Rearins

Dear 'Rearin'

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...I just want to hug you like this until my eyes are closed and can't open again......

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For you....

The wingless angel that God sent me. The queen of my heart who rules over my whole soul and body. There is no place for others to enter.

The Rearin Kalyca Allandra. Such a beautiful name, no. A name that has always been beautiful in my heart. Never replaced even a second never shifted anywhere.

Many people think I am crazy. Many say that my feelings for you are just an obsession.

Yes I'm crazy, I'm crazy for stupidly dragging an innocent girl like you into my messed up life.

Maybe I was a coward. By reason of fear of being rejected again, I am giving you a great suffering. I still feel sorry to remember it.

Remembering how you get insults from students. You're the one who should quit school because of my work. The tears that fall are a witness to how you suffer.

Ii'm sorry....

I'm not a good person. But I will try to be the husband you can count on. I can't promise not to make you cry. For I am just an ordinary man who does not escape error.

But one thing you should know, I will always try to keep you happy with me. Maybe cry, but I can tell if it's just tears of happiness.

Just yesterday I made your tears come down because of my mistake. It will not happen again for the umpteenth time. I-i promise.

Rea, know if my feelings never change for you from the day you reject me. We were both wearing red and white uniforms. For the first time I felt a broken heart.

Even your flat gaze and speech that rejected me on that day was still clearly recorded in the mind. It was my motivation to change to be with you.

But who would have thought, the change just made you no longer know me. Not you, I no longer know myself.

Motor gang boy, psychopath?. The club is always a destination every night, cruel and indiscriminate with whom to talk.

But what you need to know, I never once had a serious relationship with a woman. They're just being an escape to forget about you. But God has cruelly made me unable to turn away from you.

I was shackled in a feeling that never faded. Tortured me to the point of hurting you.

I am always thankful for God. Because that one-night mistake kept you by my side.

When the morning greets me, when my eyes are perfectly open, the smile on my lips is always present when it catches you at peace in my arms. Saying thankfulness while admiring the beauty of God that I always dreamed of.

My daughter, my wife, my greatest woman, the mother of my children and the house that always made me want to go home.

Rea's existence is one of the most precious things in my life. It gives color to the life of Levino Altan Devora, who is dark and gloomy.

"Morning", I said as the eyelids framed by the lashes slowly lifted. He nodded slowly until his smile appeared to look at me. The smile that always managed to make my heart beat fast.

Ah, Rea, everything about you has always succeeded in making my nerves paralyzed helpless.

"Morning too", he said and kissed a glimpse of my cheek. I excitedly replied with a kiss on her lips that slowly turned into a long kiss.

I let go of our link when I felt Rea being out of breath. Looking satisfied at his breathless face with an annoyed look at me. Always sweet.

"What's not satisfied?", he asked, which I rewarded with a small oddity.

Everything about Rea can never make me satisfied. Women are like drugs that make me opiate. Dangerous, but delicious.

"Not yet, again yuk Mommy", I whispered as I blew her sensual ears.

"Leviii. Are you not tired?", Rea's whining that invites my laughter. If Rea and Arthur were in the same frame. Sometimes I feel like I'm the Daddy of two kids.

"Should I answer?", I raised both my eyebrows teasing him. Rea hit me in the chest.

"What the hell are you consuming so hard?", asked Rea by chopping her lower lip. I could only laugh and pull the mother of my children into my warm embrace.

A hug, that's the only warmth I can give to Rea who's been struggling a lot.

"That's a men's secret, you don't need to know, just enjoy it" I said as I blinked one eye.

My laughter broke when I saw Rea's cheeks that were met with red. Adorable, but they've done it not once. But the young mother was always ashamed.

Rea looked up at me, "At home, if it's too complicated, just as I'm coming home you're married again. Keep on reminding you even turn on me because it is too busy with education. Keep going"

Huh, the brains of the soap opera are crunching again.

"So I'll leave you and we're fighting for custody of the child. Keep us coming back like strangers with our own way, is that it?."

Rea was flabbergasted for a second then clapped his hands. Huh, his wife is really unique.

"You watch soap operas too?."

I grunted softly, how not to know if Rea always told me about the soap operas she watched every day, which unfortunately with the same plot.

"After graduation you want to take Papi's company directly?", asked me to change the direction of the topic. If it continues then Rea with all his spoilers will be the length of his business.

The woman who had given me one son seemed to think for a moment. At first Rea did want to continue his studies after Arthur was two years old. But who would have thought Rea would have to postpone the plan until our son was born and could be left behind.

Actually I feel sorry for him, Rea's schedule is more crowded than my schedule. In addition to taking care of the house and the children. Rea had to go to his family's company four hours a day every day. Learn with his Papi directly to manage the business.

I still remember when Rea had to divide her time between taking care of the newborn Arthur and her school exams. Very complicated and exhausting.

But I'm lucky to have a tough wife like Rea who never complains at all.

"Why aren't you like other girls who are determined to commit suicide?", a question that suddenly flashed through my mind.

I stared at Rea's bead as she looked silent without any response. Then a second later Rea smiled and looked at me back with a shady look.

"Because it's nobody's fault. It's not my fault, you or destiny. I always thought these were promises I made to God before I was born. Accepting the life it offers", I was filled to hear it. Rea with all his privileges.

"It is not God who gives but I who approves" he continued with a smile that still framed his face.

I'm overwhelmed, really.

"Love, I'm going to accept me with all my bad. I want to stay with the immature me. I didn't promise Rea, but I'll make sure you'll be happy living with me. If we live together in the world, then we must die together. That's the definition of a living life, right?."

Rea smiled broadly and nodded vigorously, "But I always ask with God, don't take my life before I see our children happy with their families."

The more I clench her tiny body in my warm embrace. Our equally innocent bodies touched each other.

"The art of seviyorum is due", I said sincerely while kissing his forehead long enough.

"The art of seviyorum kocacim", I smiled when I heard Rea replying to my love statement in the same style and language. I pressed my hand against her slender waist. It erodes the distance between us.

The one I always ask God for, I just want to hold her like this until my eyes are closed and can't open anymore.

After we were silent for a long time. Rea blurs whose reflexes make my eyes widen perfectly.

"Levi, I want to be hugged by Dr. Kevin. How does it feel?."

I outlined our embrace and looked in disbelief at Rea who seemed to be imagining her wish.

That's right, Dr. Kevin. The man who was predicted would be Arthur's Daddy after I died. Heh, it's delicious. I will not allow any man to take my place in the hearts of my wife and children.

"Darling you're sure?."

Rea nodded which made me have to hold my breath. Imagining Rea in another man's arms has left me breathless. What if it's really realized. Maybe I'll go crazy, or worse die on the spot.

"MOMMY!, DADDY!, THE OLD CHEF WAS HIS NAME. THERE'S UNCLE KEVIN TUH IN LUAL."

My eyes instantly stared at the horror of the room door being knocked from the outside by Arthur. What was he saying, Uncle Kevin. Astaghfirullah, is this so-called universe blessing.

Then my netra turned when I felt Rea move. Staring at Rea's plain body which seemed to be running spirit entered the bathroom.

Shit, I sighed and closed my eyes tightly.

Having Rea is one of the most beautiful gifts of my life. And all his words and desires are absolute to me.

"Please, don't be the second Arthur" I murmured. Hoping if our second child isn't like Arthur who always wanted Uncle Kevin to be his Daddy. If so, tired himself alone makes while Kevin who gets the results.

...~Rilansun🖤....

...Huwaaa finally Rearin finished as well. A little longer than expected. The seviyorum art. Wait for the extra part. Don't hunt" in the remove dr library....