Rainbow Hanani
Part 27 Just got here
" We never know where our hearts are going, do we ?
We can't choose who our hearts fall to, can we ??
..." Rainbow Hanani 🌹 "...
****
Two weeks have passed, right tomorrow Hana school will hold a campground at The Habitat Penang Hill.
Hana, Ranti, and Arga were chosen for the camp this time.
So also with Izaz and Kasih also selected as camp participants.
In the evening Ranti went to the Warehouse to meet with Hana to see where Hana's packing preparations had arrived.
"Thank God I'm glad we finally got Hana. " Ranti said.
Hana was also no less happy than Ranti looked from the smile on her face.
" Yes Ran, I'm also happy that Ran will be traveling to yeeeyy Forest." Hana said with excitement.
The phone Hana rings.
Aywafikum.. " Hana mobile phone ringtone.
" Eh Han your phone sounds like that, foster hunt who knows what's important !! Ranti said to Hana.
Hana grabbed her phone and the name Anugrah appeared on her screen.
"Grace, why did he call me these nights ." Inner Hana.
Hana ignores Anugrah's call because she does not want Ranti to think about her.
" Oh this Ran doesn't know who, it doesn't matter either"." said Hana interspersed with laughter.
" Loh, really Han ? ask Ranti.
" Yes, Ranti." Hana replied, Hana does not want Ranti to linger in the Warehouse because she is afraid that the King will know about it and it could be that Ranti will get into trouble.
" Ran you hunted away, not that I'm upset with this yes but I'm afraid later you will be caught with Uncle Nazhanul ater you get in trouble again. " Hana.
" Hm yaiya Han, I know but I miss sleeping with you "Honest Ranti to Hana.
" Hm I'm also Ran, but how to try again. I also don't know why this slander can be moored on me. " Hana was still confused as to who exactly was slandering her and Arga through the photo.
" Hua you are patient Ran, God willing everything will pass quickly okay. " Ranti tried to calm Hana down.
Hannah hugged her cousin to find calm.
" Yes Han, I went back to Assalamu'alaikum Hana." Ranti said leaving it in the Warehouse.
" Yes Ran, Waalaikumussalam. " Answer Hana.
After Ranti's cell phone Hana still rings.
" Hm you why the hell Grah, please do not attend again. I don't want this to come back, Grah, but honestly, I've never thought of you as much as I used to. Is it possible because of the presence of Arga who has accompanied my current days." Hana was talking to herself.
" Abaghfirullah are you Hana, can think of the ice cube young man "Hana is confused why he thinks of Anugrah.
***
Elsewhere there was the figure of Anugrah hoping that Hana would raise her call.
" Han you why the hell, has it been almost a year since avoiding me ?? Actually what's wrong with you ? " Say the Grace.
Anugrah sent a message to Hana because Hana had not received her call.
" Han just this once I beg you to pick up !!
I just want to hear your voice, it's been almost a year since we haven't talked to each other. " The Message of Grace to Hana.
The message has been sent to Hana, Hana reads the message of Anugrah.
" Hm really you are Grah. " Hana was upset to see the stubbornness of Anugrah and finally received the call of Anugrah.
The grace he received his call immediately smiled happily.
" Hello Han, I miss you so much. How are you Han? ask Anugrah.
" I'm good, hm don't try to talk Grah directly to the point you need what to do I blind nights like this ?? Ask Hana back.
" Yes very jutek Han, can't ya? until you talk to me Han. " Say the Grace in a weak tone.
" I'm sorry Grah I did this so that I could forget you and this whole feeling is gone for you. " Inner Hana.
" Hm sorry Grah I can't take long because here the rules are very strict. So I don't have much time. " Hana tried to find a reason to be able to avoid the Anugrah.
" Han can I be honest with you, if I really feel the weight of losing you. You know when Sanju called you and I was there
you said that I can't baperin you and you also don't want to give hope to me. From there I came to the conclusion that we have the same taste for each other Han. " Say the Grace.
Taking a breath, Anugrah continued her words.
" I fell in love with you from first sight. I also don't know Han why this feeling came, but I do know we never know where our hearts are anchored ? And also we can't choose to whom our hearts fall ?? Never mind Han we don't have to deceive ourselves." Her graceful speech and droplets of clear liquid managed to escape from her eyes.
Hana also experienced the same tears began to wash over her cheeks.
" It was then and now I don't have any feelings for you. For I realize that my heart does not deserve to be anchored to someone who cannot believe in Allah!! Let's just say this feeling is stupidity between the two of us!! Forget it don't need to be discussed anymore let alone continued!! Hana said trembling with tears on her cheeks.
Anugrah laughed wryly at Hana.
" Hahaha Forget you said Han?? You think everything is as easy as saying !! Stupid thing you said ?? Han Han isn't that love is a gift from God to every human being ?? Honestly Han my heart hurt when you said that!! What a shit so much I don't deserve to love you and love you." The tears of grace are unstoppable.
The compound in Hana's body began to stir felt tight in her chest. Hana's heart rate is starting to stabilize.
" Yes you don't deserve to love me and be loved by me. I beg forcibly for you Mr. Anugrah Pota Mendrofa from now on please never again disturb my life please !! please, grace !! Said Hana whose crying voice started to break.
" If you really love me, please go away from my life. This feeling is Grah's wrong !! How can we be together ?? If our glasses about God are different ??
We just got here enough, Grah !! Please help me." Continue Hana who pleads with Anugrah.
Wisely Anugrah finally relented with her feelings. He did not want Hana hurt any further, he really thought there was something more painful than loving alone is loving each other but different beliefs.
" Hm well Han, if that's what you want I'll do it. I will never be present again in your life Han !! But to forget about you and get rid of this feeling is impossible for me. Thank you for ever returning my feelings. And last have you to Remember This feeling will never come to a halt, this longing will never stop, despite having you only an illusion but this feeling will never go away now, 'sook and forever, he said, Good night Han take good care of yourself there. " Say the Grace with a cry.
It is natural not when one experiences falling in love but is unable to have each other shed her tears, be it female or male. For we humans sometimes tears need to wet our cheeks and sometimes cry without a sound.
" Hm no need to apologize Han you have nothing wrong. Nice dream Han I close it is nice to know you thank you for being the Rainbow that colors my day.Han all colors Rainbow is a real form of your heart beauty Han, red color symbolizes your courage, you are, yellow which also shows your joy that always spreads happiness for everyone, as well as green means coolness when you hear all the words you speak, blue as the color of your loyalty that is so obedient to your religion, he said,yes Rainbow Hanani, you know Rainbow Han ? He needs rainwater to fall even he has to go through a big storm to be able to arrive dancing in the sky at dusk, I'm sure Han our story is like a rainbow. Right now maybe we need tears to shed, and we need to get through the storm of differences that hit our feelings, she said, but one day I'm sure we'll paint the same smile in a story between the two of us. " Say the Grace with tears.
" Hm Grah, I also want to be like a Rainbow that comes beautifully and goes without leaving a trace so that there is no wound I give but in fact I cannot be a Rainbow for you, I'm sorry Grah." Said Hana whose voice was getting smashed over filled with cries.
" You remain my Hananiku Rainbow now, tomorrow and later. " Arga ended his call.
" Always Grah." After Anugrah closed her call without realizing Hana's phone regardless of her grip.
" Hyx, hyx, hyx. " Hana's crying voice is getting louder.
" O Allah, I do not know why my heart can be anchored to someone who does not believe in You, O Allah ?? O God, I beg you to remove this feeling completely." Pinta Hana to the Khaliq.
" I'm sorry Grah !! I'm so selfish I can only hurt you so many times and break your heart, I don't deserve you to love Grah. I hope you can find a girl who's much more worthy of your love." Hana said that she was releasing the bracelet given by Anugrah on her wrist and keeping it in a box.
" I can't get swept up in this false feeling. My love for God must be greater than anything and for anyone." Hana said that tears were dripping down her face.
Accidentally, there was a man who noticed Hana, the man was Arga. At first Arga just wanted to ask something about the departure of their camp tomorrow. But Arga's steps stopped in front of the door when he saw Hana talking on the phone with someone who might be very meaningful to Hana. Because it was heard from all their conversations.
" So Hana likes a guy named Anugrah who has different beliefs with us. Is it so much love between them that Hana cries to sweat like that ?? I just saw this kid cry like that. " Inner Arga.
" What is handsome Anugrah ?? How good is he ?? How smart is he ?? I might lose away from him. " Think Arga.
Arga realized for what he compared himself to Anugrah there was no benefit at all.
" I thought you were Ga! it doesn't mean you think that way. Hana no rasapun Kat you, it's good I go before terkantoi." Said Arga leaving Hana's warehouse.
Elsewhere Anugrah was holding tightly to the ballpoint given by Hana and her letter. Even Anugrah often kissed the ballpoint as a release of his misses to Hana.
" Hm why does it feel like this hurts God?? Why would you give me love just to get hurt like this ?? I don't deserve to be happy !! " Anugrah once again shed her tears.
" Han why can you do this for both of us ?? I'm sure it's not only me who's hurt but also you Han !! Until now no one will ever be able to replace your position in my heart " said Anugrah.
The night was so long accompanied by the cries of two people who harbored the same feelings but had to let go of each other because of the difference in God's views between the two.
****
Next day
They have finished packing and are about to leave for school.
As usual Hana and Arga first set out to catch up with time as they were only walking to School.
Hana walked so slowly. With a puffy face, there was no sweet smile that greeted in the morning as usual. There is no Nagging Hana as a preface to the day. There was no footstroke from Hana what he used to do when Arga was nailing him.
Arga who saw Hana's attitude this morning understood that Hana was heartbroken. Argapun tried to cheer him up.
" Hm you !! Call Arga but Hana doesn't pay attention.
" Hm you !! listen, didn't I call ?? Shouted Arga to Hana.
Hana just looked at him. Without opening the sound. Arga smiled seeing Hana looking at him.
" Are you okay ?? Ask Arga.
Hana just nodded without speaking.
" Hm okay, but why are you bonyok face like that ?? Ask Arga again.
Hana again made no sound just shaking her head.
" That you're ugly add another bonyok face like that. Aish is getting ugly very know !! Arga said deliberately so that Hana scolded him.
Hana just stared intently at Arga and then looked down again with a sigh.
" Aish this slave. It is very bad if people are in love. Appetite does not de, passion life does not look like people do not de the direction of Amboy's goal. " Say Arga.
" Hm basic ice cube guy !! I know I'm sad like this how he can still make me sneak." Inner Hana.
Hana speeds up her steps so as not to be late to school because Hana is afraid to miss the Bus.
" So slow very he this road was also like a gazelle that was being hunted, very fast. " Arga doesn't understand Hana right now.
Arriving at the School all had gathered in the field to wait for their turn to ride the camp bus.
One by one has been called and all totals are present according to the selected participant stock.
" Good children please take a seat position each crew but remember not ade who sat together with the mahrom do not understand ?? Said Ms. Zakiyah.
" Please understand, Ready to do it "Answer them simultaneously.
Everything seemed so joyful, and happy over this camp. Another case with Hana who still looks gloomy after the incident last night.
Ranti who saw Hana like that was confused instead of last night Hana seemed happy to camp but why this morning looks moody.
" Han, Hana !! Tegur Ranti's.
Hana is still daydreaming.
" Hanani Syaufa !! Shouted Ranti and managed to make the daydreams of Hana.
" Eh what's up Ran ?? You're yelling at that anyway ? ask Hana.
" You're the one who was cool to daydream. And that's also the face of why the moody so instead of Happy want to camp as well. " Said Ranti.
" Oh I'm moody?? Where there I was moody hehe I just missed my family in Indonesia Ran. " Hana's alibi who doesn't want to tell her the truth happened last night.
" Hm patient Han, briefly let us take a holiday semester Kakata can return to Indo.
So you do not worry yes, plus later when we arrive at Camp Earth we call Om Tamer yes." Ranti said to calm Hana down, and Hana nodded yes.
Behind Hana's bench there was Arga who was busy watching her.
" Aboy pandainye you're acting." Inner Arga because he knows what really happened to Hana.
Their bus was traveling at medium speed towards Camp Earth.
Passing through the rice fields that spread very neatly and accompanied by Sholawatan along the way makes it more comfortable to be on the Bus.
Love is not just about having each other but also about letting go of each other.
Sevimli 11 September 2020
Warm Greetings from Author 🌹
