Rainbow Hanani

Part 40 You're not Abdul Ashku

" Stop bringing up hope that has melted away with memories."

........... Rainbow Hanani 🌹.........

The voice that Hana had longed for, but always wanted her to avoid, because she no longer wanted to be stuck in her first love wrong.

There was relief in Hana's heart hearing the baritone's voice, her longing was overflowing, just by hearing Say Hello from Anugrah.

My heart was beating again, my heart was pounding again with an irregular rhythm.

God, what is this feeling. " Think Hana.

" Han ? " Call Anugrah by phone.

" Angrah." Spontaneous Hana called out her name.

Arga who was eating his breakfast, choked, heard Hana say the name of Anugrah.

" Now-huk..."

" What is the Gift." Inner Arga.

Hana glanced at Arga, there was a hint of worry in her heart.

" Are you okay, Ga ? Ask Hana.

Arga just shook his head, then gulped down a glass of water.

Ranti understood what happened to Arga's heart, she laughed out loud.

" Buahhahaha, Hana still calls the name Anugrah aja, you have been so complete kebangetan that !!

What if Anugrah calls Hana's name on the contract, huh ?? Buhaha.." Said Ranti who intended to make Arga upset.

Arga bought her eyes at Ranti, with a regretful expression.

I want it to feel Arga bogem, all-out Ranti with both hands.

Arga's heart slightly pounced when Ranti said that, not accepting if Anugrah was with Hana.

" No, that's never gonna happen !! Stuck it in his mind.

Arga tried as much as possible to be ordinary, and stay cool.

While Hana pinches Ranti's arm.

" Aww..." Ranti grimaced in pain.

" Hana, you're nothing nyubit me !! Sick tau !! " Ranti Upat.

Arga laughed seeing Ranti in pain.

" Fruit, rasain !! Her speech.

" Therefore, if you have a mouth, do not like the ngasal !! Hana also laughed.

The phone is still connected.

At least, Anugrah heard the words between the three of them.

" Is there a man there ? Anugrah began to guess.

" Han, you're still there right ? Ask Anugrah.

" Athaghfirullah, I forgot." Hana patted her eel.

" Ohiya, please give me the phone as Sanju can ? I want to talk to Sanju, urgent this." Pinta Hana's.

" It can, but Sanju's still on the toilet and nitipin's phone to me." Honest Grace.

" Ah, yaudah later if Sanju has returned, tell him to call me yes, Grah !! Pinta Hana is back.

" Hm, you want to break up the phone, huh ? Suddenly Anugrah asked that, as if she knew Hana was avoiding her.

" Hm." That's all Hana said.

Anugrah smiled faintly behind Sanju's phone." You don't want to hear from me ? Ask Anugrah.

Hana bit her lower lip, her hand shaking violently, as if an electric shock was impeding her body movement.

" O God, please control my heart. Don't make me fall for the wrong love again, you're the only owner of this heart, O God." Hannah tried to strengthen herself.

With her trembling mouth Hana repelled the words of Anugrah." No, g-aaak is important too !! Say it with stammering.

The grace returned a faint smile." You don't miss me ? Ask again.

" I miss you, Grah !! I wanted to ask you a question but, I don't want any more hope between the two of us." Said Hana whose heart was now in ruins.

Hana tried to hold back the warm fur, so as not to fall over her cheeks.

Ranti clasped both shoulders, trying to calm Hana down.

While Anugrah did not believe what happened to Hana, just by hearing the voice of Anugrah. Hana can get that cool.

" What is your feeling for Anugrah, Han ? Can't I shift her position in your heart ? Like you shifted Jihan's position in my heart ? " Inner Arga now feels crowded, as if he lacks oxygen supply.

Hana steeled her resolve to shake off all the long-ago flavors. He no longer wants to sow wounds, on a heart that has not fully healed.

" Not at all !! Hana Pungkas.

" Haha." Anugrah laughed crisply.

" Han, you're not good at playing a liar !! His word.

" I'm not lying !! Ketus Hana's.

" Hm, what is it ?? I don't believe it anyway." Tymphal Award.

" Han, do you know that the desert is arid ? But more you should know. My heart is so much bigger !! He said with a smile on his face.

" Han, do you know that the Euphrates River has begun to dry up ? More you should know that my heart is much drier Han !!

Even my heart is like a sea of difference my heart has no pairing phase, which only recedes !! Speak the Enchantment with a light.

Hana gasped at the words of Anugrah. There was a deep sense of guilt in his heart.

Warm circles that had previously been held, now finally spilled without rest.

" That's enough, Grace !! Do not stoke the hope that has melted with the memories. Let it all be etched sweetly into the memory, which we shall tell our children !! Hana said to Anugrah.

Ranti kept stroking Hana's shoulder, strengthening her. Arga was just silent in the corner of the room.

Wanting Arga's hand to be Hana's teardrop, Hana becomes Hana's comforter to turn warm circles into a smile. But Arga knew that the boundary between the non-mahrom in Islam.

He could only remain silent, pleading with God to calm Hana.

Now they were paused by a few seconds of silence, which sounded only an irregular sigh. After that Anugrah kambali voiced. But it was Hana.

" This feeling is wrong!! Enough Grace !! Enough !! Hana said weakly.

" The feeling is never wrong Han !! Anugrah Pungkas.

" Yes, you are right !! I'm wrong, I've fallen for the wrong person." Hana laughed, laughing at her stupidity.

" Hm, I'm sorry I was the wrong person and it's not right for your heart to dock." The voice of the Anugrah began to sound weak.

" You are not wrong !! Love is fitrah, never know which ship will dock. But we can still control it, as much as possible always involving God in it." Said Hana with her gentle smile. Silent for a moment.

" Han, don't you want to be my Zainab ? Asked with a shaky sigh in his tone.

Hannah was surprised when she heard the words of Anugrah. How did he know about Zainab the Prophet's daughter.

" The sholeha woman who waited for Abdul Ash to say two sentences of shahadah ?

His words paused for a few seconds.

" And who fought with him to take up the guidance of Allah ? Speak with a soft-sounding intonation.

Hana's heart was hit hard, hearing all the words that Anugrah uttered.

Hana's throat choked out could no longer speak. Rhythmic heart thumped unruffled. His tongue did not feel the same.

The tremors in his hands were now radiating to his feet, even to his entire body. Warm circles continue to flow without pause. Isakan Hana started to sound broken.

Hana patted her chest, as if wanting to let out the tightness that tormented her. With an irregular sigh, Hana steadied herself to answer Anugrah's question.

" I'm sorry you don't deserve to be my Abdul Ash !! I am happy that you will mention two sentences of the creed, but I have no intention of accompanying you to fight for the guidance of Allah !! Hana said with a vibrating tone, at the same time while continuing to issue warm circles.

Anugrah laughed again at Hana's answer, knowing that Hana was lying to her.

" It's so great Han !!

Great, you are even able to lie to your own feelings !! Speak with the emphasis.

Hana took a rough breath, "Why are you so stubborn Anugrah !! Inner Hana.

" I'm not lying !! You don't deserve to be with me !! For you are too Nauzubillah for me, O God !! Hana was determined to hurt Anugrah.

That way the feelings of Anugrah towards Hana, will turn into hate.

Jleb, Anugrah's heart is like a collision with a hard object. Tightness, pain and also pain that is what his heart is currently feeling.

Inevitably, the Hana he knew so well that tawadhu could turn into haughty.

And so did Ranti and Arga, only when they had heard Hana, a word that boasted of her.

" The sky is the sky !! And the land will remain the land." Continue Hana with her firm tone.

" Hm, yes Han I'm sorry I nauzubillah this has been presumptuous to love you !!

His words paused for a few seconds, then Anugrah set her breath, continued her words.

" I think the ground will reach the sky, with the sighing that he breathes in prayer. For he thought nothing was impossible, if God willed. But unfortunately it turns out the sky is too high haughtiness that makes the ground aware of its position.

That the land will remain a place to tread will never change position." Anugrah recited each verse with a smile while shedding tears one, two drops to countless more with fingers.

Hana felt more pain in her heart.

Why in the phase when he little by little, can forget Anugrah. At the same time, the universe came back to remind him of the figure of Anugrah.

Sanju arrives in front of Anugrah. He saw the figure of the dashing Anugrah was now panting.

The smile that had always been curled on his face, had now been changed with a cry.

He looked at Anugrah holding her phone and putting it on her cheek. I guess Hana was talking to him over the phone.

" Grah !! Call her. Anugrah wiped her tears, then turned her head towards Sanju, showing her fake smile.

" You still able ?? Sanju asked who seemed to understand Arga's heart at this moment.

Anugrah nodded yes, and developed her smile.

Sanju just smiled, unable to stop Anugrah. Not because of jealousy but Sanju did not want to see Anugrah sobbing again, let alone hurt too deep again, until Anugrah will be difficult later to rise.

Hana heard a glimpse of Sanju's voice." San, are you next to Anugrahkan ? Ask Hana.

" Yes Han !!

Finish it well with the grace !! Without hurting each other ! Sanju.

Hana digested the words of Sanju, actually Hana did not want to hurt Anugrah, with her words so sharp, but she just wanted the feeling of Anugrah turned into hate.

Still with tears in her eyes, Hana wiped away the rough tears dancing on her face.

" Grace, that's enough !! Allow this feeling that always makes my heart crash regardless !! Allow this inner tormenting feeling of mine to vanish without crying !! Please make it easy for me to forget our story." Pinta Hana gently on Anugrah.

" Hm, if I can work it out ! Anugrah tried to pretend to be tough.

Which even though his heart could not, support the Hana pinta.

The corner of Hana's lips is attracted to form a hollow. " Thank you." Her speech.

" Together, don't cry while snot you go in and out again !! Ledek Anugrah's.

Hana bought her eyes, an annoyed look on her face.

" Make it start again with the bad attitude."

hana's heart peels the Anugrah.

" Ih, I'm not a kid know !! I no longer snot at all !! Ketus Hana's.

Anugrah laughed behind the scenes, happy to hear Hana's slender tone." Yes, that is big. " Say it while laughing.

" That's it !!

With heartfelt courage, Hana resumed her words.

" Angrah." call him.

" Yes Han ? Answer Anugrah.

" You too yes, should be able to forget me, should be able to tell your feelings to me yes. I am sure you can do it if you involve God in it." Hana told Anugrah.

Anugrah smiled softly hearing it.

" I'm sorry Han, I don't seem to be able to respond to this request of yours." Anugrah said.

" When do you want to hurt your heart, Anugrah ? ask Hana.

" I don't know, maybe until you want to be my Zainab. Or maybe until the end of my life history." said Anugrah across the phone.

" I'm sorry Nug, I'm not the woman God sent to be your Zainab bint Muhammad." Hana smiled wryly, grasping the bitter of her phone.

" Hm, you know ?

If God is one. But unfortunately, our glasses in looking at God are not the same. If our glasses about God are different, how can we be together ?

With the bells in the church you begin your worship. While I, with the reverberation of Adhan is the beginning I began my worship. Pray by putting your hands together. While I pray, I raise my hand. The Rosary sentence embedded in your mouth, will never blend with the prayer line that soaks my mouth."

For a moment Hana paused her speech, exhaled her breath slowly, tried to calm herself down, then slurped her tears that were flowing down her cheeks.

" I think that's enough of a boundary between us, and it's enough of an abyss of reality to make us realize that we can't be one, and we'll never be one.

Even if you embrace Islam, maybe I am not the woman who became Zainab bint Muhammadmu." said Hana, although this hurt her heart, she still tried hard when she said.

Anugrah only smiled wryly in response to all of Hana's words, admitting that what Hana said was true.

However, that does not mean that the difference is entitled to rob Hana of her feelings.

" Look down Han, I always remember that." His word.

" We're better, aren't we ? Ask Anugrah.

" Yes, there's no more debate between us." Answer Hana.

The grace smiles." All right, can't we be friends ? " This is the umpteenth time Anugrah has done this.

Hana's heart wanted to shout in agreement, but her mind was not in harmony with it. He began to crush it on his heart and his mind. Will the fortress of principle that Hana has held all this time be collapsed ?

I don't know if he's the only one who knows that.

Pause for a moment, Hana digested the request of Anugrah.

When Hana was about to speak, Anugrah early cornered her.

" At least if you can't be my Zainab, be my friend !! Not to blame ? Ask back.

Hana again worried about making a decision, she did not know what to answer.

Then Ranti nodded her head.

And say." Which is more domineering between your heart and your mind, then that's what you should follow Han." Ranti said wisely.

Hana closed her eyes for a moment, relaxed her body, took a careful breath, then gave an answer to Anugrah.

" I'm sorry Grace !! I can't be your friend." He spoke briefly but very hurtfully.

Anugrah gasped in shock, already this hard he tried, but the results were nil. He did manage to put himself in Hana's heart, but he never managed to make himself a friend to Hana.

" Yuuu !!

All right Han, it's no problem hehe." He tried to toughen up.

" I'm sorry, please don't ask that question again, if you already know the answer will hurt you!!

" I'm sure there are women who are more deserving of your love !! There's a woman more appropriate for your love and sorry it's not me, Grah !! I hope this is the last time we talk, nothing else for next !! Hana said to Anugrah.

" You're the only one who deserves it Han,

not the others.

Hopefully not Han, I hope God allows us to talk again, again and again !! Answer Anugrah.

" Hm, I tipped Sanju yes, as long as I am not beside him please change my position. Never hurt him ! You should always be there when she likes to be sad !!

Pinta Hana on Anugrah.

" Look down Han, we've become best friends." Anugrah answered with her pedal.

"Alhamdulillah if that is so, and for Sanju please find her a good woman huh San, let her not crazy me anymore hehe." Hana said originally to Sanju.

" Hahaha, Han I will still be your laila majnun." Anugrah answered seriously to Hana.

They laugh together. Feel funny with each other's words. Once they are satisfied laugh, not for long

then Hana decided to call.

" Oh yeah, I said San, Grah !! I close Assalamu'alaikum, I'm going back to Indo in a month." Hana Saying.

Sanju answered Hana's greeting." Waalaikumussalam Hannah. Really ? Ask Sanju back.

" Yes right San, wait for me huh. See you." Hana.

"All right, I'll wait. See you too." Answer Sanju.

Hana hugged Ranti tightly, there was relief she felt, because everything was well solved.

Like a split boils, does it hurt, right ? However, the pain was only a moment the rest would be much better.

Although very difficult, Hana still tried hard to live it.

He did not understand that his encounter with Anugrah, which was only a day to end up tormenting him until this moment, maybe all this happened because he had involved the heart, he thought.

Seriate...

Sevimli, 26 October 2020

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