite Daffa?” this is exactly what I wanted to ask you about. Because I did not see Daffa's figure upon my arrival.
“dia couldn't come” replied Nayra without looking at me.
“don't you go back with him?” I asked slowly because I was not ready for Nayra's answer.
“hah..who said? Indeed indeed.. Daffa asked me to come back with him. But I refused it” ah.. is this true? Daffa would not come. Hah.. This opportunity can not I age – siakan.
“so, do you have a girlfriend now?” my question was answered by his head, making me feel like jumping in this place. I stared at him intensely this time making Nayra so misbehaved. “Nay.. I want to talk something” I said nervously because I wasn't actually ready for this but I thought this was my only chance.
“i know, maybe you've heard or know. If all this time I like you” said I have not let go of his gaze.
“do you have a boyfriend?” I spontaneously shook my head. Now also I decided not to have a girlfriend. “the right one?” tanyanya tried to convince. I took his hand holding my hand.
“please, so my girlfriend Nay..” I said with her hand still trying to strengthen my heart that felt like it was beating outside my body. I'm afraid he'll answer no.
Nayra looked at me for a long time, like looking for something in my hope-filled gaze. Then nodded his head at the sign that made my smile widen instantly. I kissed the two hands that were in my hand while saying thank you.
Ah.. finally my wait is not in vain – in vain. So many years of loving it and just being a lover now there is nothing happier than this. I kept looking at him as if I couldn't believe what had just happened. Now Nayra is mine and I don't want to let her go.
***
Brakkk. I called Diana to bring me a cup of coffee during this cloudy day. I immediately closed the balcony door then stood crossed my hands from behind the glass door looking at the sea which looked as gloomy as my mood was now.
Diana came in with a cup of coffee that she put on my desk, then immediately tidied up the file – files scattered on the guest table. An hour ago I just finished discussing with the interior design about the project that I will make and let the file slap on the desk because I previously decided to sleep on the sofa because of fatigue.
I leaned back in my chair after sipping the coffee that Diana had brought back. The door was knocked when I just closed my eyes. It definitely made me a little frustrated because I wanted to take a break this time.
Mila stood on the doorstep when Diana opened it, she immediately entered and stood before me. I saw Diana who was about to leave the room but I forbade her and asked her to keep doing her job because I wanted to go home soon.
“rey..” Mila's voice sounds slow. I lifted my face to look at him, he pulled the chair in front of him, my eyes looked back at the computer screen on my desk.. I'm sorry about yesterday” continued Mila looking towards Diana who was tidying up the document slowly – slowly. I know she doesn't want anyone else to listen to our conversation but I need Diana to stay in my room so she can be a distraction, I'm afraid that just being together with Mila will become more emotional. “aku... I just want you to help my family, if you're really serious with me” Mila's words just now clearly provoke my emotions again.
I put my hand on my forehead while massaging my temples that are getting painful this “less serious am I the same as you?”
“this time I can't help and you don't take yourself seriously?” my tone of voice started to rise by 1 octave this time.
“rey.” Mila tried to explain
“Mila. if you want to maintain this relationship. You or your family should change the way you look at me” I said trying to ease my emotions
“iya Rey.. I. just want to help my sister. Please don't be angry yah” I looked at him for a long time without saying anything. Then remember Nayra who said maintaining a relationship is not easy. Can I maintain this relationship?
“later we talk again” said I close this conversation “I still have a lot of work” I continued followed by a nod Mila who then stood up to leave the room.
I sipped a glass of water, then took off the tie and loosened my shirt. Late – this past I feel depressed and sometimes afraid to spend time alone because I will continue to reminisce about my past and then begin to imagine if we can make our relationship like before even though I realize that the way back was very difficult to find because Nayra did not give the map.
Soon I got my phone trying to call someone but it didn't work because I was still blocked by him. I looked at Diana who accidentally saw me but her face seemed a little afraid of me. Maybe he never saw me angry.
“where is your phone?” ask Diana who immediately put her phone on the guest table where she sat.
“i didn't record anything pak” said Diana looking terrified. I took out a paper then wrote down a few words that made Diana become confused.
“phone number is” I said pointing phone then read out the number to be contacted it.
The phone sounded connected, making my little smile unstoppable because it felt good. I'll have Diana turn on the speakers immediately.
“halo..” ah.. I miss that sound. A month of not meeting feels so stifling now.
“what's this right with Ms Nayra Sudirman?” diana asked following the scenario I had written earlier
“iya I myself” replied Nayra who was around him sounded noisy
“i Diana, from the marketing section of Hotel Orion, would like to congratulate you because you won our hotel's annual lottery” said Diana still reading the narrative I prepared
“undians? I never. ohh!! wait” Nayra sounds like knowing something “is he there?” nayra asked which made Diana look at me confused. “Rayhan.” Nayra called my name which made me laugh at once because it was discovered by her
“hei.. ” my cow who felt my mood changed when she called my name earlier
“I knew it!!!” he sounded annoyed “iseng well. use another number all” said Nayra whose voice always sounded cheerful
“isnya my number is still blocked” said I was trying to defend myself
“oh yeah? Wah sorry.. later I unblock” ah. finally.
“are we good?” I really hope my relationship with him is still good because I can not calm down if I do not hear his voice now. “you are still angry with me?”
“when am I angry?. I am not angry.. you know lah” he is not angry but trying to avoid me.
“so when do we meet?” I tried to take this good opportunity to meet him
“ah.. you wish!!! you know. we cant. Aren’t we?!” she didn't want to see me because she tried her best to keep her distance from me.
“okay.. but don't forget to unblock” said I agree with his will which still do not want to see me
“aye captain !!!” he said then “eh.. This is not your girlfriend's number right?” his voice sounds panic
“this is my secretary number. please save” I said so that he trusts me which is answered okay by him then we end the connection.
I thanked Diana with the promise of buying her a meal.
“pak it.. instead of owner WO part two?” diana asked in a soft voice. Which I immediately replied with my nod. Diana did not expect me to know Nayra who turned out to be admired it. “apa she and Mr..” she sounded hesitant to continue her sentence
“if you think I cheated with him, I also want the thought to be true. But no. I'm with him just friends” said I actually wish our relationship was more than just friends. I want us to get back into a relationship like we used to.
Diana nodded her head in a sign of understanding. “but I am happy, because finally you are no longer emotional” said Diana slowly afraid I returned angry.
“yah.maybe it's just him, the one who can kill also turn on me” said I leaned back on the desk staring at the scenery outside.
“why didn't you vote with him?” Diana seemed to be getting interested in my previous love life that meant nothing to her
“you were once in the stage of loving someone to be willing to do anything for him?” Diana shook her head “I was in that stage, obeying a will that she thought could make me happy”
“so are you happy?”
“when you love someone too much. You learn to embrace a few things, including happiness itself. My happiness was when I saw her happy” I looked towards Diana who was looking at me as if not believing that I liked this woman so much. Nayras.
***
Deringan mobile phone that I put on the table stopped my concentration on the computer screen. Rena called
“halo Ren” my cow
“Rey.. tonight go home well, I want to talk about the important thing.” go home which is meant by Rena is the second home of our parents.
“can't be called?” I'm back to typing
“can't, because I have to talk to you, Mother and Reza” explained Rena who sounded a little excited.
“okey. Meet at home yah” I said then ended the phone.
I arrived home at exactly 8 p.m. Kiss Mom's hand and take a shower to refresh me. We and our family were sitting in the family room, I laid my body on the carpet when Rena came and wanted to start this conversation immediately
“Rena want to say what the hell?” ask the mother who was also curious. I immediately sat down cross-legged, followed by Reza who was busy playing hp
“so.. Damar wants to sleep with me” said Rena who makes me and Reza surprised, while mom looks to cry. “aku and Damar have been dating for a long time. We think it's time we went on to a more serious stage” explained Rena who made me, Mom and Reza hugged her together. Soon the only – girls in this family will be betrothed by another man and leave the house. Ah. If the father is still there, of course he is very happy to be able to marry the girl he so dear to this. We sat for so long with a feeling so full.
“oh yes Rey..there are things you want to do” said Rena after we finished hugging
“I want to use the services of WOnya kak Nayra” said Rena that makes me confused instead of her just staying booking
“continue what problem? You are free to choose the WO that you will use”
“not that” said Rena who made me look at him with full question mark “so, this month they already have a busy schedule, so it is impossible to receive another event” waw.. I did not expect that Nayra's WO is growing rapidly in this city “please persuade him well, let's handle me later” requests that are difficult to refuse or say this makes me unsure.
“I tried yah” first I said as I kept thinking what to say to Nayra later. We have not met about 2 months. Ah. It's not easy.
***
