Rainbow Hanani
Part 54 "You're not a good father "
" If the sky closes all its doors to your prayer, believe me there will always be a mama's prayer that is always the key to open it."
......" Rainbow Hanani 🌹"......
Kanaya rubbed her son's hair softly, channeling warmth for him.
He saw clearly his son's eye bead was storing a lot of pain.
" Daughter, what really happened ? Ask gently.
Anugrah took off her embrace." I'll send Anugrah to Canada mah." Saddest word.
Kanaya was shocked to hear her son's answer.
" How could you send you to that far away place ? What is the reason, son ?
Anugrah sighed." Father found the Islamic books that Anugrah kept mah, just as Anugrah entered the house father was covered in anger, even father slapped hard Anugrah mah." The answer.
Kanaya knew very well that her son's heart was now anchored to her faith.
" Daughter, I'm sorry you weren't there to defend you, but you have to be patient, son. You have to be able to understand the nature of your father maybe he's got a problem again, so his mind is fucked up so funny emotions son."
Anugrah shook her head, and clasped Kanaya's hand." Ma'am is always there for the Anugrah.
Anugrah has always been to be able to understand the father mah, all that I ask Anugrah takin, father forbid this, forbid it, must be this way, must be so, all Anugrah listen mah."
" But not once can you understand the feelings of Anugrah ? Give Anugrah a gap to be free to errant life Anugrah ?
Just once, mah !! " The tears that Anugrah weirs from earlier finally contained also.
" Anugrah tired mah the same all father's will !! " balkingly.
Kanaya shook her head." No son, mamah sure your father must know you, just that he has not shown it fully to you son."
" Why was Anugrah not born as a Muslim ? Ask.
Kanaya's inner shock jolt when she heard her son ask that.
He squeezed the tip of his shirt, to relieve his body tension.
" Hm, son, there's something you should know. That every baby born into this world is basically in a fitrah state. Yes, holy without exception son, but who became a Christian or a believer is his parents."
" Before Dad married mamah, he had assumed the status of a convert, a few months later met at a briefing, about a month later Dad proposed to mamah,
Finally we got married without your Oppung's knowledge." Kanaya remembers her love story with William.
" Short story after brother Jasmine was five years old, and you were three years old, your Oppung knew about our marriage, he was shocked even to enter the IGD because his heart was weakened at that time, he said, shortly after that he said that he was very disappointed with your father. And asked him to return to Protestantism as his last request." It was clear Kanaya with a warm whirlpool of water dripping from her eyes.
Anugrah stared fixedly at his mama's face.
" So Anugrah was actually born as a Muslim ? Ask.
Kanaya nodded and smiled.
" However, after your grandfather died your father took you and your brother back to Protestantism. Your father gave two choices to mama, which is the first choice If you want to be with your children, then you must apostatize.
And the second choice if you want to stick to your faith, then you must part with you." Kanaya began to sob in light of the dark incident.
Anugrah wiped his mama tears.
" Mah, don't cry mah."
" I'm sorry mamah, I'd rather keep your faith than yours." Feeling guilty for the grace.
Anugrah raised her head to Kanaya while cupping both of Kanaya's cheeks." You're not wrong, what you're doing is right."
" Mah, return the grace to Islam again mah." His request with a soft.
That question really struck Kanaya in the heart, there was a slight distress in her heart at hearing her son's question.
Honestly, it is very easy to pronounce Anugrah, especially he already has enough provisions about Islam.
However, Kanaya knew very well what would happen to her son when William learned the Anugrah had moved away.
" Daughter, do you know Uncle Rasullullah named Abi Thalib ? " ask.
Anugrah nodded in response.
" He was very supportive of the struggle of Da'wah Rasulullah, even he also participated in making it easier for the Prophet to preach.
He is always on the side of the Prophet, of course a little bit he will know the light of Islam is not it ?
Anugrah heard Kanaya's words seriously.
A few seconds Kanaya fell silent, while Anugrah waited for the continuation of Kanaya's speech.
" But the truth is, he was not destined to be a Muslim until the end of his life."
" Can't he be unable to reach God's direction ? While he was always with the Prophet.
Anugrah felt that what Kanaya said was the truth.
Yes, Abi Thalib the figure of Rasullullah's uncle who sided with him but, unfortunately until the end of his life, he did not say the two great sentences.
" God's direction is not on his side, son." He tried to make his son understand.
" Different from you, God's direction is always on your side, but the universe always makes things difficult for you, isn't it ? Ask his son.
Anugrah nodded yes.
It is true that it is indeed all that narrows the way, reaching Islam.
" That means God wants you harder, harder to reach those two great sentences, son." He said with his smile.
The words thrown from the veiled woman floral motif, like a golden ticket for Anugrah to reach Islam.
Yes, Kanaya always gives the green light, motivation and even passion for her Son.
Yes, when her son was in the weak phase she was the first woman who would strengthen her son's resolve.
To have a woman like a lantern when darkness approaches is an infinite miracle for an Grace.
Anugrah was grateful when the rain came, there was a figure of Kanaya who offered shelter for him.
When the hot sun came dazzling his view, there was a figure of Kanaya who was willing to become a hiding place for his son.
Anugrah shed the tears that had been so far he endured, upset, sad, hate and happy united into one.
He does not care in a crybaby dwarf, weak or so, what he currently wants is a hug, embrace, and backrest.
For he gives up all distress, for him to vanish all sorrow, for him to cast off all pain, so that he may breathe relief and freely express himself without compulsion.
He got it from the figure of Kanaya, his beloved mother.
" If the sky locks all its doors for your prayers son. Trust me there will be a mother's prayer that is always the key to open it." Kanaya uttered with the radiance of a mother's face.
A smile dyed the crying on Anugrah's face." Grateful to have an angel like mama."
Kanaya smiled, gently stroking the head of her son who was in her arms.
" Talk carefully with your father, son, lower the tone of your voice. Weak soft on him. God willingly so slowly his heart melted a little." Kanaya's advice to her son.
The grace shakes." No, dad is stubborn. Whatever he said in the beginning can never be challenged." Anugrah resigned to the stubbornness of his father.
Kanaya agreed with what Anugrah said, because her ex-husband was very stubborn.
" Hm, your father is like that. But believe me, your father's heart has also fallen on Islam. Mamah was sure that a small speck of Islam was still in her heart."
Kanaya paused for a few seconds, Anugrah took off her embrace.
Curious about the continuation of the word Kanaya.
" Continue mah." Her request.
" Your father was just being shackled by his guilt for his father." Kanaya.
Yeah, sure enough even William always blames himself for his father's death.
Perhaps today what happened was the penance of remorse for his father.
William even wanted his son to become a Protestant Activist.
But unfortunately, his wish must be forgotten, because in reality his son's heart has fallen on Islam.
Anugrah understood the words of Kanaya, determined to open the shackles.
So that his father would get to know Islam.
" Anugrah understood my mother's words.
Don't worry, you're the one who let go later." Her speech.
Kruttt's... Anugrah's keroncong stomach sounds.
Anugrah smiled with her teeth.
" Pantsan worm you already menggedemo that." Ledek.
" Yes mah, since this morning Anugrah has not eaten."
Sure enough starting from he came down to the port, until at his house let alone to eat, even sitting he was not offered. Mala was precisely a slap, as well as a curse that was presented to him.
Kanaya went to the kitchen to get her blind starving son's food.
He brought food, fruit and orange juice to his son.
The starving Anugrah, without warning from Kanaya, grabbed the food that Kanaya held.
The next second he devoured the food quickly. The tributary tub of the Anugrah quickly depletes it without remainder.
Groaqs... Anugrah.
" Athaghfirullah Anugrah, slow down son !!
Can't eat like that." Kanaya saw that the rapidly devouring Anugrah was worried that her Son was sprained or even vomited.
"He-he-he.. Sorry for the hungry grace." Her speech.
" This is our drink first." Kanaya gave her orange juice to her son.
Anugrah grabbed her orange juice from Kanaya's hand, and gulped it down with a single gulp.
" Wah Anugrah full mah, thank you mah." Say it sweetly.
Kanaya was not exhausted with her son, not until five minutes his son had devoured everything.
" You haven't eaten since morning or from a month ago anyway ? Kanaya asked shaking her head.
Anugrah chuckles at Kanaya's question which is actually an Irony sentence for her.
" Okay mamah getting worse if you keep getting angry. Dong He-he-he's smile."
Kanaya's...
Kanaya's....
Suddenly there was a man who was screaming for Kanaya from outside.
" Who is the mah, very noisy." Anugrah went out intending to see it.
" That sounds like William's bang." Kanaya memorized the voice of her ex-husband.
Anugrah opened the door, and yes, her steps were aghast as she saw William's figure was already right in front of her.
" Dad." Her speech.
" Go home now." William pulls the hand of the Angrah.
The rebellious grace releases her hand." No !! Anugrah wants to live here just as mamah." Resist.
William hardened his jaw." Don't fight the Angrah !! Or I'll...
" Or what Dad ? Send me to Canada ?
Give me back ? Or whataa ha ?
The grace began to vanish his long-held annoyance.
" Who makes you more presumptuous like this ha ? William clasped Anugrah's hand.
Kanaya, who heard the commotion between the father and son, ran out.
" Bang William." She said when she saw her ex-husband.
" This woman made you a dissident, huh ? Appoint William to Kanaya.
Anugrah tightened her jaw, upset by the accusations leveled at Kanaya.
" Don't you dare accuse my mother like that !! Anugrah threw out William's hand.
" My mother who always understood me, my mother who was always there for me, she was always a coolie for me when I was covered in distress, she was always the direction of the wind when I was lost, she was always the coolant for me, he always gives me warmth when I am cold. Yeah, she's the greatest woman I've ever had, just so you know that." Said Anugrah, a drop of warm liquid plunged from her eyes.
The words of Anugrah were like an atomic bomb to William.
Was William not a good father to him, so he said that he wanted to corner William.
Hadn't it been fifteen years, Anugrah lived with William. That doesn't mean anything to his son's Grace ?
" Think William.
Yes, in terms of physical needs William has given the best for the Grace, but spiritual needs such as love, care, and quality time for his children William does not have time.
He was always busy working as an architect. Plus William always forced his will on his children. That made Anugrah not feel at home with him.
And that's why Kanaya always warmly welcomes her sons when they need the figure of parents. Kanaya always tries to understand her sons and daughters.
Always give positive advice.
Not infrequently Kanaya also teaches about Islam to the Anugrah.
" Am I not a good father ? William asked, his eyes starting to turn red.
Anugrah nodded yes." Yeah, you're not a good dad." Speak the Enchantment with a light.
William was bowed to hear an answer he did not expect." So I'm a bad dad ? Ask again.
" You are a bad father, always forcing your will on me, always keeping me constrained, always putting me in a state of compulsion. I'm sick of it all." The grace fell on the floor.
Kanaya held onto her son's shoulder, trying to calm him down, so that emotions wouldn't control her." Take your voice slow, respect your father."
A single tear flowed from the corner of William's eye. He did not think that his son thought he was a bad father.
" You're not a good father !! You're not a good father, Dad."
Hekkkc..... William's heart disease relapsed..
Heeekkk...
Hekkkp...
" Dad." Sentak Anugrah was amazed to see the condition of his father.
" Bang William."
" Dad why Mah ? Anugrah was worried about her father's condition.
" Daughter, I think your father's heart disease is relapsing, son, we need to get him to the hospital right away." Kanaya did know that William had the same disease as the oppung Anugrah.
" Yes, our father went to the hospital." Anugrah put his father in the car.
" Jeep sir please open the car door." Pinta Angrah's.
" Mister William why son ? Jeep opened the car door.
Anugrah lifts her father into the car, Kanaya overtakes them.
" Let's tell Jeep sir we're going to the hospital, sir."
Jeep forwarded the car according to Anugrah's orders.
There was guilt in Anugrah's heart, because his father's opening had become like this condition.
" I'm sorry for the grace of father." He held William's hand.
" Anugrah's father promised never to snap at me again, but please don't make Anugrah worry Dad." Anugrah tried to wake William up.
" Daughter, leave it all to the almighty. He has all will." Kanaya said to her son.
" This is all wrong Anugrah mah, Anugrah is indeed an ungodly child mah." Her husband constantly blames himself.
Kanaya shook her head in disagreement with her son's words." No, it's not your fault, son. Do not panic, do not panic !!
If you turn yourself gini, father will be more sad to see him. God willing, everything is fine, son." Kanaya tries to calm her son down.
Anugrah tried to calm herself according to her mother's words.
He also realized that continuing to dissolve in this stupid situation would not change anything.
Seriate.....
Sevimli 12 December 2020
Mabruk Alfa mabruk for My Dad 🙂
Warm regards from Author 🌹
