Petunia Amarily

6. Before actually retreating.

Time almost penetrated into the morning, when Nia still opened her eyes. The woman could not sleep, thinking of many things that disturbed her calm life. Later, Nia did not focus at all on her college eyes, in other words, the performance of Abhimanyu's youngest daughter decreased.

Nia can't sleep, and accidentally turns off the lights so her parents think Nia has fallen asleep. For tonight, Nia does not want to sleep, but wants to vent all her complaints. Although only alone, Nia was sure, God must have heard and seen it.

"How is this, God? Can I bid you fate, so that Adam will soon come to his senses and marry me? Please, Lord, have mercy on me and my son" Nia whispered softly, leaning against the balcony railing of the room and her right hand rubbing gently against her protruding belly.

"Until when will I hope and be such a foolish woman? Gosh, I'm really stupid," Nia murmured while laughing wryly by herself. Even the gusts of the night wind, enough to make Nia realize, that time has completely dissolved.

The door of Nia's room opened from the outside, showing the figure of Kia who was not able to drift in a deep drift tonight. Kia's forehead shriveled, as soon as she found her sister on the balcony. Although the lights went out, but there was a sleeping lamp that became a faint illumination.

"Nia," called Kia, went to the balcony and approached the excited sister.

Spontaneous Nia grabbed the jacket on the balcony chair, wearing it because she did not want Kia to see her stomach that began to look distended.

"Yes, brother?" ask Nia, turn around.

"Why is this night wearing a jacket after Brother arrives? Why are you crying like this, Nia? What was? What are you hiding from us?" kia asked, looking for Nia with a lot of questions.

"It's cold, Brother will nag me for sure, because I care about my health" replied Nia.

"Why aren't you asleep?" kia asked three steps forward, and aligned her body with her sister.

"So lazy to sleep, and Nia can't sleep," Nia replied later. The woman then looked up, enjoying the dark night view, moreover, the sky was covered by clouds.

"There must be an underlying reason. Aren't you able to sleep, thinking of something to do with Billy's mom?" asked Kia, turned her head to the side and looked at Nia intensely.

"Yes, of course. I was thinking about my brother who was going to marry my former lecturer," replied Nia.

"And you're hurt? Or vice versa?" kia asked, urging Nia to be honest.

"There's nothing I have to say, brother. Go to Brother's room. It's late and you should be sleeping soon," Nia switched the conversation.

"Why do you avoid asking Brother questions, Nia?" ask Kia later. He was curious, why Nia did not want to be touched by him, also curious because Nia avoided her lover, even if it was just to talk.

"Sister Kia loves him?" Ask Nia back.

"Well, I love her so much. It's just, I wouldn't have continued this marriage if you had feelings for Billy" Kia replied honestly.

"What's the love for Big Brother's lover?" ask Nia again.

"I can't describe it with words" Kia replied.

Nia fell silent, fighting her own feelings, in order to stay cool not to disturb the love and happiness of the Big Brother. His heart even though it hurts, but if it has to destroy Kia's happiness, it's the same Nia happy on top of Kia's suffering.

What else did Nia expect? After all, Farel was willing to give a clear legal status later for Nia's child. So to need Adam, it's not possible anymore.

"More? Why just silence? Ask Kia later.

Petunia realized, she was a fraud. One day, the lies and guise that he had been hiding, will gradually be revealed as well.

Just imagine what would happen, if Nia's secret was revealed? Kia must have been disappointed, and blamed herself for being dishonest from the start. No, Nia wouldn't want that to happen.

When Nia decided not to accept Adam again, burying him became a memory that Nia would not remember, then again, Nia made up her mind to no longer deal with Adam even as an Ipar.

"That's for sure, Nia. Brother is just wondering, why are you avoiding Billy so much? Is there something that makes you hate him, or is there something that makes you hurt?" ask Kia on target.

"Never take care of anything about me, brother. I have a bad history with your future husband. But regardless of what happens between me and him, I think Big Brother is what he wants. Better, Brother come back and rest. I'm tired and want to sleep right away" Nia replied in a cold voice, turning around and heading towards the balcony door.

Kia looked up at her place, looking at her sister with a questionable gaze, also uncomfortable which slowly made Kia wonder.

What the hell is this really? Why did Nia turn so cold like this? Oh, my God, what am I supposed to do?

Kia's inner whispers.

"Sister, it's night. You are sleepy and want to go to sleep, immediately go back to your room," Nia deliberately repeated her request.

"What's that bad history, Nia? Explain to Brother," insisted Nia.

"Not only am I the one you're upset with so many questions, you should be asking Adam, too" Nia replied, as her hands shook holding the balcony doorknob.

"Adam?" ask Kia later.

"Yes, Adam Billy Hutama. His name is Adam Billy Hutama, isn't it?" ask Nia.

Kia nodded, stepped forward and left the sister's room feeling uneasy, like a blob holding Kia's breath.

"Nia," called Kia once more, before she completely walked out of the room of the sister.

"Go, Brother. I'm not going to talk about anything" Nia replied, closing the door, letting her brother peek in his place.

Nia was silent behind the door, leaning back as she closed her eyes. He was tired, his tears just kept spilling out uncontrollably.

Nia then headed to the bed with slow steps, dismissing all the shadows about Adam. The honesty of Kia who loved Adam so much, made Nia helpless. His heart seemed to be smashed with thousands of invisible mines.

If you can choose, Nia wants to leave the house immediately, as far as possible and choose to live alone in the area. It might sound good.

Dear thousand dear, Nia is afraid to just start, and also afraid if she does not get a job to support herself and her child. Nia is too cowardly, timid and does not want her life to be stuck in the street.

Nia wanted to sleep, close her eyes and forget all her injuries. His pain was betrayed, in fact made all his emotions drained so far.

Tomorrow, Nia is determined to meet Adam, her brother-in-law and future sister-in-law, for one last talk, before Nia actually steps down, and they become strangers who don't know each other.

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