Rearins

I'll take care of you

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...The twilight was present every day, adorning the sky with its orange sparkle. But alas, the time to greet the earth is only a moment......

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"Jeek."

Rea raised his head upwards with a hand covering his nose and mouth. Trying to get rid of that nausea. For some reason after Rea performed his shabuh worship he suddenly felt very nauseous. If calculated it may have been five times since Rea back and forth the bathroom. And he is very weak at the moment, to get out of bed was not able to.

Rea heaved a sigh of relief as her nausea dissipated. Then the girl took a small bottle of eucalyptus oil that was on the nightstand next to the bed. Unscrew the lid and bring the bottle closer to his nose. Inhaling the aroma that can make his nose feel warm and relieved.

But a second later, the nausea came back stronger. Makes Rea unable to hold it. Then with a limp body Rea tried to run to reach his bathroom. Spit out that clear liquid in the sink.

Not much, but able to make his stomach feel turbulent. And his power was drained away.

When she finished, Rea walked out of the bathroom. His feet felt heavy to carry. His head also felt pulsating. Very inconvenient. I don't know what the problem is so that his body can be carefree like this.

Rea sat his body on the bed. He leaned his back on the head of the bed with his eyes focused towards his stomach.

With slightly trembling hands, Rea touched her stomach wrapped in those sleeping pajamas. Slowly move his hands on the flat surface. Her Mother's words about the bandage yesterday again revolved in her mind. Make his mind full of things that are not.

Rea is not stupid. During his eleven years of schooling, he had learned about the reproductive parts of women and how the process of breeding humans. And Rea is not a fool who does not understand the current condition of his body.

But just once, Rea wanted to be the one who didn't know anything. So that his head does not become sick because of thinking about things that are not. Hopefully this is just because of the usual wind. Yeah, I hope so.

Then Rea turned towards the glass door of her room balcony. Look at the sky that is starting to light out there. Then the girl mumbled softly while stroking her stomach, "Don't present her at the wrong time God."

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"Why?."

Rea said softly by staring at the expanse of roses in front of him.

"Why should I?" said the girl with her eyes closed. Feeling the gust of wind gently caressing his face.

The sun has started to set in the western horizon. Leaving orange sparkles in the beautiful twilight sky. The birds fly back to their nests. Everyone chose to hide inside the house before nightfall came to pick up.

Even though the twilight is beautiful, but unfortunately the audience is too little. Either because the beauty of twilight is only temporary or because of the loneliness that exists at twilight.

Rea was like a silent twilight. Present every day, but only briefly greet the earth. He will be adored in his time, but as night covers the sky. Then he will be alone in the smallest corner of the universe.

🎶I wonder if you're thinkingin', "Is she alright all alone?"

I wonder if you tried to call but couldn't find your phone

Have I ever crossed your thoughts because your name's all over mine?

A moment in time, don't watch me cry

A moment in time, don't watch me cry

I'm not crying 'cause you left me with no warning

I'm just crying 'cause I can't escape what could've been

Are you aware when you set me free?

All I can do is let my heart bleed

Rea opened her eyes when she heard the lyrics of the song coming from inside her room. Rea deliberately turned on the music with a loud enough voice, so that his family could not hear the sound of his screams. Then Rea sat leaning against the balcony door she had locked from the outside. Alone enjoying the twilight.

Then the black netra rolled at the long object that fell from her lap as Rea tried to cross her legs. Which kept Rea smiling wryly before chuckling softly. With tears just flowing. Like a dam breaking.

At lunch Rea was confused by the condition of her body. Because when Rea was about to feed a spoon of rice along with side dishes, his stomach suddenly felt a great turbulence. Makes her nauseous unbearable. I don't know what caused it until Rea couldn't bear to smell the rice. Though everyday Rea is not a problem with the staple food. Make him scouted various questions from the Mother. But Rea said he was catching a cold.

Then after that by venturing out, in the afternoon Rea went to the pharmacy to buy a testpack.

Of the five testpacks that Rea bought. Same everything. The long, small object shows two red lines that mean positive.

Positively, she was positively pregnant at such a young age. Oh my God, why Rea had to repeat the story of Reagan and Arinta.

"Why should I be God?", Rea pointed to himself as he shouted at the orange sky above.

"What is my sin, until I have to accept all this. I never complained, but this time I complained for the justice. To me and my son" Rea said as she touched her stomach, "Pity her little one. He's not wrong. He's a gift. But baby, the gift came at a bad time. I'm afraid I can't be a good mother to her. I'm afraid I can't make her proud to have a mother like me. Even the school is not finished, what can I give to my child later", he continued at length.

When Rea finds out that she is pregnant, she is furious. Rea is angry at him who is unable to maintain his honor until it must involve an innocent little life.

Rea does not want to be like the reckless Arinta and almost kills his son just for the sake of an ideal. A child is more valuable than a career. Work can still be sought, but if a life is lost, where can his successor be sought. That's Rea's principle.

And Rea doesn't want Levi to be like Reagan. A man who hurt many women around him. Enough of him, no other victims.

"You calm down, I will keep you as strong as I can. I will give this whole world to you. Don't be afraid, you won't be alone. I will accompany you to see the world. Stay healthy and stay there for me", Rea monologue. It was as if he was talking to a fetus that was in his stomach. For the first time Rea felt her life meant a lot. It was as if the burden that had been piling up on his shoulders, as if it had disappeared the moment Rea touched his stomach. His son, his flesh and blood.

Now only how Rea explained to both his parents and his extended family. Just imagine, a seventeen-year-old girl was pregnant without a husband. I don't know what the world's judgment is on him.

The point is, no matter what happens, Rea wants to keep her son. If he is weak, he must be expelled and thrown out of the family. Then Rea's ready.

One more, until whenever Rea will not tell Levi about her pregnancy. Two dark nights were just an accident that Rea did not want to remember back in his life.

If only no man wanted to marry her one day. Then his son alone was enough to accompany Rea to spend his old age later.

...~Rilansun🖤....